Not my fault

Stay My Friend and Brother

My best friend was impressed by the morning dew

the fallen soaked the heart

to be able to fertilize the entire garden in coolness

My best friend is a night star in space that accompanies the solitude of the grieving moon to be able to illuminate the universe in togetherness

My friend is a shady tree with a thousand branches that shade from the unbearable scorching sun to be able to provide firmness in peace

My best friend is a collection of springs from a clear holy well flowing non-stop

to be able to eliminate the thirst of self in freshness.

"ratsak .... This is you for me, can you take it?"

"City ... If it wants you, then it's the same as an order for me."

"Friends are forever, with no distance in them."

"I love you, my sister Riki."

"I love you more, Evelyn."

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City Park

A pair of friends of the opposite sex sit side by side, with a little distance apart, and silence accompany.

It had already counted for several tens of minutes, the two of them were sitting like this.

They were silent, not looking at each other even glancing as if reluctant.

This is for the woman, in fact the man clearly saw and looked at the restless woman.

The man or also Riki, looked at his female friend with restless eyes.

He admitted he was wrong time and place, when he expressed his pent-up feelings last night.

He should be able to hold back until Evelyn is ready, to accept the new reality with an old sense of her.

Not able to stand Evelyn's silence beside her, Riki also cleared her throat to make her best friend, who sat quietly without making a sound jerk in shock, it seems that the friend was also not silent because he was on purpose.

"Ehem."

"Lyn, are you okay?" riki said opening the chat with a classic question, but enough to make Evelyn, reply even if only a short reply.

"Yes, fine."

Silent.

Again only silence enveloped the two, when Riki only got a short reply, without any questions back for her from Evelyn.

On Evelyn's current side, he still set what kind of attitude he had to show Riki, a friend and sister who had accompanied him for more than five years.

Maybe if he did not know the feelings of his best friend, he also would not have the heart to inhabit Riki who has feelings, feelings that are not appropriate in forbidden by him.

After all, a person's taste for others is neither a disgrace nor a sin.

Riki's feelings of love and affection are also the same feelings, like the feelings every man has for the women out there.

But ....

This does not mean he hates Riki, only he does not expect if all this time their closeness, raises the seeds of love from his best friend.

"Male and female, no one is friendly without love in one of them."

A glance at Arlan's words flashed in his ear, making his breath choked for a moment.

What this means is Arlan for him, when they used to always discuss the friendship between himself and Riki, Arlan's own cousin.

What exactly Arlan also knows, if Riki actually has a taste for him, that's why Arlan will feel and bring up if there is a discussion, which relates to Riki at every opportunity.

Is he the only one who knows nothing?

Didn't he hurt Riki in the first place, since he started to get acquainted and close to Arlan, who is the cousin of his best friend?

At once Evelyn turned her head towards Riki, who was still looking at her in silence.

Nyut!

Although he was still disappointed, but when he saw the sad expression of his best friend, made him melt as well.

"Lyn."

"Ricky."

Both of them called names, then kept silent at the same time.

Riki who cleared his throat, took over because he knew, if his best friend must be waiting for further sentences from him.

"Lyn, I'm sorry," Riki said staring at Evelyn sadly.

"I knew I was wrong, had feelings and even expressed feelings when the time was not right. But I'm not sorry, Lyn. At least you know, I'll feel for you."

Riki paused her sentence, seeing how the facial expression of her best friend, who was also looking at her glazed over.

His heart ached, he indirectly added to the pain in Evelynn's heart.

"I, I know I'm just a coward. Take cover behind the bonds of friendship, only to always be close to you. But I'm serious, I've been, since the beginning of the meeting I've loved you."

Evelyn was still hearing with a sad heart, as her best friend re-expressed her pent-up sense.

He clearly knew how his best friend was, he never lied to him and only then did he feel he was being lied to.

But, he still heard, because he did not want any more misunderstandings between them.

He loves his best friend as much as he loves his mother, his best friend everything for him.

Then, how can he live life calmly, if he chases each other without any certainty with his only friend.

At least he wants to hear and convey, what he will convey, with all his careful consideration.

"Lyn, I'm not forcing you to accept my love. Because I promised my mother I would love you with or without status and conditions. I love you just as much as I love my two mothers."

The deg!

Evelyn stared in shock at the heartfelt words of her best friend, who also loved her as much as she loved her mother.

He did not believe that his best friend not only harbored, but also loved him very much with careful preparation.

As he knew if he would not retaliate, the feeling he gave him.

"I know, even now you are still reluctant to meet me. But I can't Lyn, I can't if you get away from me this way, can't Lyn."

Riki squeezed her hair in frustration, as only a teary look, which she got from Evelyn without a word in return.

"I'm too tainting

Grep's!

Riki's words were forced to stop, as he felt the warm embrace of a woman he loved, followed by a soft sigh that finally spilled too.

Twice ...

Twice Riki heard a sob like this, first because of his cousin and currently because of him.

"Damn!"

Riki cursed inwardly, before replying and carrying Evelyn into his arms.

He heard for himself how Evelyn, apologizing to him again with a mouthful of heart-wrenching.

"Riki, I'm sorry."

Riki shook her head, hugging Evelyn even more tightly.

"No, not Lyn. It's not your fault, it's my fault. I should have been more bus-

"No Riki!"

Evelyn takes off her hug and interrupts Riki's words quickly, while Riki still blames herself for the incident last night.

"It's my fault, Riki, it's not your fault. I should have known better, responding to your good attitude not with an innocent mind. I should've known, if women and men were right, I wouldn't be able to be friends without a sense in it."

Now replace Riki who heard every word stammered, from Evelyn who looked at him regretfully.

"I've hurt you a lot, haven't I, Riki?" ask Evelyn.

"No, Lyn-No

"Yes Riki, yes!"

Riki was startled as Evelyn interrupted her words in a high tone, it seemed like her best friend was very emotional at the moment.

"riv ... How can you love me like this? How could you prefer to keep your own pain, without sharing it with me? How can you still love me, which clearly states the reality if I love someone else, even if it's your cousin, how is Riki? How come?"

Evelyn with all emotions mixed in, asked repeatedly to Riki who was looking at her in shock.

Evelyn was already unable to think, how could any man love a woman, with such deep feelings.

"My answer is Riki?" evelyn softly whispered, with a lowered face concealing sorrow and shame over her sincere friend's feelings.

He could not imagine when he with a shy face blushed, saying he had feelings for other men, while a male friend who heard him turned out to love him as well, even before he met the Boss and his best friend's cousin.

Must have been sick and broken.

"How can I love you like this? How could I prefer to keep my own pain, without sharing it with you? How can I still love you, who clearly states the truth if you love someone else, even my cousin, Evelyn said?" said Riki repeated the question bertubi from his best friend, who nodded slowly still with a face hiding.

"Look at me!" riki exclaimed firmly yet gently at the same time.

"...."

Evelyn's silence still did not follow what Riki wanted, made her anxious and then lifted Evelyn's face, using her index finger and thumb flanking Evelyn's chin gently.

Riki pulled with a soft face Evelyn who did not fight, as her fingers lifted her face gently, so that now the two faces face, with Riki who looked at Evelyn softly and smiled sincerely.

"How could I not love you so sincerely, if I had always considered you everything to me. I prefer this pain to be kept without sharing, because I know you yourself are too tired to bear the burden of the heart. And also I know love can't be forced, your right to love my cousin and also my right to still love you."

"I told you, if I love you unconditionally, it means that with or without you retaliating, I will still love you in silence."

"City ... If my feelings interfere with your life, can we forget about last night's events, then assume I never expressed my feelings. Back as before and also back as Evelynku, Evelyn who used to smile."

"Promise Lyn, for me and for Mom."

Riki ended his sentence with both hands, tightly gripping Evelyn's hand in her warm grasp.

The more she felt guilty, the more sinful she felt that she had wasted the feelings of her best friend, who was so sincere to her.

For God's sake, he loved his best friend but only his brother and never more.

Although many people say, love will come when we try to love, but for him, Riki is still a sister for him.

His love for Riki is also sincere, so he does not want to be eroded at any time when he forces to reply.

He wants Riki to always be by his side, with no restrictions on the label breaking up, when they separate like other couples, who melt their relationship with the bond of lovers.

He wants his relationship with Riki to be eternal and eternal, old together, but again not as a lover.

"No Riki, I won't forget your love statement, nor will I forbid you to love me."

The deg!

Riki was certainly shocked by the words of Evelyn, who was currently looking at him with a regretful look.

What the hell does this mean?

Is Evelyn going to take it?

Or will he just stay away from her, without retaliating?

He waited impatiently, as Evelyn wiped away the tears and smiled sadly for him.

The feeling was not good for a moment.

Is this really the fate of their friendship, really only here.

"I'm sorry, Riki, for all the pain I've inflicted. I'm sorry, Riki, for your love that I can't repay. I'm sorry, Riki, for my attitude last night."

"What, what does this mean?" riki looked at Evelyn more and more confused.

"riv ... Let's stay friends with love as friends, I don't want to lose you, nor do I want to lie to you with pseudo-love."

Prangs!

If this is the end of his pent-up love and also the risk he bears, it's okay as long as he does not lose Evelyn, the woman he loves so much that it is rooted in his soul.

The glass shards in his heart, had already completely broken into pieces.

He does not know whether there will be someone who can connect it or not, but clearly his love feelings should be considered more than a fragment of his heart.

Already he said he loved Evelyn sincerely, then with a nod and tightness in the chest, he agreed to Evelyn's invitation without a thought, if again it was self-destructive in front of the same woman.

"Promise Riki, you will never leave me!"

"Alright,Lyn. I promise!"

Evelyn hugged her best friend in a tight hug, smiling sadly as she realized that she was once again a selfish companion to her best friend in her arms.

"There will be other women, the best and fill your days later, my brother Riki."

"While it's you that I love," Riki replied tightening his embrace.

"I love you too, brother."

"Yes .... Big brother is better than losing him for life."

Seriate

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