The Heart of Raisya

Heartbroken again

At night as usual the three of us prayed in the mosque after teaching njai. Coming home from the mosque we had dinner together in the post. Tonight's menu tempe fried tofu, fish pindang, tomato sauce and vegetable spinach.we eat with pleasure. After eating with us a short session to discuss the issue of anti-drug counseling tomorrow at Junior High School in this village.

Finish musyawaroh friends split there are sleeping, playing chess, telephone, watching TV and there is also a chat. Right now I'm sitting on the terrace texting Sofi.

"Rai's not sleeping yet?" Taufik came to me, and sat not far beside me.

"Not yet Fik, this is still an SMS with my sister. Any more news, Fik? askaku to the point.Taufik look at his HP like looking for something.

"This is Rai you saw for yourself, Fajar sent me a photo." Taufik gave me his HP, and I took it.

deg, I feel like I'm getting worse. I saw Foto Mas Andi was sitting dressed in batik clothes and opened the ring box.

"Swipe Rai, there's another picture" said Taufik, and I shifted it. And I saw the photo There was a woman in makeup in kebaya clothes and was wearing a ring by a woman. I shifted again I saw there was a Tart proposal that read 'Happy Engagement Taufik and Laras' for a moment my mind fell.

"So right Fik, Andi's real fiancee?" I asked with my eyes staring at the HP tauphik screen.

"Yes Rai, that was the show this afternoon. The dawn came and immediately sent her picture ", Taufik replied carefully.

with teary eyes returned the HP to Taufik. " Thank you Fik has given me the info, so I don't need to expect news from him anymore. Whatever the reason he's hurt me, maybe this feeling isn't too deep yet. But to cultivate it was very difficult for me, with great difficulty I tried to open my heart." I covered my face with both hands.

"You don't want to ask the reason he left you Rai? maybe he had to."

"Forced or not, he's been dishonest to me. Then why else would I hear the reason."

"Sorry Rai I don't know if this will be the case, you are patient Rai. Tomorrow I'll call Andi. If you don't need an explanation, but as his best friend I need an explanation. It's late at night, you should rest. tomorrow we have counseling."

"I'm not papa fik, you just calm down.if you want to ask sma Mas Andi please don't involve my name. yes I have entered first, want to sleep. once again thanks eloquently." I moved from my seat.

"Okay together."

I went inside and went to my bed, I did sleep in the row at the corner. I saw my friends were partly asleep, some were still on the phone. I took a leaning position. I can't deny that this heart feels pain again.

" T**no Rai*, you can't cry anymore. It is foolish to cry for a man who does not appreciate you. But God's pain, it hurts. Athaghfirullah 'this regime tests Rai many istighfar, maybe God does not want you to increase sin by loving a man who is not lawful for you*" my inner heart.

Because it's hard to sleep, I play HP. I saw the pictures with me with Mas Andi. Although not friendly but the moment of togetherness is enough to give a mark in the memory.This photo can be removed, but the memories can not be erased.

God loved me, so with this incident God rebuked me.Two times I felt heartbreak like a different person. Both are not the best for me according to my Lord.

I don't know what time I slept last night, but when I woke up my HP was lying down. As usual, I woke up at 3am. Bertahajjud devotes everything to Allah.By waiting for dawn I teach. I pray inside the house, because in the musholla is still in sleep.

At dawn, I woke up my female friends to pray. So early in the morning they queue in the bathroom to take ablution'. After the dawn prayer I took the time to read al-waqiah's letter.

After that usually there are people who sleep again, there is money to run in the morning and work on the picket.

This morning I decided to stay for a morning run with Lina.we walked in the pesawahan, several times we took a photo phose.

"Not good with the results? the faces haven't been bathing this."

"Lumayan anyway, the view is good so it supports the results of the photo, just try to see." I gave my HP to Lina.

"Well it's cool too, but it's different if I take a picture of him must not be this good. Eh Rai there's a message coming in." Lina returned my HP.See it is true there is an incoming message that turns out from Mas Andi.

Assalamu'alaikum deck, sorry to reply. Sorry for worrying too because I didn't tell you at all. Please forgive me, maybe after this I won't call you again. From now on, we each walk. You are too good for me.I do not deserve to accompany you. once again forgive me deck, may adek be given happiness.

After reading the message, it was hard to describe my current feelings. Disappointed for sure, but I have to accept it.

"Serious rai really read it, a message from whom?"

"Eh, that's from my friend. Turn yuk Lin already want 7. we're counseling at 9, not yet queue this bath."

"You're not a photo here, good view."

"Neither Lin, I don't want to go back."

"Yes have come on!" we ran back to the post.

I haven't returned a message from Andi. I don't think there's any desire to retaliate, though,

it's already sick.

When waiting for the bathroom queue sometimes we bring HP so as not to be saturated. The bathroom there are two next to each other.one is specifically male and one is female, if it is lonely to enter anywhere is possible.we make the rules. I'm in the last queue, Taufik just happened to come and go next door.

"Tumben Rai just took a shower?"

"Yes was still running in the morning with Lina."

"Oh pantesan, em Andi SMS you are not?"

"Yes there was, but I haven't answered."

"So I called him at dawn, I said stale, saying he survived. Said he was fooled by Rai."

"Oh yeah, do you believe? there are people who are fooled but his face is happy that is Fik?

"Well! uh yes also yes Rai, I pay less attention to that." Taufik paused his words."But I'm so sorry Rai, anyway I got a leak from Dawn he said Andi once asked permission from his mother to take you to his house to introduce you to it, but it turns out his mother did not agree. Andi's fiancee is a friend of her brother, yes 2 years older than Andi he said. So the one who knew her brother, and Andi's mother agreed with Rai."

"Maybe her mother disagrees because of my status as a widow, do you?"

"Sorry Rai is not what I mean." Taufik's words stopped because he saw Lina coming out of the bath. "Eh, there's a sweet one". The difference is with Lina.

" Gih Rai, I'm done."

"Ah yes Lin. I go in first Fik, don't be teased and hold people's children. Seriously come to his house." I went into the bathroom leaving the two of them.

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See you again brother, sorry if my work ngebosenin. Thanks for the support.