The Heart of Raisya

Husband confessions

The day my husband promised. That he's going home today. He sent a message that he was on the road. With a cautious heart I waited for him.

"Assalamu'alaikum."

"wa'alaikum salam." There was a little relief in my heart, seeing my husband actually getting home.

I approached Brother Firman in front of me kiss the back of his hand. Then we went into the room. Coincidentally at home there is only, Sofi, karma ummi and abi are going out.

"Have you eaten?"

"Yes, that was."

"Where are ummi and abi?"

"They're out, maybe a new afternoon is back."

"I want to take you out, get ready someone wants to see you."

"Who's brother?"

"Later you also know, now change clothes I wait in front."

Even to see me change my husband's clothes won't.

" All right, wait a minute."

When I was ready, we left. Inwardly ask where he wants to be taken and meet whom.

Go to a cafe not too far from my house. At this cafe serving ice cream menu and snacks.After we sat down my husband called one of the waiters there.

"Mak mbak."Kak Firman waved to one of the cafe's waiters

"What do you want a message for?"

"Es cream cappuccino 2."

Without asking me, he ordered the drink.

"Oh yes mbk, there was a woman wearing sunglasses. Sit over here, where are you?

" Oh who came the same? already gone was followed by the temenya mas." explained the waiter.

"Thank you, ma'am."

I obviously heard their conversation. I don't know who the woman they're talking about. But there is a curiosity in my heart.

"I was going to introduce you to someone, but he's gone."

"Is he the one whom you name on your phone" I paused my words, "emm FIRST WIFE?" I asked hesitantly, for I was afraid that he would be offended.

For a moment he looked at me.

" Yes he, I know you may have seen that name calling me often. But I don't know why you pretended not to know, you never even asked me. He is the one I love very much. I don't know what your heart is made of, your attitude makes me feel guilty."

All this time I was silent because I did not know anything, but I was looking for the right time because I was afraid of wrongdoing

" Drink the ice first." he stirred his coffee ice cream.

while I don't taste the real drink is my favorite at the moment. Because the throat feels choked.

" Sister bring me here to say what?"

"Where will our relationship go?" brother Firman straight to the point.

"Sister is my priest, I follow what my priest says." I resigned."

" huh why do you always resign, don't you want to be happy? you're too good for me. You do all that is the duty of a wife, and I am not a husband. All this time I've been holding back not because I'm not interested in you, but I don't want to ruin you. Let you be holy when you find the right person."

" Now I ask, What does your brother want?"

He shut up and took my drink, the only drink I had stirred.

" I want us to be brothers."

Jedarr.....

It was as if there was a lightning bolt that broke my heart, but out of nowhere this power I got, I could still smile in front of him. Although not directly with the word talak, but his speech was already including talak kinaya. Yan's words are not clear meaning but have led to divorce.

"That means I'll get your mentality. I can't keep going like this, until when I'm gonna hurt you. You have served me, patiently waiting for me. If no one precedes you in my heart, perhaps if any stone you prepared me I would swallow. But I love other people and I can't change my feelings."

And now it's clear his talisman. I saw her eyes glazed over, I knew it might be heavy for her, but why go this far. My eyes hurt the clear water manganese from earlier urged to come out. But I know, because I don't want to be fragile in front of him.

" Before our marriage I've tried to contact brother to talk about our relationship to be clear and not to harm anyone".

"The rice has become pure maybe this is the destiny of God, no one knows maybe with our incident there is so great wisdom for us and our families. It's possible that by sitting in the back of the day many people are happy, and instead their happiness can reward us."

"Well, it's true that rice has become porridge, and that talaq has fallen on me, so right now we are not husband and wife, religiously" I said.

"Well if that's the case, brother, thank you for all the time during these 22 days for being my husband.

"May God not give His karma to my son. Because I never meant to hurt you. It's all beyond my will. If I meant no good, it's been since the first night that I took my rights as a husband. It's not that I'm not interested in you, but there's a heart I have to take care of. I'll take you home, but I don't dare say to your parents, let my family see them."

Besides being irresponsible, my ex-husband is a coward.

"Maybe that woman is so special that Big Brother's love is so amazing. She was lucky to be the woman she loved. Not like me who_" I paused my words. "Don't take me home first, I'm not ready to say all that to ummi and abi. I can't hurt them yet."

" Well this time I'll take you around, in exchange for being my wife, never once did I take you on the road."

With a shaven body and a broken heart I still remain with my composure. God was so good to me, giving me incredible strength.

That afternoon we went around the city without direction and destination, spending until the afternoon arrived. And we finally got home.

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