My Last Port (You're Not a Shit Carrier)

Can I sleep on your lap??

After their task is completed, which is to help Alisa make a pumpkin cake for Bude Yuli's neighbor Alisa.

Now it's time to rest.

''Brother inside the same Mak, you and Lana are sleeping outside! the mosquito net is still good, really. So it's safe, you two won't get attacked by blood-sucking insects!'' alisa's hatch left the three of them confused.

''Blood sucking insects??'' Lana's parrots.

''Hooh. What does that mean mosquito??'' ask Ira. And Alisa smiled.

''Smarts! come on now you guys get some rest! tomorrow the school.'' he said as it passed leaving Gilang and Lana there.

When Alisa wants to pass into the room, Gilang stops her.

''Wait Mbak! can we talk for a second??'' tanya Gilang with a sad face.

Alisa jerks. From earlier he did not pay attention to the look of Gilang's face. Because he is very focused on his work.

''What's up? What do you want to talk about? Tomorrow, will it? It's so late, look! Lana's been snoring! Ira was asleep too! they slept quickly. Ck!'' Alisa clucked at the behavior of her two children.

''Just a moment Lis! i please? I really need someone to reduce this burden on my shoulders. Just a minute, huh? Please.'' the door with a paste.

Alisa who saw Gilang's gaze, she asked in her heart. 'What's up? why do his eyes show such deep sadness? Then why? it feels like my heart is feeling the pain it is feeling??'

''All right, but for a minute! like Annisa was crying? I suckled first huh? it's okay, right??'' ask her.

''Yes,'' Gilang said.

After her Alisa goes into the room and breastfeeds Annisa. Long enough the little baby suckled. Until the moment Alisa finished, she saw Gilang still sitting leaning against the wall with his eyes looking up.

His eyes looked empty. Alisa's approaching Gilang.

''Gi.'' call him.

Glaring gasped, he turned his head where Alisa was standing looking at him. Gilang waved his hand.

''here!'' yells. Alisa complied and sat down next to Gilang.

''What do you want to talk about??'' ask Alisa.

Glad to look at him softly. ''Can I sleep on your lap Lis?? Just moment! that is if you allow it!'' Gilang.

Alisa looked at him without a blink, why?? Is there something that disturbs your mind??'' ask her.

Gilang. ''I just feel tired, ''' she replied.

After her he wanted to lie on Alisa's lap, but he asked once more, May I sleep on your lap Lis??'' ask her again.

Alisa had to nod. Just a moment, he thought. Then Gilang put his head in Alisa's lap.

Alisa sat cross-legged, her legs automatically folded. Glazed to lay his head right in front of the center of his core. Alisa pounding.

Just this time he held the head of a young man. In the past, when with Emil do not be a lap, in the hug was rare. There are only days when we perform the ritual.

Alisa shakes. Gilang unconsciously shook his head slightly, looking for a comfortable position.

After finding a comfortable place, Gilang looked up, who also Alisa lowered her head was staring at him.

Gilang smiled. ''Thanks! for having accepted this still childish me!'' he said, chuckling.

In his rarity, a clear grain flowed from the corner of his eye. Alisa who saw that there were tears flowing rubbed her.

As soon as Alisa rubbed, Gilang's hand touched Alisa's hand, and grasped her. Gilang brought Alisa's hand to her lips for her kiss.

''Whatever happens, don't ever leave me Lis. I can't live without you! I'm going crazy! when it happens to me! please Lis..don't ever leave me.'' she asked Alisa.

Alisa who saw Gilang crying, also felt tightness in her chest.

''My life is too complicated Lis! trust me that there will never be another woman to take your place in my heart! I am so tormented by all this! I can't take it anymore! I can't hold it for longer!'' exclaim Gilang, in a slow voice.

Gilang turned around and hugged Alisa's body. His face was facing Alisa's stomach. Gilang hugged him tightly. Glare sniffled, Alisa knew it.

''Just what burden did you bear Gi... until you cried like this??'' lirih Alisa in Gilang's ear.

Gilang further tightened his embrace. Body's shaking. Alisa iba saw it.

''Can I not know? What is really going on??'' ask Alisa again.

Gilang did not answer him, he still sniffled. In his sobbing, Alisa heard Gilang mutter.

''I am not strong Lis... Can I just die? I want to catch up with Oma who has died.'' said Gilang.

Alisa surprised. He shook his head, no! you can't go! you are still young! it's still a long way to go! no matter how much trouble you face, you must be patient!'' exclaimed Alisa with trembling lips.

Gilang further tightened his embrace. ''I can't afford Lis.. I'm too weak to accept all these exams. I'm not strong. He still buried his face in Alisa's stomach.

Alisa's clothes are wet on the stomach. Warm felt there because of the liquid from Gilang tears that spilled on his shirt.

''Hiks.. What can I do for you, so you don't like this anymore?? Is there a way Gi..??'' ask Alisa.

Gilang. A face full of tears. Alisa's sick to see it. It was like a stone was squeezing his chest when he saw Gilang's gaze on him.

''There!''

''What??''

''Marry me!'' exclamation Kilang

The deg!

The deg!

Alisa was surprised by Gilang's words.

''Meaning?? Married??'' alisa Beo. He stammered in response to Gilang's words.

''Ya! that's the only way! I don't need anything else!'' said Gilang again.

''But you're still Gi school! how could we get married! while I.'' he fell silent. Don't want to continue anymore.

''Widow you mean??''

''Huh? mom-it's not that problem!''

''Keep what Lis?!'' ask Gilang impatiently.

''I-I just feel that I don't deserve you. Our age is very far away Gi. You deserve to be Abang Lana and Ira. open her father.'' said Alisa.

''Ahhh! age is not a barrier to our relationship Lis! Do you really not want another wedding? Because of your past? including not wanting to marry me??'' tera Gilang's.

Makes Alisa confused as to what to answer. As far as he knew Gilang, this young man was indeed very good and royal of course.

I don't know why there's something Alisa doesn't know with her heart. Alisa breathed.

''It's not that I don't want to marry you GI. It's just that I don't deserve to be with you. Regardless of my past, that's a major point. Because I can't heal my heart's wounds yet! It is very difficult Gi. to live independently without a husband.. If I marry you, what will my neighbors say here? Do not rule out the possibility if they will assume, I like the same in droves! and just aim for the treasure!''

Eh?

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TB