The Heart I Choose

Episodes 2.1

Months after I left Mas Wandi's house and went home to Dad, I had gotten a job as a mobile phone accessories shopkeeper. With a decent salary enough to finance the lives of the three of us, to eat I was still hitchhiking Dad and Mom.

This afternoon without telling you before, Mas Wandi came to Dad's house with Mama and her extended family.

"We want to pick up Mia," Mama said after previously making small talk.

"We leave all decisions to Mia" replied Father.

I can only bow my head, the love for Mas Wandi is still as big as it used to be, but this time there is a hate present for him as well. Imagining the pain of her treatment all along, not the first time she apologized and repeatedly made the same mistake over and over again.

His selfishness because his parents always pampered me just like a maid for him,

"Where's Mia?" mama's question broke my daydream.

"Mia wants to think first Mama," I said, yes.this time I have to think about my future, it was quite a quick decision that I have given it turns out the risk is painful.

"Mia´s.... I'm sorry, I promise to try to be a good husband and father" Mas Wandi glanced at me.

His gaze again made the love I once fought for present again, "Give me time!"

When her father never left her lap, Kiyah also always asked to be carried by Mas Wandi, maybe they felt the same longing.

Mas Wandi and his family came home, Dika cried to follow his Papa. I allow on condition that tomorrow must be delivered back.

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The night I could not sleep, I had never separated from Dika, although she was safe with Papa and Grandma, but my feelings were still not good without Dika.

I'd like to call Mas Wandi,

"Mas, I'd like to talk to Dika, would you?" I said after Mas Wandi picked up my phone.

"When you're asleep" said Mas Wandi.

"Okay, yes, yes!" I said and I'll turn off my phone.

"Mia...wait, don't turn it off first," said Mas Wandi.

"What's the matter?" I guess what he'll tell you.

"I'll send Dika tomorrow if you want to come back to accept me, otherwise I won't return Dika to you."

Degs....

It turns out that Mas Wandi is still unchanged, he is still a selfish person who always wants to get what he wants. I really need to decide what is appropriate for my life.

Tonight, the beautiful sound of crickets and night birds, did not bring me to sleep, but I already knew what I had taken and tomorrow I will tell you.

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The day had been afternoon, drizzling since morning made the air very cool and calm, but not with my heart, feeling anxious and waiting for the arrival of Dika who will be ushered Mas Wandi and his family.

They have not yet come, even though the promise of daylight will deliver Dika.

"Assalamualaik."

Towards the magrib they just arrived, Dika hugged me, he looked happy, many toys in his grasp.

"When playing with Kiyah ya, adek already kangen his brother tuh!" I said while pointing at Kiyah who looked happy to see her brother Dika.

My mother and the other family looked at me, seemingly impatiently waiting for my decision.

"Thank you Mama and everyone who has come to this house, Mia has been thinking carefully about the toughest decision that Mia chose,"

"Old...." Mas Wandi cut me off, Mama tried to hold him back.

My decision is getting more steady, "Mia has not wanted to go back to Mas Wandi."

Everything was silent, Papa Mas Wandi did not say much, only Mama was seen whispering with Mas Wandi, Mas Wandi's angry face was looking at me. But I'm no longer as afraid as I used to be.

"I'll never divorce you!" mas Wandi said, "You will never let me marry anyone else."

"I'm rejecting you right now not because I'm going to have your replacement, I just want you to really change Mas, if I see you've changed, I'll come back to you" I said.

"You think I'm gonna?" he said as he stood up, "I want to take Dika."

"No way, who are you going to work with Dika?" I started crying.

"Mama who will take care," replied Mas Wandi, without pity, even though the previous two children Rian and Rani had been raised by Mama until now.

He still attach great importance to his ego, I see Mama just quietly resigned. His overindulgent attitude to children backfired for him.

"When you want to come with Papa, right?!" asked Mas Wandi softly to Dika.

"You want, but Mama's coming, right?" Dika looked at me. I shake my head, my eyes start to water. "If you don't want to, if Mama doesn't come." she continued playing with Kiyah, she doesn't understand the current situation.

"When you come with Papa again! tomorrow Papa interracial," Mas Wandi still trying to persuade Dika.

I saw Dika nod, I can't forbid it.

"Promise tomorrow! Tomorrow we'll list SD," I said.

Mas Wandi did not ignore my words, he passed carrying Dika, without further permission to Father and Mother, only Mama and Papa were happy to shake hands with me and Dad.

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Tomorrow Mas Wandi did not deliver Dika, I tried to call, but not picked up and directly blocked. The next time I went to Mas Wandi's house, they didn't let me in, I saw Dika peeking in the window, calling my name.

I shouted, calling Dika's name, why they had the heart, I cried and begged. Finally Mama came out,

"Go home! When we registered for school here," Mama met me outside.

"Ma ....please allow Dika to stay with me," I begged her.

"You won't be able to live it, to eat it still depends on your father," said Mama hit the chest, hurt so much

I no longer cry but have wailed and begged, that they would return my Son.

"Go, don't embarrass our family!"

Mom went inside and slammed the door.

Prraakk.....

The sound of doors made of expensive wood that cost probably a third the price of my current home, added to the pain in the chest. I tried to shake my hand, but the sound was meaningless, I saw Dika had been kept away from the window, his hand reaching out like he wanted to reach me.

"I mohoooon.... Mamaaa...." I cried, did they hear it???