The Heart of Raisya

They're my spirit

Pov Faisal:

If I could choose, I would still want to have you Rai. But right now my choice is not important, the most important thing for me is that no one hurts you anymore. You are a strong woman, and worth fighting for. I don't want to fight for you, but I don't deserve to fight for you. Is not true love seeing the person we love happy, even if not with us. And love is not just about pleasure, but sacrifice. May you soon find your happiness.

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I'm home now. Ummi and Abi were waiting for me in the living room. Suddenly I felt my eyes twitching. I fell right on the door. And I lost consciousness.

"Wheels....!" Ummi and Abi Panic. They immediately grabbed me, brought me into the room. And lay me on the bed. Ummi took off my veil and gave me some wind oil on my nose and neck. Rubbing my feet that feel cold. I began to gain consciousness, and opened my eyes.

"Alhamdulillah.... " Gratitude Ummi and Abi.

"Rai, what's wrong with you?"

"Not knowing Ummi, it felt like my eyes were reduced. I had a little fever."

"You haven't eaten yet, Rai?"

"Not lunch yet, Ummi. Rai was sleeping."

"Yes, Ummi get rice first let you eat."

Ummi got me some rice and some clear vegetables to eat. Actually I don't breathe* eat, but again I don't want to make both of them worry.

On the night of the day, Sofi and Irfan come along with Baby Zie. Soon followed by Mbak Rindi and Mas Rendy and the twins.

I was still lying weakly in bed. It was examined by Doctor Fina who came to the house. I was just exhausted, and a little depressed. Plus not eating routine.

I was so happy when Baby Zie and the twins came, it reduced the burden of the mind a little by listening to their babbling. There's no discussion tonight. They came to see me and give me spirit.

The next day, at 9 am there was a message incoming from Mas Faisal.

💌 Mas Faisal

Assalamu'alaic...

Rai, I heard you were sick. I hope the pain is not because of our problems. I would be very guilty if that were the truth. I'm sorry Rai, please don't think about anything. You must be healthy, your students will miss you. I pray you will heal quickly.

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Tastes my chest. Faisal is a good man. I don't want him to feel guilty about this. Because it's not his fault.

I immediately replied to the message.

💌Raisya

Salam wa'alaikum....

I'm just an ordinary pain Mas, because of late eating and fatigue. God will soon be healed. Thank you for praying.

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Please don't pay attention to me, Mom. Because I don't want to be comfortable. My mind is in my heart.

I immediately put my HP back. Today I was alone at home, Ummi and Abi to the store. Ummi didn't want to leave because he was worried about me. But I assured him that I was okay.

At 3pm Ummi and Abi arrived. I've woken up. I am currently replying to a message from Ms. Lilik asking about my situation.

"Rai, this was Ummi buying you Martabak."

"Thank you, Ummi."

"Rai, Ummi knows how you feel right now. Ummi is sure you're strong."

"Ummi know?"

"Yes, Ummi and Abi already know. Last night Rindi told me. Ummi can't imagine how you feel, Rai. Ummi also kasian to Faisal. But you've made the right decision."

FLASH BACK ON

Ummi, Abi, Sofi, Irfan, Rindi and Rendy, they gather in the living room.Si twins play in Raisya's room.

"Rin, tell me what happened! Why come home from Faisal's parents' house, Rai is not as usual?" Ummi.

"Sorry, Aunt. It's in our shadow quart. I didn't think it would be like this. Aunt know? Septi's sister Ical is the wife of the Word."

"Firman Mbak Rai's ex-husband?" Sofi. And Rindi nodded confidently.

"O Allah, the world is so narrow. I can't imagine Raisya's feelings right now." Ummi.

Rindi finally told me everything that happened. Starting from the event at Mas Faisal's parents' house. And when Faisal came to Rindi's house. Also Faisal's intention and the family will propose to Raisya.

"I'm like them both, Auntie... Om. They are just victims of the past. But this is what happened."

"I also wouldn't agree if Faisal and his family would still propose to Raisya. Even though I know Faisal really appreciates Raisya." Abi said firmly.

"It's a test, Om. But I might not be strong in Raisya's position." Rindi chimed again.

"God knows what's best for Raisya. Luckily they were not engaged. Otherwise, I can't imagine it." Ummi.

"Now we don't have to ask Raisya much. Enough we give him support and encouragement." Said Abi.

Their conversation is over. Neither Sofi, nor Rindi pampit home because it was 10 p.m.

FLASH BACK OFF

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Two days passed, I was cured and I started going to school. Three days I'm licensed because I'm sick, I feel like I miss my students so much. Although sometimes they breeze, but they can make my life colorful and become my spirit.

I am currently in Class 8B. Although my heart is not fine, I must remain strong. I shouldn't show my sadness in front of my students.

"Mom... Mommy." Call one of the students named Ridwan. His son was diligent though a little rancid.

"Yes, what's wrong, Wan?" I looked up at Ridwan.

"You know why last night the stars didn't show up?"

"Mom doesn't know! I don't see the sky." Honest words.

"Because there's cloudiness on Mom's face."

"Huuu." another friend cheered Ridwan. I just smiled in response.

"Mom don't smile, Mum!" Said Ridwan back."

"Why, Wan?" My toot.

"I'm afraid of drowning, the well in Mom's cheek is too deep."

"Juu...." They returned to cheer. That's how they feel in class.

"ssttt! don't be noisy. Let's collect the book! You don't keep fighting, Wan! Learn the right thing."

A very exhausting day. Because these three days I just fell asleep at home, and only today went to school again. Ever since Mas Faisal sent a message asking me about my situation, he had been left with no news. Maybe it's better that way. I don't want to torture my heart any more, with Mas Faisal still giving his attention to me.

My HP is ringing, there's a new number I'm not familiar with. I have no desire to lift it. But because it rang so many times, I was forced to take the call.

"Hallo...!" Say the guy across there. A female voice, which I seem to have heard.

"Hallo, Assalamu'alaikum." My speech.

"Wa'alaikum hail! It's me, Ani! Septiyan!" Saying again. I am no stranger to this voice. I almost forgot this number called me.

"Yes, what's the need to call me?"

"Well, feel great! Brother Faisal has defended you in front of the family. But you refused it! Even he would willingly not come back here to be able to defend you! And he also scolded me all out for defending you! He's seen more women he's just met than his own family!"

"I'm sorry I never asked to be defended. And for our decision, it's our right. I refused it for our good. Isn't that what you want!? And you don't have to worry, I'll never be around you again, what else snatch your husband!"

"For your sake, Brother Faisal will go out of the country!"

I was surprised to hear that. But as calmly as possible I responded.

"Don't always blame someone else!Self introspection! I have given up until now. Please don't disturb my calm. You are a mother, and soon you will give birth again. Think and say something good! Because karma is not as sweet as dates! Assalamu'alaikum..." I hung up on the phone call. It feels good to be able to bring out the grunts in the heart.

I also blocked the number, because I did not want to be disturbed again by Septi. I was quiet enough and patient.

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