My Last Port (You're Not a Shit Carrier)

Al Gi Na Ra's

The dream is like a continuous. Not only Gilang, Lana, Alisa and Ira. Even in that dream Ira was very clear to hear the bass voice that was so tempting was the voice of Gilang.

Ira did not believe in his vision of Gilang, but after hearing one sentence addressed to his Mak he only realized that the young man he called Papi was Gilang.

Ira cried when it turned out that the dream that had been present to them had come true.

In the dream Ira only heard his voice because at that time he was holding Annisa who was asleep.

Really am! he was so happy that a long wait with a strand of prayer had been granted. He hoped that they would become a happy family.

But what about her mother?? Even until now his Mak has not received Gilang completely.

His heart was still not melted. It takes time to break the hardened stone patiently and keep trying.

The wound that had been incised by her past was so deep that it made Alisa lock her heart tightly.

Isn't that Alisa's principle?? If he has loved it will be difficult to let go, but if he has been hurt then closed is already the door of his heart.

He will no longer believe in his name Le la Ki. He will focus on his son.

Their dream has the same goal of uniting them into a family but because past events make them difficult to unite.

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Gilang was still sitting on the floor with Annisa on his lap. The little baby was not affected by the sedu sedan of people around him, he just wanted to sleep in the warm embrace of a father and found in Gilang.

Alisa was still hiccupping, she cried without seeing Gilang who was sitting in front of her.

Alisa doesn't understand any of this. Is the dream true or just a sleeping flower?? If it was said the sleeping flower why it was as real after his meeting with the young man and if it was said to be real it was hard to believe.

Everything feels weird! It is very difficult to understand the logic.

But Alisa is still Alisa she will hold fast to her principles. The journey of life in the past became a valuable lesson for him so that in the future more careful in matters of the heart.

That was enough for him all this time. And now it's time to set his heart, he'll also shut down all access to what's called Le la Ki.

''I don't believe you are a young man i-it's just a dream bu-bung sleep!'' said hiccups.

Gilang who heard Alisa's chatter became annoyed. How to prove that he is the one in the dream.

''It sounds Gilang Mbak. All this happened is not just a coincidence! and we have to accept it! Does Mbak doubt the almighty Isaan??'' tannya

Alisa shakes. ''No ! this is all just a dream, a dream just a sleeping flower will not be real!'' said kekeh.

Gilang took his breath. It was very difficult to conquer an Alisa. He who used to be shackled with the past can move on time' Alisa no? Is so hurt that he closed all access to see which dreams and which ones are real.

''Did the pain you felt in the past make you lock your heart and eyes so as not to see another man so sincere to you??'' ask Gilang

Alisa who heard him was stunned. Truly this is like knowing what is in his heart.

''Why Lis??'' ask again.

''If there is pain, then there is a cure. Is there a disease without the cure Lis?? Is it not mentioned in the Qur'an that all diseases have a cure??''

''Only one disease that has no cure is the old disease Lis! But why is Lis... you so close your heart?? Is there even the slightest taste for me in your heart??'' ask her questions.

Alisa was silent, she was still stunned by Gilang's every question. He was confused, not knowing what to answer.

It is a dilemma between the heart and the mind that is not in line. Will he be able to accept all of Gilang's explanations.

He is just afraid that the past will repeat itself.

"Are you not thinking about how your children will live in the future, don't they need a father figure who can protect and also guide them??"

"You can be selfish about closing your heart tight, but what about your sons and daughters? Did you ask them? What do they want? You said you lived for your son's son, but what?? Even to ask what they want you didn't do! You just focus on your heart! If you are focusing on your heart, why are you bringing them with you?? You're selfish Lis..!" his pedicab.

Alisa was jolted with Gilang's words, she did not think that Gilang could talk to her like that.

Pain that has not been dry coupled with new wounds. Who is he judging her? He is just a stranger who arrives in his life.

Alisa closed her eyes for a moment before she answered Gilang's words.

"Really! it's true what you said! i'm selfish! I'm more concerned with my heart than my son's wishes! i'm weak! I can what? If all this was directed at me?" coldly add to Gilang.

Silenced, he continued his words again.

"Do you know about pain?? You are not married yet! your status is still a student! You never know what kind of pain I have.! Dozens of years Gi.. dozens of years I lived in agony! Just a little bit.you understand about my circumstances.it is easy for you to say because you have not felt what I feel!'' said furious

Crossed Alisa's words. Does he think that all this time he has never felt the name is hurt?? what's called a broken heart?? He already felt it!

'' You think, I have never felt that kind of heartache Lis?? I already felt it while I was still sitting on the SD bench ! You're saying I've never felt a heartbreak either?? I already felt it when I was in Junior High!! Which part of it I didn't feel for Lis. I endured it all alone for years! Do you think anyone wants to heal my wounds?? There is no Lis!! We are the same Lis.. we are the same as ever feel the name of heartbreak, whose name is heartache! What's the difference between me and you Lis..?? Answer it! But I could Lis... For years I lived it alone, you know what the cure is?? The cure is time! Only time can heal!!''

Alisa was stunned by the words Gilang really deep in her heart she did not mean to offend, just wanted to show what hurt felt like.. And it turns out Gilang felt it too.

Alisa crying.. His tears fell without being asked.

''You know Lis. the pain I feel is so painful that it feels like mosquitoes don't want to feel it either. I'm alive but only raga! Races without life! Wanting to die afraid I preceded my destiny to sin.. Do you think I've never felt his name disappointed?? I feel it even more than you feel! But I keep living it hoping that someday I will definitely be reunited with someone who accepts me for who I am. I realize myself who I am. I am just a child who has not even finished school but from experience, I learned to be more mature compared to age..''

''I understand your situation Lis.I always try to approach you to heal the pain caused by the past.. I tried but still you refused my presence! Do I have to die first and you want to be with me Lis..??''

The deg!

What's wrong with you Gilang?!

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Selow bang.. 😁😁

TB