Mothers

34 Viola's

Renata went to the prison with Mahendra. He registered for a visit today to see his father. Renata is a little uneasy because this is the first time he has met Candra again after all these years.

"Don't fidget. You are with me." said Mahendra clasping Renata's hand out in cold sweat. Renata only smiled seeing the small attention of Mahendra.

Not long after, Renata is welcomed in by the officers and meets Candra. Mahendra told officers to give them a little longer to talk.

After being ushered in by officers and sitting opposite Renata, the shabby Candra did not dare to look at Renata's face.

Renata had noticed the irregular look of Candra.

"How's Dad doing?" renata's voice was almost choked by seeing his father's miserable state.

Candra remained lowered and nodded.

"I finally decided to come here after a long time I couldn't visit Dad. Because there's something I want to ask." said Renata trying hard in front of Candra.

Candra looked up to see her daughter's perfect face, similar to that of a graceful and beautiful Kinanti.

"What is that, son?" finally Candra opened her voice speaking to Renata.

Renata's eyes began to tear and Renata looked up so that the tears did not come out of her eyes.

"Did you love me till the end of your life?" ask Renata.

Candra was speechless unable to answer Renata's question.

"You remember, what do you always say? That I am the most beautiful jewel of kalia. I can never be replaced by anything. But in the end? Dad dumped me and Mom in the pool instead of helping us but Dad hurt Mom." Renata still held back her tears from spilling into her cheeks.

"I'm sorry, son.." said Candra in a choked voice.

"Dad knows how shocked I saw......"

Renata could not hold back her tears anymore. Tears were spilled on Renata's cheeks.

"I work day and night, Dad. I followed all of Mom's wishes without me rejecting them. And I didn't know that Mom had multiple personality disease. Do you know how horrible it is to hurt yourself?"

Candra started shedding tears. He could not interrupt his son's words. He could only listen with regret.

"It turns out, I don't work to make ends meet like you say. But you know what? It was all to avoid her from me because if Mom's illness recurred, Mom could hurt me." Renata looked at Candra who was plagued by deep regret.

"I'm powerless, Dad. I was so scared to see Mom die in such circumstances. I should how? Even sleeping I can't because I remember Mom's body turning blue and full of blood in her hand." Renata could not control her tone anymore. Renata dissolved in her emotions reveals it all to Candra,

Candra started to look at Renata. With his handcuffed hands he grabbed Renata's hand. He tried to beg his son for forgiveness.

"If you didn't mean to kill someone, why did you torture him? Until you had a deep traumatic experience?" renata asked but Candra could not answer him. He just kept regretting everything. His temperament had been bringing disaster in his life.

"Dad, Mom once told me to always try to forgive Dad. But I could never. And when Mom managed to persuade me, that's when the next day Mom died." continued Renata vented the contents of the heart that he had always been pendam.

"Renata, I promise to make amends for all your mistakes here, son.."

Renata showed her the necklace she was wearing to her father. Kinanti's necklace, which she now wears around her neck.

"I love Mom and Dad very much. I think this is the only thing we have when we still have good memories."

Candra cried so much that she saw the necklace of K's initials shown by Renata. He remembers once giving the necklace to Kinanti after Kinanti and himself having Renata for a year. That's when they were so grateful to have Renata in their lives.

They were silent for a moment and there was no chatter. It was obvious that he was truly sorry for his actions.

"Easy, Dad. I'll go home. My journey is still a long way to succeed. I just want to change my life for the better" Renata said. Candra wiped her tears and grabbed Renata's hand.

"I'm sorry Dad again, son. Whatever happens, you can take the inheritance I have from your grandmother. Single-minded dad. You don't have to work anywhere, son. Enough work in place of Dad. I promise you, I'll live quietly here. I'm not gonna interfere with your success, son. I'll live quietly here" Candra asked Renata.

Renata cried so much that she looked into Candra's eyes so begging her. Renata is powerless to hold back her tears and shakes up Candra, who may be for the last time.

Candra desperately wanted to hug Renata with all her heart. Her heart was now big, mature and beautiful. Candra is convinced that Renata can take the throne to inherit everything he cannot inherit. It is the plan that will replace Candra in the Seijin Group.

After the meeting with Candra was so sad, Mahendra who was waiting for Renata in front of the door grabbed Renata's shoulder and led Renata. Candra who was waiting for Renata to go see Mahendra who was warm to Renata made her heart calm a little.

The past let it pass. For Candra at this time is how Renata achieved his success and he can be with the people he loves. Candra could only smile seeing Renata's back getting longer and more disappeared from behind the door.

On the way home, Renata said nothing. His eyes look red and red. He was sleepy and just wanted to fall asleep. Mahendra clasped his hand and let Renata rest in peace during the return trip from the washroom.

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Candra's back in her cell. He sat quietly thinking about Renata's words. He feels sorry for Renata for her poor life since he left his family.

Days change and evenings are welcomed by the morning sun. Candra was still pensive with what Renata said. All the contents of his heart just came out of Renata made Candra's heart claustrophobic to see the jewel of his heart so hurt because of him.

Candra blames herself. If only he had not done that to Kinanti, nothing would have happened to Renata.

Sometimes, Candra cries remembering Renata who is so bitter to let out her sadness. I don't know what Candra should do. He tried to read books to calm his heart and mind.

But Renata's words were always in his mind. It is not good to eat or sleep. Candra's mind became empty especially when Renata cried bitterly before her.

I don't know what Candra's gonna do. He only hoped that Renata could replace his position in the Seijin Group and whatever happened all the inheritance on his behalf would be transferred to Renata. He did not want to see tears coming out of Renata's eyes anymore. He did not want his daughter to be sad because of him. Let him take the sin of what he did first.