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am I in love #2 (Gia)

I don't know what to call this feeling, but I'm so afraid of losing it, I'm afraid of hurting it, I'm afraid of disappointing it too. What is this thing called love? I haven't felt it for a long time.....

inner Rian

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"where's Gia?" rian asked with a panicked face upon arrival.

"there is no" replied Nicely briefly before the wife answered him.

"kok.." Rian had not had time to continue his sentence Risa had pointed outwards.

"that's him. Long live..."

"God.. thx.." his murmur was clearly heard by Good.

"was you why he got you so relieved to see him?" tanya Bagus is suspicious.

"what the hell! gapapa.. sensi bgt lu !" sahut Rian cuek. "hi.." his greeting was soft when Gia was in front of him.

"hi.." she replied cheerfully even while smiling.

"ehem.." deham Risa who made the two people turn their heads. "was taken to sit Riannya" he continued.

"ga need Ris. want permission to go out for a while" said Rian pamit.

"don't" Good to answer

"what the hell are you! I'm not talking to you either!" namel Risa. "just walk! don't beat him up! the important thing is time, heart in the way yes." he said again gave permission.

Gia turned to her pouting mas because Risa gave Rian permission. "mas.." call her.

"it's the way!"

that night Gia did not talk as much as usual, but they usually exchanged stories even though Rian had to always start, which was the beginning,this actually makes Rian a little confused because of Gia's attitude from earlier so Rian thought he did not see Hanna's existence with her earlier so Rian did not try to explain.

Gia asked Rian to take her directly to the rented, Gia was tired, very tired of hiding behind her mask.he had called both of her sisters if she would go home immediately and not stop by again at the store.

"Gi.. are you okay?" rian asked as Gia was about to get out of her car.

Gia who was shocked by the question immediately turned her head, "what is so noticeable if I cover something?" he said in his heart.

"what is it, sir! I'm just tired"

"may I ask you something?"

"may" try to smile

"change your call and don't be too formal to me"

"okay..."

"mall's pretty big sir...Rian means! yes, I'm in first"

"Gi... If one day there's a mistake I made, can you talk to me about it? to get an explanation from me? so that no one else will talk about me"

Gia did not reply, she just smiled and got out of the car and went to her room, not even greeting Ika who was watching TV because today her schedule was off so she was at home.

"Eet. boy yes, there's a lot of manners!" Ika ngedumel saw Gia who entered without permission like a thief.

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in the room...

"aaahhhhh...why do I want her to be clear about who that woman is? why does it hurt to see him and everyone else! why didn't he try to tell me about that woman too! why is this sick even just seeing the ringing of his phone makes me sick!" Gia spoke to herself under her blanket.

the flashback

"i went to the ATM first Gi" said Rian while out together earlier.

while waiting for Rian to queue at the ATM Rian's cell phone in the car rang,Gia searched for the origin of the sound and took it and how surprised Gia was because the photo of the caller was clearly displayed on the phone with a very minimal shirt.

"HANNA" is written there.

her face was exactly the same as the one in the mall, Gia heaved a heavy sigh to ease the pain she felt. she wanted to strip off but as hard as she could hold it, she did not want to look weak, she wanted to look weak,he was used to holding all his tears.

"where are we going?" rian asked when he came back.

"ouh. that's sir..."

"lake?" rian asked again and Gia nodded.

along the way there is only a silence created, they are not people who often talk but they are people who often joke, but this time only in the content of silence.

"to my knowledge he'll go to the beach if he's feeling sad... seding that can't be revealed" Rian's inner self, "like he forgot to ever tell me this!"

ta

there was no talk of anything just a hand that seemed to strengthen when he himself was the mastermind behind the sadness, until finally Gia invited him home.

flashback off

back to the room....

"why should this hurt? what exactly do I feel, why am I angry I have not become anyone in his life.what is this called love?? cause I don't like to see him get close to other women"