My Life Light

Chapter 5 go and forget....

meanwhile, in the room, Gia lay staring at the sky, in her mind still filled with the words of Salman and Alfian, the anger they overflowed when they knew the decision I took. they kept pressing me to ask my decisions that they felt were one-sided and without involving them.

"in two weeks Salman returns to Country I, automatically Alfian will be busy, another week is the 40 oma event and I'm out of this" Gia said in her heart.

Gia knows for sure when Alfian is staying in the room om Salman, the two true friends are always understanding each other, mutual understanding, always at the side when needed, he said, not dateng just have the button.

"om... don't make me confused dong" said Gia in her heart.

that night they each had no one to sleep, all immersed in their thoughts, trying to neutralize the feeling of surprise with this decision.

"oma..why your departure even destroyed my courage, I wanted to fight but I was afraid of losing." said Gia slowly until finally crying....

the next morning Gia and Ratmi prepared breakfast as usual, after being ready Ratmi tried to knock on the door but nothing came out, none of the men moved to have breakfast together. I know and I understand very well, they must be angry at the one-sided decision I've taken but, uh,this is what I do for them and I'm sure someday they'll understand what I'm doing.

"mba Ratmi just simple her food, if mba Ratmi want to eat not what mba just eat first" said I with a little emphasis so they know that others also do not eat breakfast.

"yes, I'll save it."

Maybe because of my words, Alfian om directly out to join mba Ratmi, because om Salman has not come out, I have not moved to eat.

"eat, otherwise I'm sure there will be someone who doesn't eat." call Alfian to Salman at his doorstep.

before long I saw Salman coming out of the room directly to the dining table, without looking the other way.The dining table atmosphere was very unpleasant at that time, but all still trying to enjoy their own food. there was no talk between each other, until after breakfast, after breakfast they returned to the room, it made me go back to the room without helping Ratmi first.

inside the room I tried to recall the anger of the two men when I found out.

FLASHBACKS

"why did you decide without asking us what?" alfian asked as we were given time to talk yesterday.

honestly this is the first time I saw Alfian's angry om, I can't get any answers from me, Om Alfian punched the wall beside him, because he couldn't possibly hit me.

"om confused Gi.. do you really think we exist or not" this time the voice om Salman, said, this is not the first time I have heard anger at Salman's tone of voice because he used to scold me quite often especially when I kept fighting him.

"it's okay om, it's really a decision that I took myself"

"we didn't say there was anyone else behind it all. You just broke something, miss" Alfian framed me with his words.

"did he force you to come with him?" ask Salman to me very gently.

"no. I decided this myself"

"are you trying to leave me?" Salman yelled and then hit the wall right next to me.

it made me shed tears, the conscious Salman almost hit me straight away, he looked directly at the frightened Mba Ratmi, Salman immediately realized that he was not in self-control, especially if Ratmi gets scared like that.

"i know you're angry with the decision I made. I'm also sorry for making this decision myself, I never thought you weren't what you had in mind, I really want to try living with him, who knows what he got from my mother,she will be a stronger woman like my mother and I'm sure I will be that woman" Gia said, trying to convince her that this was her decision.

"aaahhhh." cried o Salman then hit his hand on the wall.

om Salman and om Alfian battered at this time, not because of my actions but because of their own actions.they were angry, upset and even disappointed, but they realized that they could not vent it to me, he said,eventually they hurt themselves.

"go Gi. forget everything, all the togetherness and our life together.forget me, forget Alfian and also Ratmi. GO AWAYL... FORGET US." said Salman finally.not only me, everyone turned to Salman at this time, all trying to convince the word that Salman just said.

"don't mas.." mba Ratmi tried to resuscitate om Salman but instead got a sharp look.

after feeling quite satisfied with Salman's decision, Gia walked towards the door, tearfully. "thank you for being the best person in my life,someday you will understand why I do this, until whenever I still love you, because I love you very sincerely, so that affection will not just disappear, whatever happens." Gia uttered with bated tears, and then she went straight out of the room.

All eyes looked at me when I came out and there was a question from Jimmy who only I replied with a smile, he understood the situation, too, aunt Emu held me back and asked me to come with her, but I refused and asked her to pick me up after the 40 oma daily event.

FLASHBACK OFF

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I cried myself to sleep until I forgot lunch, I even forgot what day it was, I woke up because Ratmi was pushing the door so hard, but I didn't want to open it at all,I feel lazy to move. Until there was a sound that made me finally wake up and open the door.

"open!!! it's not open in here!" alfian shouted from outside.

"2 This man is indeed amazingly creepy" I said in my heart, then walked to the door and opened it.

"Gia... gia ga what?" mba Ratmi asked worriedly, there was an anxious tone heard in that sentence.

I smiled at him, he replied and said it was time to eat.

"eat again? what time is it?"

"it's dinner time already.you passed lunch earlier, so don't until now not eat too" said Ratmi.

"thank you, mba..."

"don't do that anymore.mba worried, afraid you why why"

"yes, sorry"

"yes it's okay.just don't go back" he said stroking my head.

I smiled in response to Ratmi's words "Oh my God, I will miss this" I said in my heart.

"let's eat"

" yes, I'm also a laper"

as time went on, the two men still didn't want to make their voices, they still didn't want to talk to me, they always avoided me, school came home and none of them picked me up.

tomorrow at home there is a 40-day event oma two-day departure I helped mba Ratmi tidying up some of the items I will bring later to live with aunt Emy, I will help mba, om Salman and om Alfian knew that if I had started packing, and it seemed like they were asking Ratmi's mba to seduce me and my answer was still the same as before, Ratmi gave up.

"sorry yes.no I don't love you guys, but because I love you so much and I know they will do anything to get it." I said in my heart.

you won't understand the damage I'm doing, it's hard for me, but I know I'd be more devastated if I saw them, the people I love suffer because of me.

it did not feel like this was my last day in this house, so early in the morning I went to the room om Salman, where the two men slept. I got into bed and positioned myself in the middle of it, from the beginning I made the decision they did not talk to me at all, today I want to talk heart to heart with them.

I hugged Salman tightly, with no tears in my eyes, made him wake up and look, he was surprised to see me, he woke up and changed his position to be in the middle and I was on the edge.

he turned his back on me, he tried not to make eye contact with me, he was the one who knew me the most, he knew I was going to ask him to let me go, I tried to pull his hand but he didn't turn his head at all. "om... I love you guys. Believe me that first, the rest I will explain it to you" I said amid sobs.

ten minutes passed and finally Salman turned his head, and there were tears coming down, finally I took him to sit down, I went down and put my head on his lap.

"you know, I love you, Alfian and Ratmi."

"why should it be this way? "

"om...I can't possibly tell you this right now, right now I just need you guys to be sure of my decision! let me go and I beg you, don't show me if my decision doesn't take you, I'll tell you later"

"that means you're forced!!" salman finally.

the clash made Alfian also wake up, his eyes immediately rounded to see there was me in the room. "you guys are doing it anyway. it's still morning! " said.

"om fian..."

"no. it's up to Salman! don't be the same as me! " Say me Alfian before I say I mean it.

"you are really gi. om would have said that you said from the beginning if you were forced, om Jimmy would be able to help you, so gini rich"

"om... I'm just.." I'm not done yet, Alfian cut it.

"wait.. Whatwasthat? force it? you were forced?" this time Alfian was fully conscious.

"yes he was forced, but did not want to say from the beginning" said Salman who replied.

"i told you right now that I need your permission"

"no.." the two of them compactly answered him.

"your reasons are too strange" Salman refused.

"what if I tell you the truth, you'll let me?"

"we will give permission if the departure is on your own will" said Alfian trying to convince me that what I did was not my desire.

"if this wasn't my wish, I would've said it yesterday when Jimmy asked me that, let alone saying he would if I could do a rejection, let it be no matter how my aunt, she said, aunt, my mother's sister, wouldn't it be weird if I stayed with you?" I clasped their hands, and they did not reject it, I kissed the two hands. "if I am not strong against it, I will look for you, for I know you are the one who will always be by my side" I said, "please let me go, believe me I am a strong woman as you know, never think I don't love you because it hurts the most, when I love you so much but you say the opposite." I kissed them on the cheek and hugged them.

they replied to my hug. "if anything happens to you, tell me or Alfian.I'll go straight back from there if anything happens to you" Salman said.

"okay.." said I then hugged them again, without feeling my tears flowing, Im Alfian who realized immediately swiftly remove it.

"if your departure is your own wish, never do it with tears" he said with a smile, returning the smile.

..."thank God you sent me an amazing person who always supported and loved me" I said in my heart....

mba Ratmi smiled when she saw me walking along with the two men, but Ratmi came up to me and hugged me, "grab her smile" she said seeing us.

that day was held 40 days oma event, so in the house of many neighbors who helped us prepare besek to be brought home as soon as possible, the Ratmi mba family was also here with us, ratmi's mba family is like our family as well so, only Ratmi's mba family can go in and out of my room, either to take things or rest.

by late afternoon Aunt Emy came with her husband and son, with her style damaging our eyes, in a way that was like a disgust to be in the house of oma, but a neighbor who knows his character just dodges the behavior of Aunt Emy.

aunt Emy looked surprised when she saw Salman bothering me while I was cutting fruit, "it seems like he really wants to make my relationship crack" I said in my heart as I turned to look at the surprised face of auntie emy.

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POV aunt Emy

"why did they get along like that? shouldn't they not be greeting each other, since when did this happen???" he said in his heart.

I approached my husband, "look at that!!" I said as I turned my head to look at the person I was referring to, "why did they get along like that?" ask him.

"This is your plan! why are you asking me? if you ask me, then who should I ask?" I asked to go back to him.

"you always blame me!"

"this is your plan! then who should blame me for failing like this!"

"there's no need for anyone to be blamed because we're both doing it" my husband said he didn't want to be blamed.

ahead of the shadow will take place come Alfian who immediately hugged the woman, "shit.. I think this plan worked" my murmur, because upset to see that I approached my first child named Natasha.

"who is ma?" ask tasya.

"Alfian.he's a relative of Salman."

"bull ma..."

"wear your glasses!"

"mama! " reply my daughter upset and leave me.

guests began to arrive and my son came over, "ma... is that Gia??" his hand pointed at Gia who was in the flank of Salman and Alfian.

"yeah..."

"kok... What class?"

"2MPS"

"buset... very big"

"what?"

"hehehehe.. not mah. beautiful yes"

"still prettier your sister.don't be weird weird you're still in 3rd grade High School soon to graduate"

"yes ma..."

"don't you, my mom is serious!"

"iyaaa.. bawel ah.."

the event took place very solemnly, throughout the event Salman like staring dislike towards my two children, I wanted to reprimand him but I was lazy to deal with him.

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*Salman *POV.

That afternoon Salman saw the arrival of ka Emy and her family, vaguely he heard the husband and wife talk. "i believe they are in a cold war right now" said the husband, "anyway Gia must come with us wherever we can" said ka Emy.

"so they deliberately made us quarrel." I said in my heart.

I deliberately approached my beloved niece who was arranging cakes on a plate, I grabbed her and cleaned the crumbs on her cheeks, she said,from the corner of my eyes I saw that Emy and her husband were shocked to see us and it was like there was a little fight on the other end between Emy and her husband, every now and then I stroked the tops of my bangs head so that they would burn even more with our familiarity.

I watched her boys keep staring at Gia from a distance, which is why it made me a little upset, not out of jealousy but because I felt that something bad would happen to my niece if she stayed with them.

before the event will start Alfian came and immediately embraced my bangs, from where I stood, I saw ka Emy staring in surprise and daughter ka Emy looked at my best friend with interest, as if to swallow it.

the event took place me and Alfian took a position flanking Gia on the left right, I think there is Gia, Gia,then Alfian and somehow Natasya or commonly called Tasya the child of ka Emy was the side of Alfian, even he always attached his body to my best friend.

"astaga! didn't he know it was my best friend, why he still wanted to tease her." I said in my heart.

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the event went very well, the guests started to go home and tell Gia and her family along with Jimmy and wife. Gia started carrying her bags out, she did not bring all her stuff, so that while staying here she no longer needed to bring clothes. Gia only carried 2 large bags of one piece of clothing and one piece of school supplies and a small bag of cash, wallet and cell phone.

"Gia... Are you sure of your decision, dear? " tanga om Jimmy was hoping I'd cancel it.

"i'm sure om"

"alright. if you're sure.." she replied trying to summarize.

Gia approached Ratmi who had been stripping from earlier and said goodbye to him.

"play around here ya de" ucqpnya while hugging Gia.

"yes, I'll play"

Gia said goodbye to Salman and Alfian, I knew it was hard for them to let me go but they really fulfilled their promise to respect my decision.

"om... I go first yes.." I said with a smile but there were tears falling.

"be careful, take care of yourself, take care of health, do not forget the church, om also saying the day after om has left! there's Fian and Ratmi mba, who'll come here" om Salman tried to forcefully let me go.

om Alfian gave the same message to me after returning from bringing my things to the car, he hugged me very tightly. "never want to touch them" alfian said softly as he hugged me and I answered him with a nod.

"go Gi. before I get you" this time Salman said.

I left, without even looking back at them, all along the way I just kept quiet. "thank you, thank you for not holding me back, thank you for letting me go" I said in my heart.

arriving at Aunt Emy's house I was placed in the back room with mba ima ART in the house, mba ima welcomed me with great pleasure, I also responded positively to my attitude mba ima, beside our room was a small warehouse, I saw a photo of my mother with oma and aunt Emy, my mother was holding her hand tightly.

"deserved aunt Emy does not like it, it turns out because my mother and oma are very seen to love om Salman." I said in my heart.

"god, may my decision be the best, I'm sure you will provide the good behind everything that happens to me" I said and went to sleep.

the bed mba Ima is arranged, I am at the bottom and mba Ima at the top, mba I'm glad there's a friend she says sometimes she's lonely at night because my cousins come home always early in the morning even though the aunty boy is still in high school but he always comes home early in the morning, so did her brother.