My Last Port (You're Not a Shit Carrier)

POV Ira

I saw Mak and Papi hugging each other. I smiled at him but it was strange! Mak who usually hate to be approached by men why now different. Like there was something between the two of them.

What's the matter with our mom. Unlike usual Mak can be that close to a man. Even Mak taught me about which men to approach or not. If a younger sibling like Lana is okay because he is our mahram, but if a man like Papi Gilang who has no status has not even married Mak.. so Gilang papi is also not the mahram Mak, right..??

I asked the real question, Why?? How can you do that with Papi Gilang?? I do not know much about the meaning of mahram is actually just its definition that mahram is linguistically derived from the word haram which means opposite the word halal. It means that it cannot and is forbidden to do so.

While according to the term of the scholars mahram is defined as all the women who are haram to be married forever because of heredity, intercourse and marriage in the Islamic Shari'a. That's all I know from the meaning of the word mahram and also Mak often say if men other than siblings are not our mahram, right or not I also do not know .. because I used to want to go to boarding school but dad was banned, so go to public school.

Though Mak really wants me to go to the boarding school so that more knowledge I get. But in fact dad forbid, he said father could not afford to finance when I go to bed later. I am determined after graduating from Junior High I will go to school in the boarding school.

Mak once said that I can't follow in his footsteps. I have to be more than him. But how could that happen if in front of my eyes Mak and Papi almost kissed ups! I was embarrassed to see it myself and luckily because I was surprised by reflexes, I dropped the glass in my hand. I was shocked to see both of them.

Huuuhfftth is almost there!!

Really !! deep in my heart, I was happy to see Mak happy with Papi Gilang.

Papi's...

Yes, a young man whom I deserve to call Brother, will now soon become Papi, the three of us continued. He is the figure that is always told by Brother, that Papi always appears in his dreams. I was wondering, how could anyone in a dream be present in the real world! that's so impossible! But that's true.noh.

I once wanted to see her with a female side of me. Wanting me to be attracted to her handsome face, tall stout body, white skin made me like her as a couple. Yes. You know the Junior High kid already knows a girl whose name is a boy. But I shut myself out of it all. Because Mak once told not to be misguided in the association, good deeds we will have accountability later in the afterlife.

I obeyed what Mak had ordered..

Lah... This is our Mak how can it be like this?? Was it because it hurt so much in the past that he needed a shoulder to stand on?? All this time Mak always closed himself from anyone but this is with Papi. handsome young man we have met at the food stall, the person was cool to talk to, friendly and not stingy! hehehe.

The pain in the past felt by Mak is very severe ! It felt like I was about to die when I saw Mak's state like that, but I was just a little kid who couldn't do anything about it. It's not that I don't know what happened to our mother. I know everything.I even really know what it's like after Mak and dad split up and before they split up.

Mak is very tormented born and inner. But he never showed it to the two of us. My brother and I know the condition of Mak. Maybe if the two of us weren't around, Mak would be crazy by now. I only survived for the both of us. If it wasn't for us Mak would no longer exist on this earth.

Not to go before God, but this is the harsh reality we feel together.

What a pity my mother's fate..

I was a living witness to her suffering, but Mak was so strong to face all this not to mention when she was pregnant adek, really depressed because he always lowered his self-esteem. I wanted to cry but I couldn't interfere in her defense was forbidden. Mak said, let all the mistakes be borne by him.

And now, when he got happiness..Am I as a child who witnessed how difficult his life dared to forbid him to get happiness??

I am a big new kid, but I have puberty. I already know which ones are okay and which ones are not. For a moment I was pensive, I wanted to feel like I was gently reprimanding him so that Mak would not hurt, but I did not dare then the broken glass as an obstacle to the mistakes of both of them.

Forgive brother Mak..

Sister does not mean to disturb.just you almost made a fatal mistake. I hope Mak same Papi understands yes. Brother dare not rebuke you both fear you are ashamed. Not to mention Abang who wants to know what Papi does as Mak gets runyam later. Therefore, intentionally, brother stopped the action of the two of you.

Forgive brother Mak..

Hopefully Papi Gilang can provide complete happiness for Mak...

Kakan sure! Papi can definitely take Mak to the right path! seeing from his person so soft and loving but firm to the three of us, Papi is the father figure we have longed for. Although he was very young, it was not a barrier to being a father of three children.

May God grant every request of my brother..

May Mak be happy with the choice of heart..

My sister is very much the same Mak...

Hopefully, you will also be like Mak later.

For Papi, keep Mak for brother.for him always happy.don't let him cry every night prostration! Brother believe! that Papi was sent to heal his wounds.

Brother dear Papi...

Iaaaangg..!

I Miss you Papi...