The Heart of Raisya

First breath

Tonight, once my husband was home, he would usually return to the counter after the maghrib prayer. I saw him sitting on the porch playing his cell phone.

This is my chance to talk to him seriously. I won't put it off again.

" mm. sis."

he was a little surprised but did not turn his head, only he pulled his phone. I sat in an empty chair next to him.

" sister, I want to talk."

" speak, you have the right to speak."

This I want to talk to my own husband how the atmosphere beats talking with the exam lecturer.

"Where is sister's business, smoothly?" I'm starting to get stale.

" yes, thank God it is good."

I shut up for a moment, confused about how. Sku was afraid to offend him, but for what I was silent, all this time it was not my brother who always kept his feelings, but not with him.

" It's a bit of a windfall, take it for a side dish and vegetables tomorrow!" Brother Word gave me a red piece of paper money.

It's only the first time during marriage that she gives me a living, I'll accept whatever it is, and I'll use it as best I can. But this time it wasn't about the money I had in mind, it was about our unhealthy relationship.

" Thank you brother, may it be replaced by more blessings." Sincerely said. We are silent with our own minds. It's hard to say what's on my mind.

" Not to the counter, brother?

" Nantik after the Isya prayer."

" Returned by malem again?" ask me carefully.

" What will you say, you don't have to wait for me to come home, if you're sleepy."

" Em yes brother, sorry brother maybe tomorrow I will stay at home abi. Because I have group work, and my friend's house is closer there. So we'll be easier to work on, will you allow?"

" Go ahead, after all, since marriage I've realized we're different, you have more power than me whose life will only be with you."

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My heart.... Are you still there? there were so many hits that I hit.

" I'm sorry, sister, why did you say that? I am your wife and you are my husband, a husband who has more rights because the husband is the leader in the household.

I don't understand what that means, why it's like he's blaming me and my family.

"I'm your wife's feet, if I'm wrong please tell me, if we're not the same let's talk about it so we can move along." I held back my emotions, I held back, this time I spoke very seriously to him.

" there's no need to continue this conversation, it will be long, tomorrow I take you to the abi house, it's okay let's pray first." he stood up from his seat and then stepped into the bathroom.

For a moment I suppress this uneasiness, maybe after prayers nantik will be better. We also pray a congregational prayer.After the prayer he went to the counter with a cold mood he said with a short sentence

" i'm leaving." I only responded with a nod of the head. I saw a glimpse of his eyes red. Maybe he was holding back his emotions.

" O Allah there is never any intention of the servant to make the husband of the servant angry, this is just this to straighten our relationship, but instead it becomes this way".My love after his departure.

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the next day.

At breakfast there was no chatter at all, we were silent. I'm afraid to start the conversation again, I don't want to see my man get angry at the house Abi rarely gets angry at his son. If with ummi maybe occasionally it is not in front of us.

"Prepare, I'll take you to Abi's house." My husband started the conversation.

Is this a good thing for me, or is this a form of anger. But I don't want to take a headache, I'll do it.

After saying goodbye to grandma, we set off riding the white one. I am relieved because if Kak Firman uses my motorbike it means he will also stay at the abi house. Yes for a while we paced back and forth first.Sometimes at home alone, sometimes at home abi, sometimes at home Kak Fir. No child is yet a burden.

"h wait wait, son? hahaha how would a child touch me as if he were disgusted. Which woman does not want children after marriage. But it was quite a dream for me." My mind was in my heart on the way to Abi's house.

At last we reached the abi house, we went straight into the room.

" Sister is here too, right?"

"God willing, what time do you go to college?

"Even at 1 but the end of this Princess wants to pick me up, so beautiful after doing my duty directly to the same campus Princess.

"Oh yeah, yeah it's nice to go home from college I picked up."

" well brother" I replied with a smile.

See you again sister🤗