Not my fault

Let me take care of him

Chapter 35

In his frustration Abi groaned tiredly, Abi stared at the surrounding streets that were crowded by other vehicles, there was a horn sound everywhere, apparently Abi was stuck in traffic. If you do not remember the danger, Abi actually wanted to release the hearing aid, it seems like the atmosphere of silence will help Abi to relax a little, but it is impossible if Abi had to remove his hearing aid while he was driving on a busy highway like this. 

Abi circled his eyes around, there were too many people who cursed, cursed, even angry impatiently, while looking around for a moment Abi laughed considering his noisy and painful past, occasionally his mind asks ‘Why should my life be this miserable? Is God not too much for my life? Why don't I just die first? Why did I have to be born like this?’ and other similar questions continued to adorn Habibi's head. 

But now, at least Abi has made peace with reality, whether the test is what he will face in the future, Abi no longer feels his life feels heavy, although sometimes Abi often feels tired too. 

The traffic jam finally unraveled after a while Abi waited, Abi returned to drive his car to the elite area where his house was there. From a few meters away Abi noticed his yard, empty, maybe Naina has not returned from her shopping, a series of chat messages notification of the use of money has arrived on Abi's phone, Abi no longer wants to see it, Abi no longer wants to see it, it feels free anyway. Whatever Abi will say, Naina is still a stubborn girl who will find it difficult to accept the advice of others, especially the advice of Abi. 

With a haggard face, Abi immediately stepped towards his house, Abi was greeted by Bibi who came to the scene, intending to help bring Abi's bag, but the man immediately refused, Abi preferred to bring his own goods, Abi said, immediately Abi went upstairs to visit his room, then Abi had time to lay down his body for a moment, Abi glanced at the wall, where usually a picture of a smiling Mother is displayed there, now the photo is no longer there, and now the photo is no longer there, Abi hasn't been able to put it back in. 

Sighing, Abi immediately went to the bathroom, cleaning himself might make his mind a little clearer. 

At nine o'clock in the evening, and Abi, who is still sitting on the dining chair, still has not seen any signs of Naina's return, the worried Abi worried so much about his wife, especially his future son, who was still in the middle of the night, repeatedly Abi calls and chats on Naina's number, but is unrequited. Abi was very confused to follow the wife where. 

Back and forth in the middle room, until Abi sat down while looking at tipi with a wide enough screen in front of him in a condition not lit, Abi looked at his own reflection there, Abi really felt helpless, helpless, he doesn't know where Naina is going, so Abi can't catch up with his wife. 

At one night, Abi was still awake, and Naina still did not come home, Abi had to push back because of her fatigue. 

Abi's hearing immediately sharpened when he heard the sound of the car door being closed from out there, Abi immediately ran towards the door, peeking at who was coming. 

Naina! His wife came in a staggering state, his friends drove Naina only to the porch of the house, put Naina just like that, in a condition of Naina who was drunk with a vague rapport. 

As soon as Abi's tears just dripped, the man felt like his life was hell, during his life Abi took care of himself as best he could, Abi tried to be kind according to the standards of human goodness, and he tried to be kind, why does his life have to be like this?

Abi was tired, very tired.

Abi opened the door, walked up to Naina who had just vomited, pulled out all her entrails to dirty the porch of the house as well as the sexy clothes she was wearing. 

With no intention of greeting, scolding, or snapping, Abi was reluctant to let out her voice, Abi just stared at Naina with a flat look. 

“Yes Allah Non!” it was Aunt's voice, the middle-aged woman came near Naina, preparing to help her. Aunty was just as anxious to think about Naina not coming home, until Bibi was still awake at almost midnight. 

“How is this from Abi?” Bibi looked at Abi who was still fixated on looking at Naina, Abi's gaze was fixed on Naina's stomach, Abi thought her future son must have suffered inside, immediately Abi felt selfish, in order to maintain his son, Abi said, instead Abi hurt him more and made him suffer, immediately Abi wondered, was his decision to keep his child was the right decision? Abi really suffered when he saw his future son suffered, Abi could not stand it anymore, to make his tears break unstoppable. 

“Yang patiently yes Den” Bibi looked at Abi with teary eyes, apparently the woman felt the sadness of Abi. Abi's a good and patient man, Aunty knows that. 

Naina was almost unconscious, the smell of the woman was so piercing, Abi was not used to the smell. Abi retreated his steps. 

Abi steps into her room, leaving behind Bibi and Naina who are at the threshold of her consciousness. 

Abi sat on the edge of the bed with both hands cupped his own face “Abi was tired Bun” Abi was crying so much, as a man Abi felt useless, as he felt useless, he was unable to carry out the obligation of guiding his wife properly, as Abi's father felt a failure because he was unable to take care of his son properly, that night Abi spent crying bitterly, living with unequaled regret. 

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Time showed ten o'clock in the morning when Naina opened her eyes, the girl moaned then groaned when she felt how dizzy her head was, her eyes gnawed, then gradually began to open, and then gradually began to open, the girl frowned slowly, trying to recall how she could be in this place right now. 

Naina circulated her gaze, this room is her room, Naina immediately jumped, she had completely forgotten how she was in her room?

Last night her friend asked Naina to come to a nightclub, and her friend choked Naina with alcohol, Naina's eyes widened in shock, her hands and eyes staring at her now prominent belly, instantly for some reason Naina's breath sounded relieved, at least the child was still there, then He would be spared from Abi's rampage, he thought. 

Forcing herself to take a bath, Naina finally went to the bathroom, fulfilled her wish, until the time showed at eleven o'clock in the afternoon, Naina felt her stomach wrapped around her, maybe she was hungry, maybe she was hungry, Naina skipped her breakfast time and now she should have had lunch too.

Naina is surprised when there is no food as usual on the nightstand, usually Abi who will bring her to the room, forcing Naina to eat if Naina even fussy not want to eat, Abi usually takes her to the room, but now it doesn't seem like anything happened. 

Abi's? Naina wonders, is Abi angry? Did Abi see him drunk last night?

Naina came down from the second floor, saw that Auntie was cooking in the kitchen, maybe cooking for lunch, it was lazy to say hello to the middle-aged woman, but Naina forced herself.

“Abi where is Bi?” ask Naina. 

Aunty stopped her activities without turning her head towards Naina. 

“Den Abi has left for Non” work

Naina frowned and was surprised by Aunt's strange behavior, after all Aunt was friendly and polite to the employer, but now even Aunt was reluctant to look at her face. 

“Bi?” Naina calls, until Bibi looks forced to turn her head.

“Ya Non?” Aunt looked at Naina with her flat gaze. 

Naina frowned when she saw Aunt's puffy face. 

“Aibi out crying?”