Mothers

145 Why Me, Not Him.

The two eyes stared at each other.

"Let's get married again. I will marry you legally, both religiously and legally."

Deg

Rei looked at Marva.

It was just right that Vio was frightened. He asked me to marry without further ado.

"Married is not like you take a picnic. There's a lot to think about. Inner birth readiness, knowing each other, understanding and supporting each other, accepting each other's shortcomings and advantages."

"We were also married once, without being given a chance to understand each other."

"Past and present are different."

"Of course it's different. We didn't have children, now."

"I'm sorry, I can't marry you."

"Don't rush Rei's decision. Can't you think about it with a calm heart and a clear mind?"

"You shouldn't have just left. Why don't you wait for me to come home? Didn't I at the hospital tell you there was something I wanted to say? I haven't said anything but you've just left, left me and our children."

"But why don't you wait for me to come home and listen to what I say?"

Rei was silent, recalling the times that made his heart slice should choose that path.

"At that time, I wanted to propose to you. It makes you a real wife. We will raise our children together, give them the greatest love."

Rei looked into Marva's eyes, seeing solemnity in the handsome man's eyes.

"Let's get back together, we raise Radhi and Raine together."

"I .. can't. We can still give love to them even if we are not together."

"Don't be selfish, Rei. Don't you feel sorry for them?"

Rei stared hard at Marva.

"If I'm selfish, I'll run away with them both. But I'm self-aware that I haven't been able to give them happiness. Let alone taking care of two babies who have a lot of needs, taking care of my grandmother I just failed. They need milk, diapers, clothes, and so on. I want to be selfish, but I can't take them in suffering. Or could I bring one of them, then ... then when they grow up and meet, one would ask, 'Why am I not the one you brought? Does your mother not love me? Why is he the only one you brought? Why isn't she the only one staying?' Then the other one will also ask, 'Why am I the one you brought? I want to live well like him too. Why did you bring me in suffering? Do you not love me and love her more? Why did you separate me from Dad?' Then what do I answer?"

Marva.

"If I am selfish and do not think about them, I have brought them in from the beginning, regardless of whether they can live properly or not. I prefer to be considered a cruel mother who leaves her children, as long as they can get the best. I don't care about that contract. I could have escaped with everything you gave me to ensure my survival. Do you think I've been eating well for a few years and sleeping well? But God was very kind to this selfish mother. God reunited Freya and me in the midst of the difficulties I faced. Without asking too many questions, he always helped me. Those who always encourage me when I'm down."