Not my fault

Messed All

Love comes to those who still have hope, even if they have been let down.

To those who still believe, even though they have been betrayed.

To those who still want to love, even if they have been hurt before

And

To those who have the courage and confidence to reawaken the trust.

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Gandhi's Residence

Riki pov

Right now I'm sitting on a chair, at a regular table I'm drawing my client's order design.

In front of me was a cellphone, lying just like that, while I was waiting for a message or a phone reply from my best friend.

Shit ...

I didn't expect it to be like this.

This is what I'm afraid of, if until he knows the feeling that I keep a meeting, especially if I'm not the one who is far away.

Tadi ... Just a few hours ago, I was just expressing my feelings to my best friend.

And you know what I got, the look of disbelief and the laughter from it.

It's my fault for always saying, if I love him as a brother and always will be.

Moreover, I have promised him, will always accompany him, support and always be at his side.

I squeezed my hair, hoping to relieve a headache, remembering the incident.

"Damn, why is it like this."

Yes, true ... I should've held on, then waited for the right time.

Not by suddenly expressing feelings, when he was in a period of fear due to bad things that happened to him.

Flasback.

"Riki, my father doesn't love me. Am I not going to have any more love in this life?"

Aku mendengarnya dengan tangan setia memeluk tubuhnya, hatiku sakit saat mendengarnya.

"You're wrong, Lyn. You're wrong!"

I replied, when I felt that she was wrong, saying that no one loved her anymore.

I could also see the gaze not understanding him, as I looked into his eyes, after taking off and holding his shoulder tightly.

This time out of nowhere courage, which obviously I can not retreat anymore.

"Evelyn, look at me. It's me, I love you."

"Riki?"

"I'm Lyn, I will always love you. I have always loved you in silence, for me you are everything, so I would rather keep it a secret, than I lose you."

Evelyn looked at me with trembling eyes and it made me realize what I just said.

No, I already said, I will continue what I said.

"Lyn, I used to like you no, I mean love you. I've always harbored this feeling, because I don't want you to stay away from me."

I paused my sentence, when I had absolutely no reply from him, there was only a look of disbelief, which frustrated me instantly.

Shit ...

"Lyn

"Enough Riki!"

What is this ....

Instantly I took off my hand grip on her shoulder, taking a step back as she interrupted my sentence with a soft mutter.

The murmur that made me feel bad, what happened next.

And sure enough, he shook his head to look at me disappointed, after which he who turned left me.

"Don't follow me, leave me alone, Riki."

Those were the last words from him.

I turned around, fixated as I looked at my cousin who was about to hold her hand.

But it seems Evelyn doesn't want to hear it anymore.

Not him, I don't know if he still thinks he exists or not.

What is the fate of my love, will it end like this?

Flasback end

"What should I do, Lyn?" my mummy saw the picture that had always been my phone wallpaper.

The riki pov end

In another place

The normal pov

Evelyn came home in a taxi, before returning home she decided to go to a park first, to get rid of eye drops and sadness, on the look on her face due to the events that had just happened to her.

He did not expect, if tonight he will get a surprise, not just one surprise but two at once.

The pain that his father gave was deep, then added to the pain of a friend who he had considered as an older brother.

How could Riki have such feelings for her, even though all this time she always said if she loved him like a sister.

Wasn't it enough that Arlan had lied to him, now added with a long-standing statement of taste.

Then, what love Riki gave all this time was just a lie, just to make it melt and accept it.

Oh my God ...

He really did not expect, why there is a drama like this in his life.

"What would I do, if Riki met me tomorrow. What attitude should I show you?" evelyn asked as her phone rang again, under the name Riki.

His heart was still hesitant and disappointed, when it got a bitter reality at once.

Evelyn sat in her own garden, accompanied by the night chill, asking God to give her strength against the two men.

"Amen."

After feeling his condition improved, he decided to go home, walk while calming down and string words if at any time the mother, ask the reason and know about the state of his mood.

His mother is sometimes too sensitive, when she sees a little strange from him.

After a ten-minute walk, Evelyn arrived at the door of her room.

He opened the door slowly, hoping that the mother would be sound in her sleep.

The lights of his room were still bright, making him able to see around the state of his room and he found, the mother lay with her eyes closed in addition to a fine snoring, which came out of the gap of her lips.

The huft!

He breathed a sigh of relief, at least he did not need to discuss the incident tonight with his mother.

"Thank you, Lord," he murmured with a hand rubbing his chest in relief.

He immediately entered the bathroom, after picking up a nightgown to change the dress he was wearing.

He also decided to take a bath, hoping that with a bath his sadness would fall, in every wash of water flowing on his body.

Not long after, it came out fresh.

Evelyn walked over to her mother, crouching to see her beautiful look, the woman she loved most more than anything.

For him whatever he will do, because his mother's happiness is his happiness too.

"Good night, Mom. Sweet dreams, I love you so much, Mother," Evelyn muttered and kissed her mother on the forehead before she herself climbed into her cramped bed, slept by the side and hugged her from behind.

"Hopefully tomorrow, I can accept it all," Evelyn's inner voice then heard afterwards was a subtle snoring, as the owner was lulled down into dreamland.

Skips

Next day

Evelyn pov

Fortunately, this morning, I didn't ask anything about it, and I don't want to talk about it either.

Mom just smiled and encouraged me as usual and it made me smile and ready to go through the day as usual.

Sure ... There's a mother beside me.

I left as usual for the office, although today was different, without Arlan or Riki to take me to work.

Arriving on the floor where I work, I also do my job as usual.

Clear up the needs for the President and prepare the equipment in the coffee maker, so that I do not need to linger in his room, when he came and asked to make coffee.

Chequek!

"Ah shit, it seems like God is trying to make me cry again," my mind after that jolted in shock.

I also changed my body gesture to be ordinary, I did not want to make him know, if I was setting my heart and attitude when he was in front of me.

"Morning, Mr. President," I said without looking at him.

I glanced at him, who was currently putting down his briefcase before walking and standing behind me.

The deg!

Again my body stiffened and stiffened, as she with her scent disturbed the sanity of my mind.

This is what I was afraid of, yeah ... Actually everyone will be like this, if you have a taste with people who cannot be reached.

"Lyn."

He called me and I was confused as to what.

"The coffee's done sir, I've got a lot of work to do, and then I'm normal, according to our last conversation."

I once again reminded him of the truth. Then leave it, go back out to my desk and as much as possible avoid contact with him.

I knew he wanted to ask about last night's incident, because I jerked his hands violently, as he was about to ask me with my hands in his grasp.

Thank goodness today was a lot of work, so she didn't leave the room and I could calmly do my job.

When it was four o'clock in the afternoon, I was grateful that God granted my request.

It seemed like the words from me this morning, were enough to make him not see me anymore.

Yeah ... It's better than I have to look at it, constantly in my state of disordered heart.

My office hours were over, I immediately cleaned up the mess on my desk, due to the large amount of documents I had to input.

It's okay, I'm happy when my mind is distracted by my work.

I hurriedly left this place, after I had stored all my data and desk neatly as before.

I got off in the elevator, acting normal when there were other employees, who were looking at me differently.

It must have been because of the rumors yesterday.

I tried to close my ears and blind my eyes, as I got the throws and whispers of the people behind me.

Ting!

I rushed out of the elevator and walked a little quickly towards the exit.

Walking around without looking around and again I had to be surprised when he, namely Riki standing with eyes looking at me sadly, next to his parked car.

"When I was not ready to meet him yet" I murmured as I watched him walk, approaching me who was only able to fixate.

"Lynn!"

It seems, not all of my do'a is heard by God.

Seriate

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