My husband loves my husband to fly

All the needs I have prepared

A few strands of T-shirts, Shirt shirts for Friday Prayer, shorts, training pants, underwear, toiletry towels, and medicine of course, I don't want my husband to fall ill, he said, so I prepared it as detailed as possible.

The day of his departure, from the morning we were all busy, for not only my husband was leaving but me and key's brother were also going to stay at my parents' house, and,,

We went on a motorcycle, my husband drove me to East Bekasi station.

"Be careful, well, every father stops taking a break, my news is yes" I said to him

My husband just nodded, sign agreed,,,

Strange indeed, usually my husband is a very considerate person, always a lot of messages if I just travel alone with my son, but this time he is like someone else for me, he said, but I'm trying to understand,,,,, uh,,,

We split up at the station at about 8am, finished our salam and kissed each other, My husband left me n key, without much message,,,

Still on the way to Depok, my husband sent photos via whatsapp, he told me that at that time he was having breakfast chicken porridge in the area cikampek,,, he said,, every husband I send whatsapp I always reply with "heart on the road well" because I love my husband so much, I don't want anything to happen to him,,, I don't want anything to happen to him,,

Every time I pray my husband always sends me a photo, that's one way he tells me his position at that time,,,,, that's,,,

Until 9 pm I remember my husband has arrived in Semarang, because he sent me a photo in front of the Semarang monument with his tired face,, he said,,

"Alhamdulillah I've been there, where do you want to sleep tonight???" ask me

"His wealth in the Gasoline Poms was his "return to me,,,

I feel like I want to cry out, I'm sad to see it has to be like this, but this wants him, to go far without us,,,, I'm sad to see him have to be like this, but this wants him, to go far without us,,,

It's been a long time tonight for me to wait until morning, I can't wait to get in touch with my husband,,

At exactly 8 o'clock my husband sent me a picture of himself, in front of the Mini Market, wearing a white black-arm shirt, and levis pants, he was having breakfast there,,,, and,,,

Hunt me call her, I want so much to hear her voice, I miss,,,, I,,,

"Dad, yuuk island, I can't do this" I said as I cried a mouthful

"Well, that time is mah,, dad is new until, dad is still tired, anyway dad still wants to walk here first,, will father's schedule come home tomorrow, tomorrow aja ya mah,,," it's clear, it's, uh, the,,,

"I can't be like this dad, I don't want to be left behind again," my tears grew louder

"Dad promise, I will never stay mamah again, but let this time father like this first huh" he asked,,,

With a heavy heart I keep nodding, with a clear circle constantly falling in the corner of my eyes, *sediihhhhh

That day I filled it by going swimming with my sister, aunt and son. While I was busy taking pictures with my sister and aunt, my whatsapp phone notification came, a sign of an incoming message,,, and,,,

"Well, did you really go to Semarang? Mom sm key not coming???" it turned out to be a message from Kiky asking about my husband's departure this time

"No!!!!!" I answered briefly, I blocked the phone number, I don't want to be in touch with her anymore,,,,

My inner hypocrite,,,,, the,,,