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accompany you #1

"why should this hurt? what exactly do I feel, why am I angry I have not become anyone in his life.what is this called love?? cause I don't like to see him get close to other women"

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as time went on, Gia tried to avoid Rian again with some of his activities. in fact, it has been 2 weeks Gia stayed at the place of the brother who is still like a newlywed even almost every night Gia heard a groan from the room of the brother. "if it wasn't for avoiding someone, he would have chosen it"

it seems like tonight when Gia came out of the room to take a drink Gia instead found her mas was stumbling on something like a baby in the room knows the front of the TV finally Gia backed up again and rang the door,so that her brother knows if he wants to pass.

"hey.. haven't slept?" ask her who has confirmed her position.

"i'm thirsty"

"you haven't given me the same Rian de? why is he still asking the same sister" this time Risa as if nothing had happened earlier.

"later ya ka.. I don't want to be disturbed who! after all, the C package graduation exam next week so I again want to focus so much on wanting to join the scholarship from donors in PKBM." replied Gia as it passed.

15 Minutes after Gia entered she heard again the voice she used to hear, Gia just took her headset and played the song with a small sound that was only attached to one ear, just to the other,not because he came in to hear the vulgar drama of the brother but he could not with a loud voice.

Rian began to feel Gia more and more avoiding him so this morning he was already in the store, talking and breakfast with Risa and Bagus. they told him that Gua again focused on learning because he pursued a scholarship from the package school he lived.

Rian caught a familiar figure wearing a white black pants shirt with a bag standing in front of the tavern, Rian was dumbstruck to see him, as long as he got to know Gia this time seeing Gia in a light color dress.

"the usual dong! sampe ngeces it" goda Bagus

Good indeed did not like his best friend who is famous playboy class that was with his sister, but because he got a threat from the wife to reduce his ration so he inevitably had to accept it.

"i anter ya.." said Rian when Gia until when Dateng had not said anything.

"yes in anter Rian aja de! because mas also want anther brother to the market first" said Risa lied.

"do not do ka. I do not what my own way, time is still hunted"

Rian who did not want to hear Gia's refusal immediately brought Gia into his car, without saying goodbye to his two brothers, Gia,Good who did not like his sister in drag came straight to the car and gripped the collar of Rian's shirt before getting into the car.

"gw have said the same loe do not misstep! he's got trauma!" nice Snaps

Gia who saw it straight out of Rian's car and Risa immediately came out following, this time Good no matter the gaze of his wife, he did not want the trauma of Gia repeated again, Gia,he was too scared if that happened. Good to call Derry and ask him to take Gia away, Rian who was going to hold Derry immediately stopped seeing the murderous gaze of his best friend, Risa did not dare to do anything because it was Rian's fault, Rian did not dare to do anything, considering Gia has tremendous trauma to abusive attitudes, quarrels, loud noises and pitch-black space due to the rape incident that Gia experienced 2 years ago.

Rian was very shocked by what happened just silent with a confused face, he did not understand anything. Risa invites Rian to the out door cafe next to the park, treat Rian's lips that bleed because of her husband's blow and ask Indri one of her kitchen to make ginger water with honey for Rian.

Risa apologizes to Rian who was injured by her husband, and then she tells the core of the anger from Bagus to Gia who was treated for months of depression due to rape someone who turned out to be her cousin's sister, who was killed by her husband,but Risa and Bagus are sure there is something in the past because before that Gia was very afraid of being close to men, even though it was good, because before that Gia was afraid of being close to men,it was just that the two of them were unwilling to pry if it would only make the wound that had dried back open.

Rian heard Risa's story with a look of annoyance, anger, even he had clenched his hands until printed nail marks on his palms.before Good came out and approached his wife who was talking with his best friend.

"sorry man!" he said in front of Rian.

"it's okay man! I'm thankful you took good care of him"

"it's still my job! not loe's job! loe's journey is still long for him" he replied again with a chuckle and hugged the friend.

"gini dong in nonsense is delicious" said Risa among them.

they approached Risa kissing her right left cheek simultaneously.

"is there a junior?" tanya Rian arrived

"patience bro.. I also again wait for God to love trust in Gw"

"but make it, right?" joking Rian

"do not ask. every mallm I came out many times" he said while hugging Risa from behind.

"hadeuh... already go first! see loe both I can kepengen" he said with a laugh.

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that night Rian did not return to the store, not because of anger but felt guilty because it turned out that Gia had been fiercely fighting her trauma alone,he so flashback to several times his closeness with Gia or holding his hands with Gia he always felt Gia too sweaty, sometimes cold, even while staying at Rian's apartment he had suddenly pale.

so Gia tries to hold back her own fear.This time Rian is determined to help Gia fight that fear, she will not be in front but she is beside Gia to be together against all that.

"i want to be someone who eases your pain, I want to be with you to take your fear away and I want to step with you into a beautiful day with no shadow of your past"