MAXIMUM BUCIN

CHAPTER 42

Why is the world always unfair to me? and why does all this have to happen?

Forgive me Lord, if I become a servant who is not grateful for Your favor, but I am no longer strong, I am not at all expected by all of them in this world, he said, especially my parents who do not love me at all who prefer the treasure compared to my son.

Moreover, this is God I am confused by my situation now, I really love him but why he just betrayed me and married someone else even without my knowledge, He married this man I absolutely hate God for I feel like I'm giving up right now.

For a moment I lost that bad thought and then I tried to be optimistic again and hope that God and the world will side with me God forgive me I became Your ungrateful servant but what is wrong if I complain right now because the times and circumstances are always contrary to my wishes.

With great difficulty I tried to love Rendi, but she left me and was secretly engaged to someone else, and soon they would be married. But until this moment Rendy never clarified anything to me, which even though I am still her boyfriend if she really does not love me. Why does he keep me up until this second I don't know what Rendy means by all this.

I was crying so I was screaming hysterically with the hard reality I accepted why all this had to happen to me God take my life if no one else cared about me and wanted me to live in this world I don't even have anyone else I can't believe I don't have a mother like everyone else who's always there when a child in need even my parents would prefer their possessions over me her child.

Then I remembered that Andi really I still had a taste for him, but I realized that Anji might still want me, but I still want to, clearly there was Reina who had always been by her side to strengthen her when she was in trouble then what appropriate a woman like me to want her back who I am And what right I have to be with her back.

I went back hysterically and disfigured my room and I threw away all the gifts from Rendi throwing her here and there making my room so messy.

I still can't believe what I'm receiving today and how I'm going to live Rendy's tomorrow and without Andi Andi deserve to be happy with Reina, Reina is indeed a woman who deserves her even in comparison, I am much worse than Laila. I am a woman who is not next to my beloved, when my beloved needs me. Then when he was now happy and healed of his illness, I asked him to come back. Oh my God I'm still self-conscious about that.