MY LOVELY AUTHOR'S

BEFORE REGRET COMES PART 1

            Arata’s POV

            From this incident, from the many events that happened some time ago and from the Author that I admire, I learned many things. The author who I had admired his writing and saved me from the abyss of despair, in fact had his own power. The first problem of bullying experienced not once but twice. The first round of negotiations that ended in a painful way for Author left its own trauma for Author. All the happy things in Author's life are shattered by the bullying and cost him his friends, family and youth. Author lost his trust in many people, including his own parents.

            After trying to rise from the first bullying and start her life again with the help of her grandmother, Author gives her trust back to people and trusts them once again. But not long ago Author put their trust, bad events that ever happened to him repeated again. Envy and envy are one of the few vices possessed by humans, some people suppress bad traits well and others allow them to grow and ultimately damage others and themselves.

            Settlement in the first case ends badly and is painful for Author, leading Author to run away and disappear before anything worse happens to her as in the first case. Run away from life, run away from society and run away from his parents and family who should be a shelter for him. Author's bad experience as someone who tarnishes his family's good name, makes Author choose never to return to his family after the bad things that happened to him and the death of his grandmother.

 This time after giving his trust a second time and being betrayed a second time, Author finally chooses to lock himself in his protective cage. But ... although destiny often gives writing something bad in the way of human life, in that bad destiny there will always be something good that the humans themselves may not realize.

Due to the necessities of life that must be met, as the life inside his body is still alive, the Author who refuses to get in touch with other humans is eventually forced to make small connections with other humans. After all the nightmares encountered by the Author, this time someone with a kind heart came to him and gave him a little help. That person is Miss Warda. The woman who was a little unable to brake her mouth while talking, entered into the Author's protective cage and made her feel a hint of human confidence that had always betrayed her.

Either out of pity or out of humanity, Miss Warda always visits Author's apartment for work and food reasons given by her mother. But thanks to that ... The author, who once could not trust humans, eventually began to trust humans a little and began to be good friends with Miss Warda. On the other hand Miss Warda who realizes that the trust in Author's heart is starting to grow again, goes to great lengths to bring Author out of her protective lair and return her to the community.

And that effort led Author to meet me.

Even with different stories, the two of us who had painful wounds in our lives met and talked. Without getting to know each other, two strangers who have painful wounds strengthen each other until I finally fall in love with him.

It took me a long time to find her and once I found her, I felt very, very happy as if all my wishes during my life had been fulfilled.

I needed some really extra effort to make Author feel comfortable around me. His wounds about trust in others, have not healed completely. Plus I'm someone who's the center of attention that the author wants to avoid.

Despite being called a shameless person, despite being called an annoying pestle, despite being called by various other swearlings, I have been waiting for time to meet with the Author, not giving up makes him believe in me. I tried hard to understand Author, I tried hard to understand Author and lastly, I tried to understand Author's pain.  And in that effort .. I began to feel, began to understand every pain he experienced.

When Author started to believe me, the same problem came to me for the third time. But this time ... I don't let Author get the same ending as the two problems that once happened to her. With this incident, I want to make Author understand that there are certain people in this world who will believe in him. I want Author to know that in this world, there are still humans who can be trusted.

            Thanks to hard work, I finally managed to prove it and made Author start to believe in humans again and no longer withdraw from human social life.

            Then to Author's second despair, his problems with his family are yet to be resolved properly. Due to the bullying that happened in the past, Author avoids his family. And just like Author, his family who considers Author as a family good name thief also avoids Author. The child-parent relationship and the sibling relationship eventually became colder and possibly colder than the ice on the northern polar continent. The relationship remained cold until a bad accident occurred and claimed the entire life of the Author family overnight.

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            Rama canceled some of my schedules and managed to get me two hours of free time on the sidelines of my work schedule.  But ... That time was not enough. I couldn't leave Author in her apartment alone and let her be surrounded by feelings of sadness, guilt and regret.

            For the first time in my life, I did something I was reluctant to do. I took my phone and called my brother-Kendra first.

            “Arata ... “ I heard a happy voice from inside my phone when Kendra picked up my call. “What wind made you contact me, my little sister?”

            “A-I need help Brother.” Although I didn't want to, I forced my mouth to say that sentence. .... I thought Kendra would make it difficult for me to retaliate my bad attitude all this time to her, but she didn't.

            “What help?”

            “Family Author, ah no Asha died in the fire. Asha is still in severe shock and still has to undergo an examination as a witness at the police station. I want Big Brother to accompany him in my place because some of my schedules cannot be postponed. If you can ... Brother bring our family lawyer just in case.”

            “I can do it, Arata. That's all?” Without asking much, Kendra, who I knew as long as I spoke in a sharp and sharp tone, took my request for granted.

            “One more. I don't know if I can do this??”

            “Tell me, Arata.”

            “I can't leave Author in her apartment alone. I'm afraid Author will do a bad thing if left alone, then Author-Nona Warda's best friend has a baby to take care of, so he won't be able to accompany Author. So I want to ask, can I bring Author to sleep in our house?”

            “You can do it, Arata. Mom and Dad won't mind it and by any chance, Dad and Mom love Asha. I'll take him home from the police station. You just need to bring some items Asha needs from her apartment.”

            Never did I think, my brother-Kendra would give this help so easily. I also did not think that my mouth would say this word to him, “Thank you, Brother.”