Not my fault

Ich liebe dich uber

According to Habibi, Ratih is a cheerful girl who as long as Abi knew her almost never saw her cry or grieve let alone complain, no matter how much trouble in her life, she said, but Ratih never once showed if He was sad, let alone crying? Obviously it was something that almost never had Ratih done to the best of Abi. 

Ratih grew up in a family that is quite located, besides his family also looks harmonious and love each other, no different from the Abi family, but the family, they are a warm family and love each other. 

And now, Abi saw that Ratih was struggling like a heartbroken person, Abi was a little disappointed, why did Ratih not be honest with him about his life problems? All this time all about Abi, Ratih always knew, the whole matter of Abi was no exception. And now, Abi even saw Ratih was gathered in the tomb of Mother by telling her the man who seemed to have hurt her. 

Abi walked slowly towards Ratih who was still struggling with restrained stuffing, Abi was sure, under the heat of the sun Ratih's face would now have been flushed by it. 

“Ra?” 

The call from Abi made Ratih's body freeze, the girl looked stiffened, her face slowly looked up, too clearly mimicking the nervous fear on Ratih's face. 

“Somehow did you hide your grievances from me Ra? What's the real problem?” Abi crouched down, sprinkling the flowers he carried over Mother's grave, occasionally his hand stroking Mother's grave affectionately. 

“Hah?” Ratih is still confused, as well as shocked at the sudden arrival of Abi. 

“Hai Mommy, Abi came, sorry this week Abi rarely met Bunda” Abi ignored Ratih who was still sculpting, now Abi even spoke with Mommy as usual. 

“Bun, Abi tired ..” Abi restarted his vent session. Ratih listened from beside him, trying to digest every word Abi said. 

Until a moment only the silence dominated, Ratih glanced at Abi who was now closing his eyes tightly, apparently Abi continued to vent in his heart, making Ratih frown dislike, if Abi did such an action, Abi will always be open to her, and now there is something that Abi has covered from her. 

“So, who's the guy who made you cry heartbroken?” Abi again asked when they were in one of the coffee shops that were not far from the funeral of Mother, they had finished mamah at the tomb of Mother, because the sun was scorching stinging the head, and the sun was very hot, finally they decided to take a moment. 

“Hah?” Ratih stunt, very afraid if Abi knows, who the man he likes all this time. 

“I've heard everything earlier” Abi resumed. 

“Ma means?” ratih's lips trembled violently, is this the end of their friendship? Ratih closed his eyes tightly. 

“I heard, if you are heartbroken because of a man Ra, who is that man? All this time I've been sharing all my stories with you, you've always been there for me, and now? Why do you want to share your sad story with me? Is this the reason you want to leave, on the grounds of continuing education? You lied to me Ra?” Abi looked at Ratih, an intimidating look, Ratih knew very well, if Abi had looked at him that way, it meant that Abi was holding back an upset. 

Abi was silent, unfortunate fate of his best friend, never in love, once in love even in the wrong person, immediately heartbroken anyway. 

“Ra? Who her? Do I know him?” Abi sighed, feeling that Ratih's fate was so tragic, without Abi realizing that his fate was much more tragic. 

“You won't know him, he te my friend” Train back staggered, his heart pounding Ratih felt so nervous. 

“Friends?” Abi frowned, the average Abi knew who Ratih's friend was.

“Friends in ... in the hospital, ta but now he is not there anymore” Ratih increasingly launch his lie.

“Ah, what a pity, just try he is still there, I must have broken his neck, dare he ignore my perfect friend this” Abi curses annoyed, occasionally he sips coffee that has been ordered, he said, while Ratih was stunned again, if Abi knew who the man really was.

“Ra, you are a very beautiful woman, you are nice, you are funny, you are cute and fun, look for a good man, there are still many single men out there who are waiting in line, want to make you as his lover, he said, don't fall in love with a married man anymore, hm?” Abi looked at Ratih inside, this was a warning from Abi that made Ratih's heart hurt even more, Abi forbade him to love a married man, that means Abi also forbade him to like Abi. 

“But, whose feelings can determine, if I can control my heart, I want to fall in love with Christian bautista only, do not want the other” Ratih turned his head in any direction, he said, not wanting to be stared at by Abi any longer, for him Abi's eyes are his weakness, Ratih can cry hysterically and immediately embrace Abi, then tell her feelings, if Abi is not married to Naina. 

“Ra, please, kill your feelings, do not try to keep nurturing her, forget her, ah.. Now I agree to you continue your studies abroad there, he said, it's better for you Ra” Abi shakes his head repeatedly, and indeed Abi's statement even makes Ratih more sick, his mind pain felt slashed by many invisible daggers. 

“Never start a story with a person already in the middle of the story, understand what I mean?” Abi looked back at Ratih who now had teary eyes. 

“Don't cry, or need I find you a handsome, handsome and well-established lover?” Abi raised his eyebrows about to tease, but Ratih's tears even dripped down. His head shook quickly. 

“Huh, falling in love is always as painful as that Ra” Abi rubbed Ratih's tears that spilled. Feeling guilty for not being beside Ratih when Ratih is in love with the wrong person, Abi is too busy with Naina's affairs, to ignore Ratih like this, Ratih must be lonely, and she is very alone, must harbour the feeling of being alone without being able to express it to others. 

“Already, already, I pray for you Ra, may you soon be reunited with a good man who sincerely loves you, and for sure he must be single” Abi again rubbing the tears of Ratih increasingly spread. 

“Biiiiii ..” Suddenly Ratih slashed in Abi's arms with a stronger sob, making the man stunned to feel shocked by the spontaneous attitude of Train, who was, her best friend never wanted to make any physical contact with her, and now? Why did Ratih become this cane? And even more strangely, why did Ratih's embrace feel comfortable, especially Abi was also the same as storing an immeasurable sadness in his heart. Is it because the girl is heartbroken? Or because Abi is too sorry to see Ratih heartbroken?.