Rainbow Cloud

Chapter 6's

“You're finally home. Fortunately there was Andre who picked you up,” grandma greeted me who just entered the house. I was glad that someone was worried about me and I remembered that man.

“Reza where?”

“Ah, the boy also just came home raining. So Grandma told him to take a shower. Since you've come, please make him some hot tea later. He must have been cold after the rain. Grandma doesn't know where she's soaking wet from so,” grandma always nags every worry about something. Grandma must have liked that guy even though I didn't see them interacting much.

“Iya, Mother. Grandma also want hot tea?”

“Not necessary. Grandma's tea still there.”

I left Grandma sitting in the living room. I changed my slightly wet clothes before going to the kitchen to make tea.

“You just sit down. Let me make tea,” Brother Andre is already in front of the stove with a pot of water that is almost boiling.

“Still, Brother.”

The cold war between us ended. I've decided to forgive him if he picks me up and that's what he does. Moreover, I didn't want to feel the strange feeling I just realized further.

I love Brother Andre. I just need Andre. And I can't possibly fall in love with my enemy. I tried to convince myself even though I didn't know why I needed to be convinced of that.

Well, people say the difference between love and hate is very thin. And some say the more you don't want to fall in love with someone, the more likely you are to fall in love. That's what I'm trying to avoid. I don't want that to happen to me.

That's why I need Andre. I need him to get closer to me. That way I won't think anymore.

Soon a man who made my heart flustered came out of the bathroom. Maybe because I just realized his dazzling figure, I immediately saw his charm and immediately threw away my face.

“You're home,” he said like nothing happened between us. But nothing happened between us.

“This I made hot tea,” Brother Andre served his homemade tea and the two men sat at the dinner table with me. Brother Andre gave me my tea and I was still silent.

The questions that scared me came up again. It makes me unable to calm down. I was even afraid to see her figure. I can only see my tea and Brother Andre. I couldn't see the left side where he was sitting.

You laugh at me? Let me tell you, only then did I think of that man not as my enemy and I didn't know what to think of him as a man. There's no way I'm looking for things I hate anymore. I don't want to hate him. But I don't want to fall in love with him either.

Therefore I can only blame Brother Andre who did not immediately make a decision. I was really upset that he didn't make a decision right away knowing I was ready. Was he afraid that my heart would change?

You are also free to blame him. But maybe you'd rather I'm confused, tormented, and in love with my former enemy?

That night, unable to sleep, I decided to go out and breathe some fresh air to clear my mind. Who would have thought that the man had already sat down on the porch and observed the stars. That's what I do when I can't sleep.

He realized my arrival before I could quietly return to the room.

“We can see many stars here,” he said suddenly.

Okay, he's really weird. He's really changed. I no longer knew the man in front of me and maybe that was what made me feel weird. Anyone would be curious if someone changed suddenly.

I sat next to him, not too close.

“You changed,” I said the facts and he just laughed. I feel stupid but the laughter doesn't upset me.

Can I say I want him to laugh more? It's not that he's better looking, even though he looks better. I'm just happy to see others happy, whether you want to believe it or not.

“I know some things.”

The answer left me at a loss for words. He often made me lose words out of anger, but this time it was different and it was more frightening.

“What Imel stories?”

“We are one class for three years. You don't think I can know some things?”

I couldn't answer because I honestly didn't know anything about the person who was talking to me without yelling at each other.

“OK, I won't ask you any further about that. But tell me why you came here.”

At least by knowing the reason I can better understand the man. And I don't have to think anything weird about him. I just hope he doesn't say anything weird.

“I want to apologize to you. I know all this time I've been making you angry and interrupting your time with Brother Andre. So this time I promise I won't bother you again. I will support you.”

That's a very good answer. That's the answer I was hoping for. That's the answer I should be grateful for.

But I continued to ask, “What makes you turn 180 degrees like this?”

“I just accept the fact that it's time for me to be more mature. That's why I have to apologize to you.”

I really don't know him. I never really had a normal conversation with him. He and I just know how to curse each other and make emotions. I never knew the other side of him.

“Good. I trust you. I have forgiven you too.”

“Gis,” he called me, called my name. It seems like since he never called my name, I felt special when he did. “What made you fall in love with Brother Andre?” tanyanya.

That question left my peaceful mind in chaos again. He just said he was going to support me with Brother Andre then he asked me why I love Brother Andre. For the first time I ventured to think and shout in my heart, ‘she couldn't possibly love me right?’

“I've answered your question, I only have one of these questions,” he added.

I looked up at the night sky but I could not enjoy the beautifully scattered star cluster. “Kak Andre is good, always help me, handsome, smart. After all, don't we need a reason to love someone? We just fell in love.”

“Yes, we don't need a reason to love someone. That's a stupid question,” he said as he looked at me. I could see him looking at me from the corner of my eye and I didn't dare stop looking at the sky. I pretended not to see it.

“It's already night. You should also quickly sleep,” he said while standing up.

He stuck out his hand and hesitated I accepted his offer. He helped me stand up and left me with a more chaotic mind and heart.

That night I was getting no sleep.

I must have gone crazy thinking about it. I tried to make everything that happened as his plan got me down but it didn't work. I can't stop thinking that he loves me. I can't stop thinking that all this time he might have loved me.

Is that possible?

And if his behavior has been based on his stupid love, yes, stupid because he makes the people he loves actually hate him, does he no longer love me? Did he change and not bother me because he didn't love me?

And that question is what makes my chest feel even more depressed and haunts my mind.