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With her hands still trembling, Hanna grabbed the book that had been lying on that floor. He took a deep breath. He raised his head up and rubbed back the tears flowing on both sides of his cheeks.
Hanna dropped her body on the chair. In silence, she opened the first page of the book containing her husband's handwriting.
Just in the first sheet, the tears have fallen back. How not, the name Kanaya Indira Adiwinata engraved beautifully with gold ink.
Hanna was silent for a moment. It was as if he was gathering the courage to open the next sheet, which would most likely incise a much deeper wound.
***
Hi Mother ...
How are you doing? I miss you so much. Is Mom like that too?
Mother ...
Can I tell you something?
Today I met a foreign girl by accident.
This is very strange, Madam ... I never felt attracted to any girl. But with him it's very different.
I feel like she's beautiful like Mom. His smile was also soft and warm. I like to see his face when he smiles.
I don't know, I don't understand what this is .. But he managed to hypnotize me on the first day of meeting.
Oh, yes Mom. I managed to force him to give her number and we will definitely be friends soon.
He said his name ... Kanagawa ...
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Hi Mother ...
Congratulations to me!
I can finally get close to him. He'll work at my cafe. I can see it often.
Isn't that luck?
Do you know, it turns out she's a very amazing girl.
His spirit lit up like the sun. He always smiled even though he was tired.
***
Mother ...
Pray for me yes.
Today I will express my feelings. I was going to keep it to myself. I feel unworthy of him.
But ... Rafli was right, how could I know his feelings if I didn't reveal them.
That's why today I'm going to meet him and tell him what I feel.
You should pray for me, yes ...
***
Mother ...
Should I be sad?
Very heartbroken.
The girl turned out to be married and the worst surprise was, she was actually married to my own brother.
Brother Zian ... How can I like a married woman. I really don't know.
I'm so stupid.
It turns out that this sick person accepts the fact that the loved one belongs to the person.
I have to how, Mom ...
I hate this situation. When the whole heart adores. But circumstances demand to forget.
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Dear Kanaya ...
Do you know ...
I'm here to see you alone.
Today ... After the struggle of life that is not easy, you finally find your happiness.
I'm happy for you.
You're like a princess in that white dress.
I know you're very happy and I can feel it from here.
Although my heart is now filled with pain, but at least, I'm glad you finally found your happiness.
Thank you for ever coming and filling my heart.
I will never stop praying, may you always be happy ...
Naya, I love you!
***
Two hours Hanna spent reading the notebook that kept the secret. Sobs filled the room. Hanna opened the last sheet and found a photo of her sister-in-law there.
"Sir Naya ..."
She remembers first asking about her husband's first love for Elma. However, his brother-in-law refused to answer.
And a while ago, Hanna also asked her husband. However, Evan turned the conversation in the other direction with a wave.
"Why are they covering this up from me?"
Chequek!
Hanna hurriedly wiped her tears when she heard the sound of the door opening and she hid her husband's notebook under the pillow.
Evan appeared from behind the door with a big smile. With hands hidden behind the back.
"Hi darling. Sorry, I just came."
Suddenly the smile dimmed when he saw his wife's paled face. Looking at Hanna's flushed nose and the wet-looking tip of her eye, she believes her wife is crying.
"What's wrong? You're crying?"
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