Sharing Love - A Cold Husband

CHAPTER 81 ~ Asks ~

Allena sat on the sofa in a walk in closet and cried. Allena regretted deciding to seek the attention of her husband by seizing the man's cellphone.

I'm sorry, brother, I'll never repeat it again. I'll never touch your phone again, I'm sorry, don't be cold to me again.

Allena sobbed as she imagined Zefran's cold demeanor the first time they were married. Allena could not imagine those days. Zefran who was rude and demeaning. Insulting him and even hating him. Allena was really sorry to make the man angry.

The woman closed her eyes remembering just before the incident. They were still hugging each other, still saying the word love, still joking with each other but everything changed in an instant. It is only because of the wrong choice of words and deeds.

If time could be repeated, I wouldn't do that. I won't bother him, I'll wait until his anger subsides. I won't touch her phone, Allena's heart cries out.

The girl cried as she pleased, until Zefran entered the walk in closet and looked at her. Allena looked at her husband and stood hesitating. 

"I'm sorry sister, I won't repeat it again" Allena said in a hoarse voice.

Allena's tears are flowing again. The woman was downcast, feeling guilty about her actions. Apologizing with hesitation and fear will make matters worse. Allena waited for what her husband would say.

Zefran looked at his wife's blushing cheeks.

Why am I so easy to hurt him? When did my hand stop hurting her? The heart of Zefran.

The man stepped closer to Allena and wanted to rub the flushed cheeks. Allena was startled and tense as she saw the hand coming towards her cheek. The woman was traumatized and thought Zefran would slap her back. Seeing that Zefran felt very sorry and immediately grabbed his wife into his arms.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Allena. My reaction was too exaggerated. I'm sorry Allena, I'm sorry dear" Zefran said repeatedly apologizing and hugging his wife even more tightly.

The man even cried, especially when he remembered Allena's fearful look when he saw her hand coming closer to his face.

"I'm the guilty one, I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry!" said Allena who has now dared to return her husband's embrace.

"No dear, I was wrong" Zefran replied.

Zefran doesn't want Allena to blame him. Because he himself knew that snatching the phone was not the real reason for his anger. It was just an excuse for him to vent his frustration over his jealousy at the handsome model who sent Allena a photo.

I was wrong Allena, my real annoyance wasn't that you snatched my phone. But since I am jealous, why don't you understand, I am still trying to calm my heart Zefran cried.

Zefran stretched out his arms and kissed the cheek of his former slap.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" she said every time she kissed Allena's cheek.

The man did so many times until Allena involuntarily smiled. Allena turned her head, making her lips replace the position of her cheeks. Zefran smiled then further buried his lips into the woman's lips. Allena is happy because Zefran has forgiven her, Zefran was happy to see Allena who accepted his apology.

However, even though they had forgiven each other, Zefran considered their problems unfinished. Zefran always blamed Allena for his closeness to Robert Daniel. While the model was completely unaware of the problems arising in his household because of his behavior that was so familiar with his wife.

The next day, Zefran was going to meet Robert Daniel. At breakfast the man asked if Allena was going to the fashion company that day. Allena shook her head, because there was no business, besides Allena felt the company reminded her of Robert Daniel which made Zefran angry at her.

As usual Allena take to the terrace of the house and usually Zefran will say goodbye by peeling his lips. But this time the man seemed indifferent and just passed away leaving him.

Is Brother Zefran still angry? Why did Zefran ask me to go to a fashion company? Does he believe I'm not going there? During breakfast he was silent, what was he thinking? Does he not trust me anymore? No, she never believed me, Allena's inner being with teary eyes.

The woman lowered her head, looked at the terrace floor while opening her eyes so that the water in her eye sinks would immediately disappear. Without realizing it Zefran had stood before him. Raising his chin then pecking his lips then hugging him.

"I forgot to kiss you, because I had too many thoughts, I forgot. Don't cry baby, I don't hate you. I don't want you to hate me either. I'm sorry yes!" zefran said as he cupped his wife's face.

Zefran stared at the tears still remaining wet his wife's two eyelashes. Zefran peeped both eyes.

I won't hurt you, I have no intention of hurting you. But I can't help my jealousy, her inner self.

"I'm sorry, baby! Don't be sad anymore, if you are sad, I am also sad. Do you know what? To hurt you is to hurt myself. I don't know why I'm like this, but what I feel is that I don't want to lose you. I hope you understand, I was bad because I was afraid of losing you. From today on, I will learn to control my emotions, do you understand baby?" ask Zefran.

Allena nodded while looking into Zefran's eyes. The man smiled and kissed Allena's lips once more and left for work. Zefran waved his hand from inside the stopped car in front of Allena. Allena returned Zefran's hand with a smile to make the man's heart relieved to go to work.

Seeing the woman he loved through the rearview mirror with a smile until finally out of the gate of his house.

Why is my nature like this, when I was with Frisca I was not like this. I trust Frisca. Although I ended up being lied to by him, inner Zefran.

"There are a lot of things that make you more possessive" Patrick said as Zefran called the man into his room.

"Protected yourself for believing in Frisca that ultimately cost you. He cheated on you and you blamed yourself for trusting him too much. Now the impact on Allena, you don't want what happened to Frisca to happen again to Allena" Patrick explained.

"I even slapped him in the face, do you know? How could my hand so lightly float to such a gentle face. It felt like I wanted to cut off my hand this way out of annoyance," Zefran lamented as he looked at his own palm and it made Patrick laugh.

"You don't want to make her cry anymore but if you cut off your hand, she'll cry for the rest of her life" Zefran's best friend replied.

"It's not the first time I've slapped him" Zefran said.

"Oh yeah? What made you slap him that time?" ask Patrick.

"I was upset to see him walking around with Valen who bought him a lot of stuff" Zefran replied.

"Jealous, that's the point. You know what a possessive is? Jealousy goes beyond the limits seasoned with excessive insecure. You're jealous to see Allena happy by Valen. Because you feel you're the one who should be happy for Allena and now jealous of that model because you're afraid that guy took Allena from you" Patrick explained.

"I was planning to meet him today, wasn't that excessive? I want the man away from my wife" Zefran said.

"Do it! But don't get emotional, go to him and ask him how he feels about Allena. If you knew from her straight away maybe your heart would calm down and not always blame Allena" Patrick said. Zefran.

That afternoon Zefran met Robert Daniel. The model immediately greeted Zefran when told the handsome CEO was looking for him. Robert Daniel invites Zefran to talk while drinking in the bar on the top floor of the fashion company building.

Zefran looked around the bar filled with handsome men and fashionable women. They are models who work under the auspices of a fashion company owned by Ny. Marilyn.

Most of the women glanced at Zefran who had just arrived. Someone smiled at him, someone blinked his eyes and someone immediately greeted him. They thought Zefran was Robert Daniel's new model of guidance.

The handsome model immediately banished them subtly on the grounds that Zefran was not a model and he came to talk to her.

"I saw pictures of you with my wife that you sent to her phone" Zefran said, to the point.

"You peeked at your wife's phone?" ask Robert Daniel with a laugh.

Shit, he laughed. But what he said was true, I had peeked at my wife's phone, inner Zefran.

Recalling the sharp remark he made to his wife 'You're getting disrespectful to your husband, how dare you seize people's personal belongings'.

Personal items? Is there still something personal in the relationship between husband and wife? Nothing personal between us, everything should be open. Allena knows I peeked at her phone but she doesn't mind, because for her there's nothing to hide, I'm guilty. My words were completely wrong, inner Zefran.

The man listened to Robert Daniel. Many thoughts and regrets arise because of the speech of the handsome model. And as long as Zefran thought, Robert Daniel just silently stared at Zefran's pensive handsome face.

"Are you unthinkable to find a distraction from being a model? It's a pity that your handsome face is" Robert Daniel said as he watched the man lift his face toward him.

"No, I don't have the talent to be a model. I am not interested in being a model either. I'm here to ask you. What is your relationship with my wife? I wonder, do you like Allena?" ask Zefran bertubi.

Robert Daniel smiled.

"Allena? Who doesn't like it? She's nice, she's beautiful, helpful and fun. Who doesn't like him?" robert Daniel asked Zefran.

"I mean the special feeling between a man and a woman, love, love her for loving her?" ask Zefran more firmly.

"No, my relationship with him is not like that. He was my colleague, my friend, my best friend, my sister, the woman I loved" Robert Daniel explained straight to the heart of the matter.

The man wanted to instantly clarify his problem. Robert Daniel has figured out the direction of Zefran's talks.

"Do you know how long we've been friends? More than five years. I knew him and we were instantly familiar when he was studying in Paris. He's a hard worker and studies very hard." The story of Robert Daniel who stopped for a moment to gulp a drink in front of him.

"I was his refuge during his harsh life. His desire to study was so high that it made me want to study with him. We traveled to different countries. To all the fashion centers of the world, London, Milan, New York. Tokyo, Amsterdam, Lisbon, Florence and more. My relationship with him is very close, there are no secrets between us" said Robert Daniel, noting Zefran's increasingly tense countenance.

"I accompanied Allena through her hard struggle to achieve her goals. He even willingly just eat sandwich all day or eat instant noodles in order to save money in order to send money to mother and child. Where were you then? He always showed his ring finger to every man who wanted to get close to him. The words 'i'm married' or 'i've been married' are always spoken when showing a wedding ring on his ring finger. But where is that man? The man she always acknowledged as her husband? Why is he alone living a difficult life? It was once thought of by me, but I don't care anymore about the answer. I just want to accompany her and will always be with her. If others are told to choose which of us deserves love and affection from them? What do you think their answer is?" robert Daniel asked who made Zefran's jaw harden instantly.

Zefran was silently glued to the face of the handsome model before him. His mind was at a dead end, thinking of what answers he could throw at him to answer Robert Daniel's question.

...~ Connect ~...