Rainbow Cloud

Chapter 16's

That morning I woke up with a nightmare. It was such a bad dream that the two men disappeared from my life. I found myself crying when I woke up and I immediately felt tired after a long night's sleep.

I tried to vent. I don't know when they'll be gone so I don't want to be angry for too long. No, actually my anger has long since disappeared. I'm just too sad. My heart is too sick and nervous.

There is no promise they make. But their desire for me was too much and stifling. How can I continue my life like this never happened.

Once you know everything, do you think it's better if I forget about it? If I forget about it, will I not get this sick? Or will it be even more painful and sad if I forget about it?

I want to forget everything. I was afraid to forget everything. Both choices revolved around my head.

If I had to forget that miracle, in order to get them back, I would gladly do so. This miracle is not as great as a miracle if I can meet them again. Spend time together again.

Even if I forget about it, I'm sure the man will come after me. He said he decided it before the accident. I'm willing to wait for him. I will open my heart to him. Although I forgot everything, I was sure he could come in and fill my heart again.

Just one more chance.

That day I decided not to teach. I never did that, but I really wasn't in the condition to teach. I'm not even in a condition to meet anyone but the two of them.

I didn't go to school because I was sick, but I knew there was no pain more deadly than I felt. One second my heart felt like it was being pierced and the next second was given a chance to breathe. The hope that was supposed to help me overcome all the pain became a poison that killed me slowly.

If all this time I felt myself strong because I could wait for Brother Andre faithfully, that day I realized I was not as strong as I thought. If there were no two men and grandmother by my side, I believe I would have gone crazy that day.

“Eat a little more,” grandma pointed to my breakfast that only I played. I just ate a bite and couldn't gobble up the rest.

“Gis, you have to eat,” the man forced me gently.

“You don't have to care about me. Shouldn't I be able to live without you?!”

That day, only words I didn't want came out of my mouth. I knew they realized that wasn't what I meant and were tolerant of all my bad manners.

Really funny. I said all that but I was hurt by it myself. And that's all I can say continuously.

“Gisel! Stop being stupid like this!” Brother Andre for the first time yelled at me.

But do I care? Not at all. “If I'm not like this, do you want to see me crying?! You guys drove me crazy for a few days, then said crazier things to me. What are you expecting from me?! I know we don't have much time. I don't even know when you're gonna leave me. I don't know what to pray for you to come back to me.”

The man got up from his chair and pulled me in his arms. For a few days I always cried to see him. If I think about it, maybe my heart realizes everything. Realize something is wrong with them. I realized I was going to lose my love.

Maybe that's why my heart is fighting me and opening its heart. She is afraid of losing her love without doing anything. But what else can I do?

I was crying again. I was tired of crying but my tears were endless. Maybe I'll spend all my tears in those few days.

“Everything will be fine. Trust me. You will be happy because we will pray for your happiness. We will always be by your side.”

In his arms I could only cry. But in my heart, I shouted, “I'll be happy if you guys are okay. I'll be happy if you guys are happy.”