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LITTLE SECRETS OF ARATA PART 1

             “Did you hear it, Asha? Asha?? Asha??”?

            While I still can't believe what Arata said in his press conference, Warda who is still connected through calls keeps calling me repeatedly and makes my head even more tired. He must be crazy. This shitty bitch must be crazy. I could only curse those two sentences because of the crazy actions I was seeing in the live broadcast of the press conference held by Arata and his agency.

            “Asha??? You heard me, didn't you?”

            “Ehm. I hear you, Warda. Tell me, is Arata crazy?? How could he say that and make all the trouble more runny than before??” my lament.

            “We first listen to Arata's reasons. Just like you, the reporters must be surprised right now. I'm grateful my beloved Aurigaku is sleeping well, otherwise. . maybe I can't focus on seeing this broadcast.”

            Reporter 4: Can Mr Arata give an explanation for Mr?

            Reporter 1: Did Mr Arata fall in love with Author Wallflower upon meeting her as a guest star on Author Wallflower's signature show and first public appearance?

            Arata: I will give an explanation for this.

            Glug. I gulped my saliva a second time because of the curiosity that was attacking my mind at this moment. I wonder what story Arata will write to answer this question.

            Arata: I met Author Wallflower long before my meeting with her as a guest star on her signature show and her first public appearance.

            “Hiyaaa. . . . Asha. Did you hear Arata?? He met you long before your meeting at the autograph?? Don't you remember meeting Arata first??” This Warda hoopla really bothers me.

            “That might just be Arata's book. If I had met him, I would have remembered his handsome face, Warda. But in my memory, I feel very confident that I have never met Arata before. So. . that answer is Arata.” I gave a confident answer because Arata's handsome face should have left a mark in my memory if we had met before.

            I sat on my couch with my knees bent while waiting for Arata's press conference.

            Reporter 2: If the autograph wasn't your first meeting, then when was the first meeting between the two of you?

            I saw Arata's lips slowly smiling. That smile was the one Arata showed me when he asked me to come to my balcony. Arata smiled as if knowing that I was currently looking at his show like he had asked me to.

            Arata: Our meeting may have been about two years ago or it may have been over a year. I don't really remember when exactly but I remember well, I met Asha when I was still not famous. That day. .. I failed to get a role in a series. You guys know this story, right??

            All reporter: We know.

            Arata: As you know, before I could get this position and get to know many people, I had already undergone various casting and had many failures. I can be here now, thanks to two people: the first person is Actor Rangga who is willing to teach me many things in the role world and the second person is Asha who you know as Author Wallflower. I met with Asha on my failure who had somehow been and thanks to Asha, that day I was about to give up my intention and on the next casting I met with Actor Rangga.

            Reporter 6: So. . . You met before Mr Arata met with Actor Rangga?

            Arata: That's right. That day I who had experienced many failures cried on the side of the road and beside me appeared Asha. We talked about our failure and on that day he gave me his first book of novels that you see I always carry around.

            Hearing Arata's words, for a moment it made me think of the old memories that recently appeared in my mind because of the question asked by Sena.

            “Men-heard what you said, why does it feel so easy? Have you ever failed like I did?”

             “Ya. . . I also failed. I'm sitting here feeling like a failure just like you.” 

            “You failed as what?”

            “As author.”

             “Bu-not. . This is not my book. These books, I-I bought them because I felt a lot of wise words in them. Maybe a few sentences in it will help you feel better if you experience a situation like this again.”

            “Forku??”

            “Ya.”

             “Wallflower. . I think this name is pen name.”

            “It should be so. .”

            “Can I ask??”

            “Ya, please.” 

            “Why do you want to be a writer?”

            Reporter 5: What were you talking about then until Mr Arata fell in love with Author Wallflower?   

            Arata: That day. . after we told each other about their failures, I asked Asha her reason for being a writer and the answer she gave somehow made me feel Asha was the only person who could understand about me. . . That day Asha told me the reason for being a writer.

            “Man lives bound by destiny. In destiny, we only know that we have a soul mate, we will surely die and we have our own share of sustenance. From the fate of life that we have, we only know that. We do not know when we will die, we do not know who will be our soul mate and we do not know how much of our share of sustenance we receive. Because we don't know. . .we try our best to get good results, don't we?”

            “Ya. . . it's true.”

            “In our efforts to do our best. . . Some will end in failure and some others will give us what we want. That's the scenario in the drama of life and everyone will definitely experience it, not least I.”

            “Then what does the screenplay in the drama of life have to do with you being a writer?”

            “I became a writer because I was annoyed with my life that always failed. I, who could not control the scenario in my own life, became a writer because I wanted to control the other life scenarios I had in mind. When I am saddened by my failure, I will make the personages in my mind feel success. When I feel lonely in my life, I will make the personages in my mind feel happiness. By doing that. .at least I can also feel the happiness and success of the figure in my mind.”

            “Hahahaha. .”

 “Do you laugh?”

“Slight.”

“Why are you laughing?”

“We look similar. You became a writer because of a scenario in your life that had many failures and I jumped into the role world because of the same thing as you, I was considered a failure in the lives of many people.”

            Arata: Asha became a writer because she was annoyed with her failing life. Asha who can not control many things in her life becomes a writer who has control for her story in order to feel happiness, pleasure that can not be obtained in the drama of life. And the same reason goes for me, I dove into the role world because I was a failure in many people's lives and because of that, I couldn't feel happiness and pleasure.

            I shut my mouth hearing Arata's answer which was the same as my answer I gave to the figure of the man whose head was wearing the Winnie The Pooh costume at that time. He was the man I met at the time. Arata is that guy.