Rainbow Cloud

Chapter 5's

Just that time I had a fight with Brother Andre. Even that was the first time I was angry with Brother Andre. All my plans and hopes seemed to collapse in one night. I know he loves me and I still love him. But nothing went according to plan.

What's more upsetting is that I can't blame the guy anymore. Now I have to vent all my frustration to the person I love so much and it hurts more.

Andre is a good man. Exceptionally well. But maybe he's too good.

I thought maybe he was too good for me and I didn't deserve him. It was my worst thought but you should not judge me for thinking negatively. My heart was completely broken at that moment.

Maybe he and I are not good to be together. Maybe that's why the man was sent to disrupt our relationship. Because even after the bully left, we were not allowed to be together.

Love sometimes does not have to be. But I don't want my love and Andre's brother to end up like that. I really wish that I was happy with her forever. Not because she was my first love, but because she was Andre's sister. I want him to be my prince. I was also afraid that I would not find a man as perfect as my first love.

Many people say that first love is hard to forget. Then how can I find someone better and more perfect. You know, after feeling perfection, how can I choose someone less than that. That's what I believed at the time.

But now I think more and more that love is not about perfection. Life is not about perfection. Love is love. And life is life. You just need to know that. I just need to know that.

After that fight, Brother Andre kept his distance from me. Either he's too good or too stupid. I was hoping he would come after me and apologize to me. Saying that I'm more important than anything. Butno. He didn't do that. He really complied with my request.

The dinner was really cold. Grandma didn't even ask me to joke. No one was trying to melt the atmosphere and I was too filled with anger to care for them.

The next day, the sky seemed to know my emotions, since the morning cloud cloud cloud cloud covered the sky around the island. As far as the eye can see there are only gray clouds. Without blue sky or sunshine. I even thought the cloud covered the entire island of Borneo.

The day is almost like night. The atmosphere is really gripping. But it was nothing with my mood.

Brother Andre still doesn't talk to me and I'm still keeping the cold war going. Grandma gave up on meddling. Just this time Grandma saw me that bad. I don't know what Grandma told Brother Andre but I know it doesn't help settle our quarrel.

Even the man said nothing. A person who is neither an enemy nor a friend does not comment. If it was as usual, he would have made fun of me. I don't know if I should thank him or not because he didn't do anything. I don't understand why I expected him to do something.

Ms. Tri and the other teachers had started teasing me but they stopped after feeling my emotions ready to explode. I apologized to them and thankfully they all understood. I am grateful that at least I can teach as usual and my emotions are not conveyed to my beloved students.

After school, I was the last one at school. I don't want to go home and have to deal with Brother Andre. I don't like to be mad at him but I don't want to give up either. I don't care if it's childish or not, I just don't want to lose because I don't feel guilty.

Suddenly I heard the sound of rain falling so hard. That day I felt very unlucky. The rain kept me stuck in school. If only I had come home a few minutes sooner I wouldn't have had to be stuck alone at school. At worst I'll be home in the rain.

I just tidied up my desk. I was still wondering if I should run in the rain or wait for the rain to stop. I was hoping Brother Andre would show up and pick me up. If that's the case, I'll probably forgive him and stop the cold war between us.

After a few minutes of being trapped, I decided to go home. I don't want to be alone at school when it rains. Before the thing I'm afraid of shows up, I want to get to Grandma's house soon. At least I'm not alone there.

Wait, not the ghost I'm talking about. I was afraid of the lightning and the sound. I can still handle it if I'm not alone.

And like I said, it wasn't my lucky day. Lightning was visible in the distance and before long a sound that could blow my heart sounded. I immediately closed my ears and put my face to the table. I don't want to hear or see anything. I was more afraid to leave the room.

Soon I could hear the second thunder. I was getting shrouded in fear but I felt the water in my two busy hands covering my ears. My face was lifted off the table and I automatically opened my eyes only to find my eyes staring at his black eyeballs.

“You okay?” tanyanya. He must have run in the rain. “All will be fine. Don't be afraid,” he continued while I didn't answer.

I can only look at him. I was so shocked that I could no longer hear the sound of lightning striking.

“Reza?” only one word I can say.

“Stupid basis. Why don't you come home soon? Why are you alone here?!”

And strangely I could feel my chest pressured and my tears ready to drip at any moment. I don't understand why I've always felt like crying in front of her lately. Why was it so easy to cry in front of her.

I finally realized her clothes were soaking wet and showed her body line which always made her fans scream hysterically. Maybe because he was no longer my enemy, I just realized he had a figure that made a woman's heart stop beating and I felt that.

He doesn't look burly but he has the right muscles. Brother Andre hugged me several times to calm me down before, but I became curious as to what it was like to be in the arms of the man before me.

If you think my heart has changed, you are wrong. I still love Andre. But there will be people who can always make our hearts tremble. Even so, I am still loyal to Brother Andre.

My heart was falling and that man was near me. But that was not enough to make me forget my first love.

I won't use it to forget Brother Andre. I don't intend to forget Andre. I was just shocked and I tried to convince myself of that.

“You're soaking wet.”

Again I feel stupid for saying that. My brain stopped functioning at that time. After the raging emotions and fear that struck, plus his sudden presence, my brain became unable to work.

“Ah, I was walking around here when it rained,” she replied quickly and once again we both fell silent to look at each other. Our eyes have not been out since he arrived.

I just found a new question but the sound of the door opening made me reflexively look towards the door. The man also did the same and he quickly removed his hand from my hand that was covering my ears.

“You okay?” Brother Andre ran towards me. Taking the place of the man who was a moment ago kneeling before me.

“I'm fine,” I answered briefly and subconsciously I saw the figure of a man soaking wet behind Brother Andre.

“As soon as it rains I pick you up. Are you really okay? The sound of lightning must have scared you.”

After hearing Brother Andre's words, I heard the thunder that I was so afraid of. Lightning strikes so quickly and often. But I'm sure moments before I didn't hear that scary sound. Once again I looked at the man who was not looking at me.

“I'm fine. Reza was with me.”

“Good. I'm really worried about you. I brought an umbrella for you but I didn't know Reza was here,” Brother Andre looked at the man standing behind him.

“I don't need an umbrella. I was already wet, no matter the rain anymore,” the man quickly stepped away before I could call him.

Looking at his back that went away, once again I could only observe it. There was a strange feeling that I started to feel when I saw him running in the rain.

After I could no longer see it, my brain worked so fast and filled my mind with many questions.

Why is he coming?

Does he know I'm afraid of hearing lightning? How could he know? Did Imel tell you?

Why is he soaking wet? Where was he before he came?

Did he run because of the rain? Or because of me?

The longer I just find more questions without answers. Questions that make my heart beat faster. Questions that scared me to find the answer.