Mothers

137 What Can I Promise?

"You can still have children with your new husband, Rei. Do you understand why I'm like this?"

"I'm sure you'll get another man who will accept you. You are still young, even younger than me. You are beautiful and have a good career. And me?"

"Many widows can remarry and live happily with their new husbands. Help me Rei, only you can help me and know about my shortcomings."

"If only I could have children, I wouldn't be this sweet. Please don't tell anyone this."

"I won't tell this to anyone."

How could Rei spread the disgrace and shortcomings of a woman? She's a girl too.

Not being able to have children is the most worrying thing in a marriage other than infidelity. Not being able to have children can cause people to cheat and even divorce. How many couples can accept a partner who is declared barren?

There is, but definitely not much and the person is really sincere.

But does Frans' grandfather and Marva's parents really not know?

"You're sure Marva's parents and Frans' grandfather didn't know about this?"

"Yes, I'm sure. I checked myself out abroad. That's why I haven't had a child yet. But once the news about you spreads, maybe people will sneer at me. They will wonder why until now has not been pregnant as well, while Marva is clearly not barren."

This is what is really referred to as the price that must be paid dearly to achieve what is desired.

Rei willingly had to ruin his good name in order to get recognition as the twins' biological mother, but does he have to be happy behind the sadness of other women?

"Now do you understand why I look so selfish and annoying?"

Rei's a headache.

A promise?

Can he promise?

Rei thought, really thought.

"Sorry, but I can't promise anything. It's not because of me that I took Marva and came back to her. But because I don't want to precede God's destiny. Can man not only plan, but God also determines? Like old times. I used to plan to be an architect, but I took another step. I never planned on getting married young, let alone having children at such a young age. I can even marry a man I don't love at all. Let alone love, know first not. From there I learned that it was fate for me."

"Do you love Marva?"

Rei hush.

He never thought about men. The presence of Marva during this time was not too he responded because he was too focused on the children who Marva always invited.

He was also only close to the doctor Agam outside the men only always close with his friends.

"I hope you don't misunderstand me anymore. I won't know what's going on either. I also do not want to be burdened with the promise you ask. You just talk about this with Marva."

"If Marva and her family find out, she'll have more reason to ask us apart. Help me, Rei. You're all I can hope for. Help me!"

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Happy Eid al-Adha.