My Life Light

Chapter 2 CHANGES IN LIFE

You know, 4th grade elementary school kids going to 5th grade with a limp, carrying a burden like this, trying to be a lot more mature, trying to make people around me happy to see me. All my tears hold up, all disappointed I swallow myself, because I know they carry the same burden, even sometimes the food I eat is tasteless because it swallowed all the bitter taste and did not want to make people around worried.

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day by day I pass, though it is heavy but I hold out for them and for my future. not felt at this time I have 6th grade SD means soon I will be on the Junior High School bench, starting to trace a maturity, a manhood,especially soon after the final exam which means I will pass from SD.

om Salman has always been proud of me for my achievements, he and I always support all my school activities, even those that do not exist sometimes made with them, that makes me proud with them.

one day om Salman brought bad news for us, he was assigned to State I for the next 3 years, he said,to be honest I and oma were quite surprised but it was a task that inevitably had to om Salman run, he said,we know that Salman left us and we tried as if we were ordinary even though it was my heart and oma were afraid.

"you sure you can?? mumpung I have not signed yet." he asked again after finishing enrolling me to one of the Junior High schools in the city of M.

"yes, you'll be fine" I replied casually.

"go son, it's your responsibility! you can't just take it off. Your mom and niece will be fine, if need be later I ask Ratmi to accompany us here." oma reassured om Salman by carrying the name mba Ratmi, he is one of our neighbors who asked om Salman to help oma lately who is sick more often.

"alright ma. but let me buy a cell phone for Gia so that she can tell me if something happens" said om Salman in a tone he did not want to object.

"yes. buy it.." oma gave up the original plan oma will let me use a cell phone at high school later, but for the sake of calm om Salman finally he allowed.

"Gi.. abis this om to the place to buy a mobile phone yes.all so that om can teach you first how to use it" he said while signing an agreement to be transferred to Country I.

"yes om" I answered briefly without refuting.

after my graduation day, um Salman left for country I only me and om Alfian who drove him,oma at home because he was not feeling well, but I think it's just his excuse because I still saw him pass that morning.

"om the way yes." she told me.

"om not getting on a plane? how to run, cape." I chanted to om Salman who was greeted with laughter from om Alfian.

but not with om Salman, he looked flat, did not answer anything, he hugged me and kissed my forehead. "just in case oma yes, tell me if there is anything, later Alfian's gonna deliver the money"

"yes om..why is serious bgt..."

om Salman and om Alfian hugged while saying their farewells, "please take care of them for me" he told his best friend.

"definitely brother.don't ever forget us if you're already there."

"thank you for everything, I hope I'm old enough to get back at it"

Om Alfian replied with a smile, we both waited until om Salman disappeared at the departure door. then we came back, there was no talk all the way back,om Alfian just like om Salman he loved us so much.

"eat first yes, it's noon, kasian your stomach will scream" he said breaking the atmosphere of silence.

"yes"

"eat where? "

"free where you are..."

"inget.. don't drag on, kasian oma later."

I just respond with a smile without any words coming out, I understand very well the position of om Alfian is currently replacing the figure om Salman next to us,I appreciate Alfian as much as I appreciate Salman, especially he is the person whom Salman trusted to look after us.

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I've started my adventure on the Junior High bench in the first place knowing everything is going well, my values are very good, '''om Salman kept telling us from country I, he said,every day he always calls us twice, when the morning is leaving and the night when he finishes work but because of the time difference of 7 hours so sometimes only one call is answered by me.

now entering my second year in Junior High, om Salman returned for a vacation. From the beginning he had already told me and oma that he would return once a year, once a year, that's why he came back when I raised me to 2nd grade Junior High, while taking me and oma on the road.

"we go to the beach aja..pend later nginep there" said om Alfian who participated in the holiday this time, not only om Salma, even mba Ratmi also participated with us.

"ask me, if oma is okay we go to the beach" replied om salman.

if going with om Salman is like this, the purpose is not clear but everyone he has collected, because om Salman attach great importance to oma, so our holiday is always bound to oma.

"yes we go to the beach, it's been a long time also not there" said oma when om Alfian asked permission.

oma greeting welcome by us, the weather is very good to go to the beach.we time to vacation to the beach, even we make the next vacation plan, the next vacation plan,om Salman always answered looking for a place that can bring oma. he was almost never on vacation himself, he was almost never on vacation, always take me and oma along and always take us to a place where oma can also enjoy it.

Om Salman only 2 weeks in town M after that he returned to country I continued his activities again, I had started back to school and started activities.

one night Ima complained of a headache, she woke me who was sleeping beside her, "de. oma's head hurts.." she said as I opened my eyes.

"astaga... oma body is hot! " i panicked, "we go to the hospital, Grandma, I'll call Salman first..."

"don't.. don't.." kasian om you again work, don't be disturbed, "you just call Alfian, but also rich oma just a headache!"

I called Alfian a few times because it was early in the morning so it was natural that Alfian did not pick him up, after eight times he finally picked him up.

'om.. oma is sick' I said briefly.

'telfon mba Ratmi om to get there now' reply a little panic, heard a special sound, people wake up.

'good om thank you'

'equally dear...'

after calling him I immediately contacted mba Ratmi, did not eat a long time mba Ratmi was directly on our doorstep, because his house is not far from us.

"last afternoon also oma has been complaining about headaches ka" said mba Ratmi while I was compressing the oma.

"why didn't you tell me?"

"ga can be the same oma" he whispered because oma was sleeping.

three minutes later Alfian arrived and went straight into the room oma, om Alfian did hold the key of this house, the key was given om Salman, only mba Ratmi who did not hold the key, but not the key, not because we didn't trust him but because Ratmi was a banged-up person, he liked to put things carelessly so we decided not to give him the keys.

"how is he?"

"the heat hasn't gone down at all" om"

"if so we take it to the doctor..."

"yes..."

alfian swiftly lifted the oma out, while I took the data of the grandmother that might be needed, but Ratmi took a blanket, water, tissue and eucalyptus oil.

until the first hospital we were rejected because full of om Alfian was starting to get upset, he started driving at high speed, reflex I immediately held his arm. the conscious Alfian slightly reduced his speed after which apologized to me and I answered him with a smile.

in the second hospital we received very well, we were not a CEO or a young master who could easily have asked to vacate the hospital, so after failing in one hospital, we were not able to do so, you should also look for another hospital.

after a long wait long enough in front of the ER finally the doctor stated that the oma had complications of the disease, high blood pressure, gout, high stomach acid and the most severe was colon cancer.We fell silent,no one can say a word until the doctor asks.

"among you..Where is the child?"

"i'm doc's grandson"

"we're just a foster child" om Alfian pointed at himself and Ratmi.

"then her son's in???"

"his son is in country I to work" replied om Alfian again.

"what's the name of Tina's son?"

"no doc, Tina's my mother, she's gone" I said.

"alright.. immediately contact his son in country I to return, because the cancer he suffered was stage 3 which means staying 2 levels to the end."

"but how is it?" ask Alfian.

"for the moment unconscious"

after the departure of the doctor we decided who told Salman and all aspects lead to me, do not ask how he felt, all have been stirred into one, not afraid confused, all are actually stirred into one.

04.00 dawn

it means at the place om Salman at 9, I finally ventured to contact him.

' hello. ' heard the sound of om salman as if in a crowded place.

'om'

'sorry dear om ga denger for a moment huh' said om Salman. 'yes... why Gi??'

'oma sick om, om have to go home' said quickly, initially quiet.

'om will go home, 'om find the earliest flight' he said again and hung up.

om Salman told me I got a ticket at 10 am, I just told him to heart, '10 am there means here at 5 pm' my grunts.

I told the others, ''om Alfian even had time to ask if om Salman knew about the disease that my grandmother suffered, I just answered him with a gel, ' he said,since I knew it would be something dangerous, let him get here and let us tell you this news.

17.22

"de... mother should we have surgery as soon as possible before her consciousness is completely gone" said the doctor who had just examined the oma.

"for a while, doc, his son just returned from country I is being picked up, I have not dared to take any decision."

"later if there's been a direct request to see me, there are people who are not insured by state insurance."

"well doc, I'll tell you later."

Meanwhile on the way to the hospital, "what's the pain mama?"

"then if you get there"

"if you say rich gini means bad"

"what's important is that you're right now next to him"

the hospital hallway was quite quiet at that time, there was a squeak of someone's running shoes, several times the officer scolded him but was not ignored.

"gi.." he said as he stood in front of Gia

"what did the doctor say?"

"stage 3 colon cancer" said gia slowly and then returned to tears.

"can't see?"

Gia nodded and said that the doctor wanted to do the surgery but waited for her to come and asked her to go to the doctor's office, Salman said yes and went to see Oma.

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"what the fuck I don't know!" aunt emy appeared in front of us.

"it is not not in the unknown ka, mama who should not be" replied om Salman defended himself.

actually there is something that makes us confused, because we did not tell anyone if the oma was in the hospital, why this person could know. not that he should not know but we know if aunt emy knew it would be very excited and sure enough, om Salman immediately hit by spray.

"don't call me brother! I told you I'm not your brother! you're a weird mama to have your rich son!" he said lightly, "lucky I met in Ratmi, if you try!"

"ahhh. This is the answer, he is neken mba Ratmi" said Gia in her heart. mba Ratmi did we ask to go home this morning to rest and take clothes for us because the oma operation will be run at 9 this morning.

"what's he sick??? didn't get out much???" said aunt Emy with brashness "if you have to get out of the money I unplug it, I have no money because of it"

I really can't believe there was a kid who said that when his mom was in surgery, if only I was more mature, I would be fighting it right now

"Gia.. if it turns out your oma is not safe, you stay with aunty yes." he said to me who immediately made me get up from the bench and glare at him, he said, alfian and Salman pulled me and they moved me to another bench.

the operation went on for 12 hours, at 6 pm the doctor came out of the operating room and gave us good news, which made us happy not to be upset.Even mba Ratmi to faint because of it, and the,others with us who are happy and moved, aunt emy actually felt annoyed, even she just left.

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after ten days of hospitalization, finally allowed oma to return home, Gia always visit him after school, after school,today the cave is allowed to pick up the grandmother at the Hospital because om Salman has returned to country I three days ago.

"how's oma? is it better than before?" ask Alfian when his car starts to drive away from the lobby rumas sick.

"it's fian's, mama's even lighter now his body."

"Praise the Lord..Thank God!"

"mba Emy did not come yes mama is sick" he asked mba Ratmi, making me and om Alfian turned his head.

"eeehhhh is oma... What is the name of mas fian?" mba Ratmi throws her answer at om Alfian.

om Alfian breathed heavily, "there is a ma.. yesterday you waited with us until the surgery was over, but after that he went straight home, maybe there are other needs" explained om fian.

oma did not answer anything, she just let out a sigh only. The news of Oma's return turned out to also reach the ears of aunt Emy, who was also,when we arrived he was in front of the house and because he was also the whole neighbor so know that the oma in the hospital even though oma always said not to tell the neighbor, he said,not arrogant but an oma just didn't want to be troublesome.

"hi mah... How? is it better?" greet aunt Emy when the oma gets out of the car, in front of the house there are already several neighbors who welcome oma.

"thank you. thank you.. don't bother" said oma reply greetings neighbors passed aunt Emy.

Aunty came into the house with her cuek, not long ago the neighbors returned to their respective homes. mba Ratmi immediately brought oma to rest, to rest,when going to enter the room aunt Emy asked in a loud enough voice.

"where is your favorite child?"

"mas Salman mba work" Ratmi replied, me and om Alfian did not answer anything.

"work? my mom is sick! don't know basic bales!" said it.

"it's just tan!" my mouth tried to hold back my emotions, "again when the oma finished the operation also om Salman who take care, no one helped" continued me again.

"good.emang he should know the return of the time was oma and your mama has helped him a lot, now is the time he helped oma." he replied in a slightly mocking tone.

om alfian has given me a code not to answer it again, but what power, I am indeed easy emotion when it comes to the people I love.if it happens to om Alfian or mba Ratmi, I'll do the same.

"om Salman is the most conscious! if the question of return and he understood the most, in fact rich now he realized very well ifa live had him his son, no one else! there is a child status but already rich is not a child!" ceplosku who immediately made Alfian om pull me out of the house, fortunately mba Ratmi has brought oma into kamat.

"what the hell is om! " i was upset and pulled my hand.

"Salman never taught you at least the same old one!" snatch up Alfian.

yahh, om Salman is one of Salman's best friends from my little one,so he also knows how the struggle of om Salman helped Oma raise me and he also witnesses how om Salman always attach importance to us in appeal to everything, even when I was present in her life when Salman had someone, but because she didn't want me, Salman would rather take it off than let me go.

this was the first time Alfian yelled at me, before him I always ran to him when Salman was angry and at this time he snapped at me, Alfian who realized that he had yelled at me immediately apologized.

"sorry..."

I smiled hearing that, "what's wrong, I know that I'm wrong, I shouldn't be that emotional"

buruh om Alfian gave me an understanding, "om understand you are angry, I understand we are the same thing that aunty has said,but I hope you can better understand what you have to spend and what you have to keep yourself" he said slowly.

you guys can tell, why am I so much more mature than I should be?? Yes... This is one of them, I am in the scope of people who always have a positive aura, I am great with those who are always calm facing everything, I am always calm, those who taught me to be much stronger, so you never say I am great because behind me like this, there are those who always guide me and pull me when I cross the line, hugging me when I couldn't hold everything back.

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already a week oma back home, with conditions that are much better than before, I and om Alfian have returned to the activity. mba Ratmi was happy with the development of the current oma,every day he always tells me about the activities of oma or om Salman when om Salman and om Alfian call.

it's just that today was a little different, but Ratmi didn't say much, after I got back from school shortly before Ratmi told me to go home, mba Ratmi just came to look after oma during my school after that all I did.

tomorrow morning when I was going to go to school oma had not woke up at all, but last night eating still while telling me that afternoon Ratmi had wrongly bought an item that finally made him go back and forth to the stall, which was the last time,though in front of the stalls again many ojek base who likes to be seduced mba Ratmi. hearing that I immediately laughed, I told oma that actually one of them actually there is a suitable one, but I did not,but mba Ratmi is too expensive to sell.oma just laughed at my jokes, but somehow I saw the laughter was like different.

I don't know what happened after that day the health of the oma is getting decreased, because om Salman always ask news from me so I try to tell the truth to om Salman, om Salman, making him send om Alfian to go home more often, even he asked permission on the local RT to let Alfian stay for health reasons,initially RT refused but finally gave permission once every 3 days om Alfian stay.

until one morning I was surprised to find a stiff and cold oma leg when I would wipe his body, fortunately only the current schedule om Alfian stay, stay overnight, I just screamed in surprise that he was in our room.

"why?"

"hold on.." I said calling him closer.

when he held an oma whose body had partly cooled, he hurriedly lifted the oma which was indeed a very bad condition, on the way I contacted mba Ratmi and om Salman gave news. unfortunately the extreme weather there made him unable to fly right then and there, all flights were closed until conditions improved.

we immediately got medical attention for Oma, because it is Saturday so I decided to be in the hospital with Alfian, Mba Ratmi arrived at the hospital 30 minutes after we arrived. looks worried and scared face on his face, just that he tried to look ordinary, Ratmi took hold of me only I know that the hug is different from the usual, the usual,the hugs are too tight for the language to reinforce each other.

at 14:22 the doctor declared an oma coma, like a spear that pierced and pierced the heart, I immediately sat down limp, no one had the chance to catch me, I was still conscious, I was still conscious,it's just that my legs are so limp that they make me fall.

to be honest I'm not ready for this I'm afraid of losing it, I'm so scared right now, I'm confused about what to do in the future. Alfian several times called me to offer me food and others, but I only answered with a head, I had heard the sound of my phone but I was unable to lift it.

not long ago I heard the voice of my inner Alfian 'om Salman.

'yes?'

'where's Gia?'

'there.why?have you arrived?'

turns out they did a video call, 'have you been with him?'

'yes. he was next to me.' om Alfian pointed his phone at me, unfortunately I did not respond at all, then I heard him say to om Alfian stay here, he will return alone.

an hour later someone hugged me and kissed me on the forehead, it made me cry immediately, yes, right now I need it, I need to cry.

"do not be rich gini, we have to face this the same" om Salman said that while hugging me, I was silent not to answer any "denger om, we must be equally strong so that oma cepet healed, I was silent, we should give her spirit."

om Salman continued to encourage me, as well as om Alfian he embraced me and continued to say that the four of us would miss this the same. actually from earlier om Alfian continued to say that to me, so,it's just that he did not intensely embrace me like om Salman because it was a ban from om Salman.

seeing the destruction of the three of us made Mba Ratmi join in crying, we even forgot his existence when he was the one who had offered me all sorts, I called him to sit with us, but instead of silence he even more crying.

"sorry mba yes mas. ka. sorry mba the person is bad" he said among his sobs.

"there is nothing wrong, "" Salman said, but Salman actually has a very calm nature under all circumstances.

om Salman's speech even made mba Ratmi more sobbing, I spontaneously immediately embraced him, tried to calm down, I saw om Salman like he was calling someone.

"ka.. sorryin mba Ratmi ka.." Ratmi said to me.

"you are not wrong what! it's not the fault of this mba"

"mba got it wrong ka" she downplayed her voice, "there's something to hide, but please don't involve the mba family later."

"what the hell is it..."

mba Ratmi told a story that was very surprising mba Ratmi gave her phone to me, she only dared to record her voice, did not dare to take pictures, that was because her phone she just put it.

that voice sounded like aunt Emy's voice, there was an oma voice and occasionally Ratmi's mba voice mediated, I wasn't surprised by aunt Emy's voice, which made me surprised what she said to oma. not finished I heard the recording and heard the story mba Ratmi arrived aunt Emy appeared, without me knowing I clenched my hand and it was seen by om Alfian who made him immediately approach me and clasped my hand.

"why did you just call me?" aunt Emy sprayed Salman.

"sorry ka, I take care of the others so can't immediately contact brother." he replied fixedly with respect.

"just lie to you! you don't take care of nyokap really, do you? you go on..."

om Salman did not answer, he just smiled, that's what makes him special because he is not a person who cares about something that he thinks is not too important.

"why?" Om Alfian asked me, his hands still clasping my hands, I just nodded, '' '''Salman saw Alfian's hand that kept my hand, it made him immediately let go of my hand.

"you're it! why take a chance when I'm busy taking care of everything else!"

om Alfian just laughed hearing that, I still put on a flat face.

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02:11 o'clock

ttttuuttt.......

the sound of a machine beside the oma bed, made me and the others jump up. Before long the doctor came with several nurses and neurologists.

then the doctor nodded several times towards the doctor and other nurses, and then one of the doctors said the bad news to Salman.

the first time in my life to see Salman as hysterical as that, he was out of control,om Alfian had come to look at his best friend who was destroyed.mba Ratmi had hugged me before finally fainting,I stared blankly at the oma.

'*oma... I beg you not to p*ergi, I do not want to be with him,oma... I fear oma... I beg you.' I said in my heart.