My Life Light

CHAPTER 6 New places and new lives destroy me.

I left, without even looking back at them, all along the way I just kept quiet. "thank you, thank you for not holding me back, thank you for letting me go" I said in my heart.

arriving at Aunt Emy's house I was placed in the back room with mba ima ART in the house, mba ima welcomed me with great pleasure, I also responded positively to my attitude mba ima, beside our room was a small warehouse, I saw a photo of my mother with oma and aunt Emy, my mother was holding her hand tightly.

"deserved aunt Emy did not like it, it turns out because my mother and oma are very seen to love om Salman." I said in my heart.

"god, may my decision be the best, I'm sure you will provide the good behind everything that happens to me" I said and went to sleep.

the bed mba Ima is arranged, I am at the bottom and mba Ima at the top, mba I'm glad there's a friend she says sometimes she's lonely at night because my cousins come home always early in the morning even though the aunty boy is still in high school but he always comes home early in the morning, so did her brother.

the next day I left school from Aunt Emy's house, it was a bit far from there that took almost 1 hour. From my arrival last night none of them spoke, whatever it was, it took, until this morning, I was silent because I was afraid if I spoke even wrong so I chose to be silent.this morning mba ima made provisions for me, he said,said my cousin always made provisions but never brought, so he was happy with me he could make provisions again.

at school, it turns out there is already om Salman there with a worried face, "you're okay right?"

"what is it.. Why are you here?"

"tomorrow afternoon anter me to the airport, later I will pick up at home ka Emy" he said and I agreed.

I stared at Salman's departure with a smile, "much of what you sacrificed for me and oma yesterday, now is the time to avenge all that" I said in tears.

the trip back to my aunt Emy's house and Alfian's om got into a serious conversation, about the decision I had taken and I finally told Alfian everything,not because I trust him more but I don't want to be a burden of mind for om Salman because if I go with him he will be out of his current job,let this time be my time to repay all his sacrifices.

"if you knew the destruction of your om when you decided it without his knowledge." said om Alfian after I told him.

"i know. I know he's oun disappointed, but what I did for him too and you guys. You're not going to understand how reckless Aunt Emy and her family are" reply me and finally I tell her the oma happenings again.

after debates and disagreements, Alfian finally understood what I meant by making this decision, even though he still could not accept it but he understood that this would make their lives calmer in the future.

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day after day, week after week, month after month I passed by, without feeling like a year had passed,in six months I will graduate from junior high school (SMP) and that means I am entering a new level, I will grow up in the face of everything.

that night I woke up to a noise coming from the living room, like a woman's sigh*h and a man's voice, "who is it???" I said in my heart.

I slowly got up and saw him come out, but to my surprise I saw my cousin who was there with a man I had never seen before,I hurried back to the room before he saw me.

"where did non? " ask ma ima to me.

"oh.. that's mba... uh.." I haven't finished talking the voice appeared again, it made mba ima understand what I mean she immediately smiled.

"non..the next time if there is a rich voice so do not come out yes"

"yes, sorry I don't know"

"it's important not to forget"

"what exactly is this family? why Tasya ka can be vulgar in public places, whether his parents do not know the behavior of his son.." I muttered slowly and returned to rest.

the more day the nature of Aunt Emy's true nature looks, sometimes she told me to tidy up my own house, sometimes she asked me to clean the backyard

without rest, I can't sit in a chair, have to eat in the kitchen, can't go out even if it's just shopping.

without feeling when I entered High School, but unfortunately my aunt dismissed my school with financial reasons being limited, I did not dare to tell om Salman or alfian, he said, even a few times he did not raise their video call.

because I dropped out of school I taught myself at home from my cousin's book, so if one day I could catch up with him, I would have been able to answer all the questions asked of me.

my life should not be part of them, not their families.cleaning the house, cooking, cleaning the garden, washing clothes and others I do with mba Ima. I'm actually not a problem because I used to work every day while with oma first, he taught me to be independent for everything, so I'm not surprised by what happened to me.

my communication with Salman, Alfian and Ratmi mba was very smooth, sometimes they called at the same time, told alternately about the day and gave each other support if one of us felt tired. I tried to lock up a meeting on what happened to me,even they no one knows if I dropped out of school but I told Ratmi mba so that if later they ask mba Ratmi can save me by telling me about other things that make them forget.

the flashback

that night, whatever was on Ratmi's mind, he called me long before our usual conversation schedule, hesitating to pick up the call.

"yes mba?"

"where's decade?"

"i'm in mba's room, what's wrong? tumbens..."

"ade's gone home from school?"

"it's been so new until, here I want again.." Gia not finished answering arrived the door of the room opened loudly, then followed by the sound of Tasya "heh. babu! loe even called the phone! cook anj*** I want to eat! "

"later I call again yes" I replied hurriedly shut off my phone, when I was going out mba ima came and told me to continue my activities just let mba ima cook, and, but unfortunately Tasya refused.

after cooking Gia hurried to the room to call Mba Ratmi, she was worried from the time of cooking earlier, she was afraid that Mba Ratmi would say what she heard earlier. the first call had no answer until the fourth call and was finally picked up.

"mba from manal anyway? "

"mba to warung de, don't bring hp"

"the MBA that was not told to om ya"

"mba really can't answer, you want to grant your request but it's too risky, because your om would be angry to hear that"

"yes mba, I I understand but from everything runyam, mba know how om nature. I just don't want any quarrel here, I don't want you guys why"

I had heard a sigh from there, until it sounded "yes I really understand what you mean, but would not you better return with us? if from what I hear, they treat you open like you're his brother"

"if you think it's better there" he replied again.

"not here is not better..I am better with you guys" I said in my heart.

mba Ratmin asked about the state of aunt and others, and then somehow the initial incident, mba Ratmi managed to make me tell him that I dropped out of school, and then I did,whereas all this time they knew I was in school and currently dudu in High School Grade 2. mba Ratmi was quite surprised by this fact, he said,he also asked me to tell it to om Salman or om Alfian who is closer position, but I refused, not because of what, not because of what,almost every day Aunt Emy threatens and I don't want anything to happen to those I love.

finally since then every question about the school, Mba Ratmi always helped me to answer it and every time I lied in my heart always apologized to my om. I know how much he loves me, not only Salman, but Ratmi and Alfian are watching me, but I know Emy's aunt can do what she says she does, that's why I don't want to threaten the safety of the people I care about.

flashback off

that night as usual, they called me, even though from the voice I heard if the two men were still in their respective offices but they always stopped to say hello to me and mba Ratmi. sometimes they make video calls like tonight, I watch my work om and Ratmi mba who is making cakes.

aunt Emy always let me in the room every 8 to 10 hours because om Salman and om Alfian always call at that hour, so as not to be seen if they are not good to me. after quite a while of talking we ended and closed it with a short evening prayer, then I went back out of the room and found no food at all left, I could only exhale violently when I saw that.

this always happens every night, the beginning ends with me asleep hungry,because Aunt Emy doesn't let anyone turn on the stove at 9 and somehow they're always eating dinner.

previously I hid a little but I really forgot because I was given a lot of work today,I was just about to move when I arrived to bring me a plate filled with rice complete with vegetables and side dishes, I immediately turned to him, he just smiled while saying 'let's eat' mba Ima my best friend in this house, sometimes she always share her food with me, sometimes when she cook she always separate it for me, take care of me when I have a fever, sometimes when she cooks she always separates it for me,I made medicine and so on.

that is how my life f.

in my own aunt's house, where she was my mother's older sister, when asked why I was staying, because she was always threatening me and I knew that threat would be right. emy's aunt's husband is an influential person, but not in a good field, some time ago he killed someone but he can make it look like he did nothing.

the point is that Aunt Emy will definitely really launch the threat action, even by killing the lives of others,that's why I don't want to deal with them and I almost never say hello to my om, because I know the business he does is not in the category of good business.

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one night I woke up to drink water, when I went to the kitchen I had a chance to meet Anton, I did not greet him at all,not because I was arrogant but I was always trying to keep my distance from the start I knew them because it made me look like he wanted to eat me alive. om Salman and om Alfian also said the same thing before I went with them, I once said that to mba ima and mba ima also said the same thing.

because the dispenser water ran out so I pushed the gallon all the way to the dispenser and put it on, whether or not Anton nudged my back, my reflexes jumped away from him,it scared me so much because it happens too often, it just seems like it happens too often.

yes, Anton did it several times,I had protested but he always said nudged until finally mba Ima always took over my job when there was an Anton in the kitchen so I always avoided his depraved behavior. I said it to my aunt, or my cousin, but unfortunately they didn't believe it at all, he mocked me and said I was overconfident,even though I was ugly even compared to ODGJ near his house I was still ugly.

until finally it all happened, the thing that was feared happened, the thing that had been feared by Alfian and om Salman and always warned me to happen. one afternoon I was living alone in the house, Aunt Emy and Tasya were shopping, while Mba ima was attending a lecture in the area, Anton was working and my male cousin was in college.

I was sleeping in my room at the time, I woke up because I felt the door was open, how shocked I was when I saw Anton in my room, I woke up.

"what's up?? why did you come in here! " my voice was a little stained with fear.

"just calm down.o.m won't tell you at the appointment" he said with a smile I couldn't decipher.

"what does om mean??"

"have this! I'll teach you later" he replied again and stroked the area of his pants.

seeing that I immediately ran away, I tried to reach the door, but he pulled me down, he walked up to me and tried to kiss me, but I went straight away so his face fell to the floor, I had heard her grimacing in pain.I immediately rushed to the door and out of my room, unfortunately, om Anto's legs were longer than mine so she could very easily catch up with me.

after such a rebellion he finally managed to paralyze me, even because I was exhausted. My legs were limp and I was unable to get up, Anton immediately overcame and tried to undress me,I couldn't help it anymore, I just cried and prayed in my heart that God would send his angels to save me.

"Lord please." I said.

he managed to tear my clothes to the point that only my underwear remained, I was no longer able to fight back, until the moment he would pull me and his body was piercing my body. arrived the door opened. "thank God" I said in my heart.

it turned out that my male cousin had appeared, and he was surprised to see my position lying down wearing only underwear and his father was on top of me. I waved my hand asking for his help with a smile,but immediately my smile disappeared when I saw the cynical look of my cousin and it immediately made me feel bad. sure enough, I did, he didn't help me at all unless they were going to do that heinous thing together.

"kok papa in my love no? are you more interested in the older ones? " my cousin said, but I didn't answer, I just focused on the pain running through my body. Dandit and Anton turned out to be the same bastard, the same behavior and just as brash, they kept trying to remove the remaining cloth on my body.

having regained my strength, I rebelled again to defend my body, which they had destroyed, which even made me disgusted to see it because of the amount of red on my body, whether it was from their mouths or their hands, I also rebelled until my hands and temples bled.When I managed to get up my cousin deliberately kicked my feet until I fell down, he did it without shame, he said, making me groan in pain I was confused by the behavior of those who knowingly abused their own brother.

with her cynical smile Dandi approached me with a rope, she tried to tie my hands together, but to no avail because I kept moving until they had trouble tying them up. either because it was covered with lust or there was a grudge of its own, Anto hit my nape, after which I felt dizzy and suddenly dark.

Bruckk....

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I groaned a little because I felt a little pain, I woke up feeling tight and when I woke up I was very shocked by the situation that was happening. when I opened my eyes I found myself without a thread along with two men who were currently also naked, "my God" gia German.

crying.yeah, that's all I can do right now, I want to run away but I don't know where to go, even I don't know where I am now, I don't know where I am,because after they did not send me to school on the grounds that the money left was not enough and was deceived by his friends, aunt Emy took us all to move I don't know where because when I left I slept and I was always not allowed to leave the house.

I again saw Dandi approaching me with an innocent body state, with the remaining strength I tried to wake up, unfortunately my petite body made Dandi easily paralyze me.

"where you going?" he asked, raising my head, but I kept silent, "why fear? aren't you? it must be delicious because the cave heard your melodious voice! that's not to the point my dearest cousin.Loe's body is as beautiful as it is to be doneiamin it!!" he said it again without shame.

"what does that mean? not at the point? have they not done it yet? why are they and I wearing nothing? did they just lie to me??! how do I know if it happened?" my inner self after hearing Dandi's words.

before long I saw Anton talking to his son, "let's go up again" he said and pointed at the stiffened part of his body without shame.

"first pa.. I drink first!" answer the child.

When Anton really drew closer to me made me turn right away, with the remaining strength I tried to fight him, I tried to free myself from his support, the posture of the body that lost far away did make it difficult to fight him he oppressed me,I rebelled trying to get away from him.

my body had gone limp, I had no more strength when I was about to give up, suddenly I saw something I could use to threaten her not to approach me. I was just going to threaten him but because Anton's naughty hands touched my whole body, I finally really hit him on the head with an urn and made him collapse on me.

I pushed the body away, I ran towards the room to pick up clothes, "I have to go! I have to run away.I can't be here" my mind cried out.

when I came out of the room there was Dandi who was trying to help his father, he was shouting at me but with the rest of my strength, I tried to leave.

after I felt far enough away, I tried to rest, I entered a house that looked empty, at first I was afraid but if I didn't hide, I was afraid they found me, so I better be here.