Mothers

38 Hearts of Rei

"Bi, Bibi knows, I used to think that all the food in the restaurant must be very good. I would love to buy that grandma. I also feel that living in a big house will definitely be fun, no need to jostle when you want to do something. But now I feel like all of that is not true. Now, every day I always eat meat, chicken, fish, seafood, or other good food. But why does it feel so bland to me? I lived in a luxurious house with a very soft mattress, but I never felt comfort. I feel like something's wrong. Everything I felt, nothing made me happy, because there was no grandmother by my side.

Why do I eat well, if grandma doesn't enjoy it. Why would I live in a big house if grandma couldn't feel it. It was like eating and drinking something poisonous, I felt like sleeping on thorny grass, I was living under the abyss of darkness. It's okay if every day I just eat with cold rice and a pinch of salt, sleep on a thin mattress and share a pillow, feel the darkness when the electric token runs out, with a grandmother who is always healthy. Aunty knows no, while here I never sleep well, even though my room is air-conditioned. In the past, when rented, even if only with a fan from a piece of cardboard, I could still sleep well while hugging my grandmother. Bi, I miss my grandmother so much."

Rei's tears fell on Bi Tuti's lap, as the pregnant woman leaned her head over Bi Tuti's thigh. In this house, only bi Tuti could talk to him. Probably because of their social status. Rei never considered himself wah just because he married Marva. Bi Tuti also never reproached her even though she was in this house is a second wife, who is often said as an actor.

"Bi, I know what it's like to not have a father and a mother from birth. How will it be when I have to leave my children when they are newborn? I'm gonna sin, right?"

Bi Tuti was unable to say anything, but his eyes had already let out tears even without a sound. Gently stroked Rei's hair, the young woman he had already considered to be his own child.

At various angles, many ears heard the complaints of the future mother.

Stifling words came out of those lips, which were poured out to the housekeeper.

"But at least they weren't really orphans like me. There is sister Marva as her father, and sister Viola who will be their mother. They will also have eyes and grandparents. Don't forget, the treasure. I'm sure they'll be happier, happier than my childhood that had nothing."

"Bi?"

"Did Aunt have a child?"

"Have it, but aunt's son died ten years ago."

"Is the bond between mother and child so strong?"

"Yes, of course. When aunt has worked here and aunt's child in the village, when she is sick, aunt's heart will feel anxious. Can't sleep and doesn't eat well."

"So so. Am I going to be like that too huh, Bi? Have an inner bond with them?"

"Yes" replied bi Tuti.

Tears were shed, both from the speaking and the listening.