Not my fault

Dilemmas

Every day I live with sadness and sorrow

There was no light I could see but black

Sobbing tight until there's no air I can get.

I want to smile again like I used to

Like when I fell in love with you

But I'm naive, though,

I am the most false shadow

Losing you is my weakness

My lover

Forgive me for being this helpless

Forgive this weakness

I've lost love.

*******

Arlan stared flatly at the people in front of him, who were currently talking about something, which he thought was very sickening.

"Damn it," Arlan's mind cursed, as he recalled the incident a few hours ago.

The flasback

Arlan condo

Arlan pov

Right now I'm sitting myself on the living room couch, I just got home from work after driving Evelyn home.

As I closed my eyes, I felt a tremor in my pants pocket.

Ah ... My smile broke when I got a short message from him, even though I only asked about Me who had arrived or not, I was glad I was not a bitch.

"Why don't you ask the others, too" I muttered and then gave a tingly snort.

I replied to him and asked him to spend time together.

If I used to spend my nights with my toys, now it's different. I would spend the night chatting with him or doing something more useful.

I replied to him immediately, and waited for a reply from him with pleasure.

"I'd better take a shower."

I set my foot in my room, intending to take a bath, and if He approves of my invitation, I can go to his place immediately.

My steps stopped when I felt the vibration of the sign I got a short message, I opened it with a smile and slowly faded while reading a message that turned out not to be from him.

"To the house, there will be a discussion about your marriage."

Flasback end

So it's here I am now, in my family's house, exactly in the Widiyo family home.

In front of me right now is Keanu or my Papa, I'm even lazy to acknowledge him as Papa, he's accompanied by his young new wife.

"Nothing pair," My inner self screeched in disgust.

Then there was Auntie who came to my house yesterday afternoon. She came with a man, who I felt was her husband and of course a woman who yesterday confessed that He was My fiancee.

"Are I the only one who knows nothing?" My mind asked in confusion.

The arlan pov end

Nomal pov

"As you can see. In front of you right now is the Brata family and the woman in front of you is your future wife, Arlan," Keanu said.

He looked at his Son who was staring back at him flatly, making him grieve over the brash behavior of his Son.

"But I disagree." Arlan replied flatly.

"That means you don't love your late mother, didn't you just say you would do anything if it was your mother's order?" keanu said in a mouthful, making Arlan gasp in shock with his heart racing fast.

The deg!

"Damn! " inner Arlan looked at her Papa with nanar.

He could not escape because at the funeral of his mother, He said a promise of regret when he could not accompany the mother, when he was sick and he himself struggled to take care of the company.

"Ac-t

"The man held is his speech and his actions. If you violate not only your disappointed mother, but you have also hurt your pride as a man!" exclaiming Keanu provoked, He made a disdainful expression to cover up his intention of talking like that.

Tania who was watching in silence the conversation in front of her, itching to participate so that Arlan as soon as possible agreed to this plan.

He also made an appreciative expression, seeking sympathy from Arlan who finally looked towards him.

"Np .. It's okay if Arlan doesn't want this wedding, I get it. Maybe Arlan already has another one" Tania said softly.

"You're a good woman Tania, Arlan will be very lucky to marry you. It is beautiful, smart, understanding and definitely independent. Om totally agrees if you're Arlan's wife!" exclaimed Keanu with sparkling eyes, praising his future son-in-law in front of Arlan who could only afford to be silent.

"See Arlan, what's less Tania?" continued Keanu but unfortunately the one asked only put his head.

"You can get to know each other and get engaged first, Auntie sure slowly love will grow between you," said Kana co-chimes Keanu's words.

"Pope you think about it, you can both talk. Because you are a couple who are getting married" Keanu said.

He gave the code to Tania who Tania understood immediately.

"Arlan's. Can we talk?" said Tania looking at Arlan with a small smile.

Arlan stared briefly at Tania and nodded in agreement, inevitably He had to speak four eyes with the woman in front of him.

He wanted to refuse firmly, He did not want to hurt the woman who was there.

"Good." reply Arlan.

"We're out for a minute Auntie, Om. Mah, reward me out with Arlan first," Tania said with an eye code toward the Mama, so Kana nodded with a smile.

They left the living room, went outside the house and stood in front of Arlan's car.

"Where are you taking me, Ar?" tanya Tania tried ordinary, but in her heart was happy when she imagined he was riding in a car with Arlan sitting next to him.

"Just enter." said Arlan flatly.

Tania nodded and entered the car with Arlan who had first entered, without opening the door for Tania who was currently hiding her whimpering.

"Let's see later." Tania's mind was angry.

Brums!

Along the way they just kept quiet with their own thoughts, Arlan who was thinking about how to refuse and Tania who was happy when she could sit side by side with Arlan.

Arlan drove his car at above average speed, to one of the docks where he used to be if he wanted to be alone.

Skiit!

The sound of a car tire squeak is heard, followed by a door slam as the rider exits his car.

Arlan first went out and walked towards the edge of the pier, he restored his messy hair to the sea breeze.

While Tania swallowed slowly and stood behind Arlan with a happy smile.

"I'm sure you're confused right, Arlan." Tania's mind is happy.

"Pr-p

"Please cancel this plan, I don't want this wedding."

Tania stopped her speech, upon hearing the flat tone from Arlan, who was currently still on her back.

"I already have a woman I like" continued Arlan, this time he turned his body to face Tania, who was staring at Arlan with trembling eyes and clenched hands.

"Ac-t

"Maafl ... You're beautiful, I'm sure there are a lot of guys out there who like you. I'm not the best for you" Arlan sidelined looking at Tania seriously.

"Think of it Tania," He continued, turning his body to face the sea again.

Behind him at this moment Tania was holding back angrily, He was adjusting his breath and throwing it away slowly, at this moment He should not be carried away.

"Don't hope," inner Tania with her oblique smile.

"Arlan, there's something I want to show you," Tania said in a stern tone of voice, making Arlan who heard her glance back without turning her body.

"What?"

"Look at Me" Tania replied, so that Arlan finally faced Tania completely.

After feeling Arlan watching him, he touched his neck to remove the hook of a necklace with a heart shape pendant.

He walked over and stood in front of the puzzled Arlan.

He took Arlan's right hand and placed the necklace on Arlan's palm, which immediately shook when he saw it.

"No way," Inner Arlan stared at the necklace and Tania alternated with pushy eyes.

"From where kam-

"Your mother. I'm just gonna give this to you, it's yours, right? Because you rejected me, I gave it back," Tania interrupted quickly with a small smile.

"Go home yuk!" tania exclaimed cheerfully, turning around with a small smile changing into an expressionless smile.

Skips

Next day

Smack it. 20:00

Cost Evelyn

Arlan pov

Right now I'm visiting Mirna's mother, um ... I mean, I want to spend time with Evelyn too.

In front of me right now was Mirna's mother, who was exchanging stories with me about their former lives.

Mirna's mother also said that she thought of me as her own child, making me happy and feeling the signal to approach Evelyn more.

But to be honest, I'm confused about my current situation.

On the one hand I want to achieve my own love, but on the one hand I love my late mother very much.

"Son, son Arlan!"

I gasped in shock upon hearing the alarmed call from Mirna's mother, my goodness I didn't consciously daydream at the thought of what happened last night.

"Iy-iya aunt, what's up?" I reply to ask awkwardly.

"You're daydreaming, is there something you're worried about?" Ask me.

Ah ... What should I say, there's no way I'm telling you about yesterday's events, let alone telling you about my wedding plans.

"No aunt," I replied with a soothing smile.

I could see the warm smile of Mirna's mother, making me recall with my late mother.

"Mother," My mind is holding tight.

I didn't expect my mother would make me worry about her and her friend's agreement.

Why didn't you tell me at all, when you were alive.

"Son Arlan, you're craving again!"

"ah! Sorry Auntie!" I'm shocked.

Shit ... Again I daydream.

I'd better forget what happened yesterday and then I'll think again.

The arlan pov end

Normal pov

"You can talk to Auntie, if you want," Mirna said with a warm smile, She already considers Arlan a part of her life. Moreover, his son seemed to receive the signal given by the man in front of him.

"No Aunt, I just thought of something." replied Arlan.

"Oh yes ... What'sthat?" ask Mirna curious.

"Ec ... It doesn't matter, he-he!" arlan's reply dodged with an awkward ruckus.

"Sorry Aunt." Arlan's inner regret.

"Oh ... All right," replied Mirna.

"But Auntie, can Ar ask?" arlan continued by swallowing his saliva nervously.

"Yes ... What's?"

"If we have promised, do we really have to keep it?" arlan asked quietly, looking at Mirna with an illegible expression.

Mirna smiled at Arlan's question, She patted Arlan's hand and answered carefully.

"Of course."

The deg!

"Of course it must be kept, promises are debts and debts must be paid off. This is the responsibility part of our speech" Mirna explained gently.

"Man held not only his words, but also his actions. So anything if it promises must be right. Remember ... Don't promise if you can't keep it!" Continue to end the explanation in a firm tone.

"I understand." Arlan replied briefly.

"I'm sorry, Mother."

Seriate

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