The Heart I Choose

POVs Wandi 4

Every night I come home at night, Cita no longer reprimands me, fixed salary money I never give to mind, it seems for the needs of his mother who loves or maybe use the savings money, he said, or maybe from his mother Cita without his knowledge. I don't care because the salary money for myself isn't enough how I should give it to my mind. My friends are getting more and more, but there's nothing from the office, nothing from the office, they stayed away because they couldn't keep up with my lifestyle.

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That night I was told that mind had been rushed to the hospital because of pain like going to give birth, Cita had to be operated because there were no openings after a night in induction, the morning of surgery was done, Cita had to be operated on, I don't hold money at all, health insurance I never take care of. As usual, my mother is still my hero, with my father, who likes to wait for the first grandchild, they bear all the costs, baby clothes are also complete, who or with whom Cita bought it I was never involved, or I never cared.

After paying the hospital fee which cost more than 14 million, we went home, I was so upset with Cita, had she not needed surgery, she said, so much money can be used for others, you lazy mind during pregnancy more sleep I see.

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My son, who was born male, is very white like Cita,

"Wan, have you prepared a name for your son?" papa asked

"Not yet." I didn't think of a name, I never went to check on her mind, sometimes she went with my mom or my sister.

All agree including me, what's wrong with the mind that gives the name, anyway Cita mother. Khitanan Rian will be done soon, papa wants to be before the age of 21 days, again where my money from.

Mama who returned to save him and assisted with Cita's savings money, Cita's parents were not involved because Papa was embarrassed.

All my family is very dear to Rian, my brother and sister who are not married, treat Rian like their child, they always help Cita to take care of Rian. I've started to reduce activities outside the house, I stopped association with friends outside my office. I've always missed playing with Rian.

Three months at home without other entertainment, making me saturated, especially Rian can not be played with, I want to re-assemble with my friends for sure they also miss me. Cita was getting tired of my attitude, she ran to her parents' house. At first I was happy that Cita was not at home I could be more free, but over time I felt homesick with Rian and my man's desire that was not channeled made me want to pick up Cita, plus papa who is always angry, considers the idea of running because of my actions, my mother, brother and sister also miss Rian very much.

At Mama's company we picked up Cita, I begged her, promised to change my attitude and would give her my salary, crying I knelt to her, Cita was devastated, lucky that Cita's parents didn't interfere too much, which I'm afraid didn't happen,

"Thank you baby" I kissed you.

"May you keep your promise wan" Cita hugged me.