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am I in love? #1 (Myan)

"i don't know what I'm feeling right now, but I always want to see that smile go on, when I open my eyes or when I'm going to close it back. Is this love? I was so comfortable with him, not seeing him like anything was lacking."

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morning Rian had called Risa to talk to Gia but unfortunately Risa was not at the store because the husband made her stay up late, so made her leave for the afternoon to the store but Bagus had already left for work. when entering lunch Ria called back and who raised it even Bagus who immediately greeted him with Omelan.

"whyn't you call my wife?"

"Hem... Why are you there?"

"whatever gw dong!"

"there's Gia ga Gus?"

"ga"

"uh uh? whereabouts? same who? cwe?"

"ye..why be a possessive loe!"

"seriously I'm Gus!"

"he met a guy, his name is akara, alone."

"why do you tell him he's alone?"

Rian did not calm down when he knew that Gia met a man, even Halim the secretary so his exasperation of frustration because he was worried about the state of the angel,though he wanted to tell me that this afternoon he could not go there but tonight he will come to chat with him, even he has not been sour to see that sweet smile this morning.

Rian who today will have a meeting with one of his clients in a shopping center, does not know that something will happen that is not good to him. he meets the former Hanna who continues to follow him to meet with clients, some of Rian's clients do know that Hanna is the fiancee of Rian remain relaxed with the existence of the former,but they had no idea that the relationship was over for almost a year. not far from the table there was a woman carrying a map containing menus and so food information that would attract the interest of having a later event, later,without looking left right he sat down and daydreamed looking out while waiting for the person he met to arrive.

"Gia... I want to be your friend, it's okay just temen, I want you to be the place of my story and vice versa, smile you keep the wound, hurt, emotion and anger. I want to try to get rid of the feeling behind that smile, I just want to get you through something you're afraid of, not force you through it" Rian said

rian's words last night before returning home continued to ring until it made Gia unable to close her eyes,especially after almost dawn Gia gets a message from Derry who pleads to be her partner because she first knows Gia and knows better what Gia is like. some time this is indeed Derry often send a message to him, even more impressed pushy, so that Gia accepts Derry to be his partner for that reason, even sometimes he says he deserves more than Rian the rich.

"how is this??? I was confused by how I felt. I was so calm with Rian but Derry, who knew me first, was like my shadow. Can I choose both? let there be a backup" he said inwardly.

15 Minutes later the man came with his partner,Gia explained about the food and prices and they can ask for the food they want according to their wishes as well as some bonuses that will be given from the RI&GI catering store. after finishing Gia stood up to shake hands with her two clients after making an appointment for another 2 weeks of food tests, Gia accidentally saw Rian not far from her seat,there was Halim on her right and there was a woman on her left side who was struggling affectionately with Rian. Gia just smiled looking at that, then tidied up some of the catering package menu paper scattered on the table, why it hurts so much to see that but she held back her tears from going down.

Halim saw Gia who was tidying up the paper, immediately poking the boss's feet under the table but his eyes could not be separated from the prospective Bu boss. Rian's eyes were perfectly rounded when looking at Halim looking, but his eyes could not be seen,in the hope that Gua does not look at him because there is Hanna and there are still clients, he is unlikely to drive Hanna out in front of his client, even though before his client came he had continued to drive away the shameless woman.

Rian ran out after his client had finished talking, even before the client shook his hand, leaving his client with Halim and Hanna. He looked for the figure he had seen,in his heart he prayed Gia did not see him at all, karna Hanna clung to him, but unfortunately the sossok he was looking for was already invisible, why there was fear in him.Fear Gia was angry, but,afraid Gia doesn't want to meet her and afraid Gia avoids her again.

"Gi.. I beg you.don't dodge before I explain it" Rian said.

without a second thought Rian asked Halim to handle the remaining 2 meetings and he immediately to the tavern where the idol should be. he drove his car very fast, very fast,for some reason there was an overwhelming fear within him, he was afraid that Gia would be disappointed in him, this was not his usual Rian. as a big-time playboy this was the first time he felt this in a woman.

I don't know what to call this feeling, but I'm so afraid of losing it, I'm afraid of hurting it, I'm afraid of disappointing it too. What is this thing called love? I haven't felt it for a long time.....

inner Rian