Rainbow Cloud

Chapter 3

Ever since I learned of Imel's relationship with that man, I couldn't stop thinking about him. What exactly is their relationship? Why didn't Imel tell you something so important?

I knew my best friend would ask me if it was important to me and why it was important before she was willing to tell it. She is a woman who is always curious and meddles in the affairs of others. I wondered if it was important to tell me.

Sure matters! Very important! I need to know what made my best friend forgive the man he used to call the devil. And how could he tell me where I was. The existence of his best friend to the person who has been our enemy. That doesn't make any sense.

It may not be a secret of the universe or a secret of state security. But telling my personal life about a creature I call an enemy is certainly not a good thing. After all, whatever that bucket mouth told me.

And why is he always able to keep a secret from me who is his best friend? Am I not his best friend?

The more I thought about it, the more I got angry at Imel. And why did Reza make up with Imel but until now she hasn't said a word of apology to me? Even after he found out I knew about him and Imel, the man actually slept in the room with his leisure.

Is he avoiding me?

Although there was Brother Andre, my head was filled with that man. The more he avoids me the more questions arise. And the more questions in my head, the more upset I was made.

"Za, we need to talk. If you want to stay in this house, we have something to talk about,” I said while covering the way to the room.

The man came out after dinner. I don't know where he's out at night and I don't intend to go looking all over the island. He's not that important to me. But I decided to wait for him.

"There's nothing to talk about. You have fun with Andre. You guys haven't seen each other for a long time,” he tried to push me and shut himself up again in the room but the same reason wouldn't be useful a second time.

"Much should we talk about,” I pulled his hand to talk on the porch of the house. It seemed like he was so surprised that he let me pull it at will. I always feel good when my position is better than her. Do you think that's weird?

"What's going on between you and Imel?” I ask that I still do not let go of my grasp.

"We're friends.”

He still pisses me off easily. After a few hours he found out about the curiosity that was gnawing at me, couldn't he answer a few more words?

"Since when?” I decided to follow the game. I don't mind having to ask hundreds of questions if it can satisfy my curiosity.

"6 or 7 months ago.”

I took a deep breath. I don't mind playing but that doesn't mean I'm not emotional during the play.

"How come? How's story?”

"Nothing special. There was a SMA reunion and we met.”

"That's not a story. How can Imel forgive you?” I was half screaming.

The man for the first time since the conversation began, turned his face away from me. I clutched his hand even stronger.

"I'm sorry to her,” she replied, still not seeing me.

"So, just like that? You're sorry and you're friends forever?”

"What did you expect?” he looked me in the eye and pulled his arm out of my grasp. "You want to hear me prostrate before him? Begging him?”

I was too surprised by the back questions from him. It was my time to ask questions. I'm the one who's supposed to ask the questions, not him. I'm not ready to answer the question. And I don't know what exactly I was expecting.

"If there's nothing else, I want to take a break,” he looks at me for a few seconds before deciding to leave.

I only regained consciousness when he was no longer in front of me. "Why don't you apologize to me?!”

He immediately stopped and looked at me who had turned around looking at him. We were both surprised. In the middle of my brain looking for answers, the words that came out unconsciously from my mouth gave us the answer. What I expected from him was an apology.

I've been chasing him all day to hear his apology. I really want to forgive him. If Imel can forgive him, I also want to forgive him.

If he apologized to Imel, why didn't he apologize to me?

With a new awareness, I had no time to think about why I wanted to forgive her so much. I just want to hear him say sorry and I'll forgive him.

He looked at me confused. I don't know what's so confusing when I just want to get an apology that's rightfully mine.

While I was still waiting for one word from her mouth, her hands were already on my cheeks, wiping away the tears I had not noticed dripping from both of my eyes. I must have been too upset until those tears came out. Who says tears are only for sadness and happiness. We can cry when we are angry.

But his actions were too shocking that my tears stopped and my whole body was unable to move. My vocal cords can't even move to make a sound. My hands were also unable to move to get rid of her hands which sent out the warmth I had just felt for the first time. Even I'm not sure if it was my heart and lungs that were supposed to work automatically to do their job.

"sorry. I'm really sorry. Ii'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything.”

He sounded so sincere that my tears were flowing again. Then his left hand came to the brink of my tears and both his hands stopped on both of my cheeks gently.

"Gisel, I'm sorry.”

I'm ready to forgive him but my voice still can't get out. My tears are getting out of control. I don't know why I'm crying. I should not be angry anymore. I got what I wanted.

No matter how long he tried to wipe away my tears that kept flowing, suddenly Brother Andre appeared and pulled me in his arms. I cried on his chest and as usual Brother Andre stroked my hair softly. It always calms me. I can finally breathe.

When my sobs stopped, I tried to get out of Brother Andre's arms and wipe away the remaining tears on my face. It was really embarrassing but I had already found my consciousness back.

"You okay?” Brother Andre asked me.

I just nodded because I was still unsure of my voice. After clearing my throat a few times, I stared at my enemy who would soon become my former enemy. I don't think I can accept him as a friend right away but I'm ready to forgive him.

"I forgive you. Please don't make me regret forgiving you.”

"Thank you,”for the first time I saw that guy smiling at me. "As a token of gratitude, I will not bother you and Brother Andre anymore. I really want to rest now.”

He did not wait for my answer and immediately disappeared into the house. Leaving me and Brother Andre alone on the terrace. And for a few seconds I just looked in the direction he disappeared.

"So you guys made up?”

I looked at Brother Andre and smiled widely. "Looks. I was finally freed from the presence of the enemy in my life. I'm really not happy to call someone an enemy,” I said with a chuckle.

If you are confused by my decision to forgive him, how can I be so easy to forgive him, I can only say that I really do not like to hate someone. Hating someone is exhausting.

When I hate it, my energy is so focused on hating it. I was so tired but didn't realize it with all the hate I was trying to hold on to. I was busy finding excuses to hate him.

If I think about it now, you could say hating someone is not much different from loving someone.

When I love Andre, I always find new reasons to love him. I loved her smile, her voice, her kindness, even the way she stroked my head. The more I love her, the more I find things to love and the more I love her.

Like that, I hated the man and found new reasons to hate him. I forced myself to find new reasons to continue to hate her. I can decide to forgive him, forget him, or even ignore him. But hate made me find more and more things to hate and I couldn't stop.

Of course his behavior that always looks for trouble with me makes it easier to hate him.

But it's been almost a year that I haven't seen her. It's been almost a year that he hasn't bothered me. Although I became wary the moment I saw her reappear in my life, hearing her befriend Imel made me expect the same thing. I want him to stop bothering me. And more importantly, I want to stop hating her and always be vigilant around her.

At first, I just wanted her to stop bothering me, especially when Brother Andre was with me. But when I heard her sincere apology, I really forgave her.

Honestly, it surprised me. I've never seen him that smooth. I feel like she finally decided to grow up. Whatever made him change, I sincerely feel happy for him.