MAXIMUM BUCIN

CHAPTER 16

ANDI PROV

Really I'm not strong enough to pretend to be ignorant and not care about Dira, because of the fact that at this time I really love him.

A week I have not mengubris sayings from Dira, even I deliberately mengesraan with Reina.

Slowly I started to get away from Dira, and I tried to release Dira. Although my heart really hurts to accept this fact.

I want Dira to break our relationship, so that the effect is not me who hurt Dira.

Maybe this seems very selfish, but it will be more selfish if I maintain myself to stay with him, which is even though my current condition is very inappropriate if I maintain him.

I held tightness in my chest, imagining the pain that Dira would feel, but I really hope that Dira will forgive me later.

I was so sad that if I had to break my promise with Dira, I promised to stay with Dira no matter what circumstances I would face.

But after I experienced an event beyond my will, I realized that nothing should be forced to see my helplessness because of this damn illness.

Again I cursed in my heart, because until now I was still very surprised by this fact.

*Flashback on*

When I was in the cube, my head felt very dizzy and my surroundings were like spinning.

Slowly it was dark and I didn't know what was going on with me.

When I opened my eyes, I was already in the room that I thought was the nursery. And it turned out that my guess was correct, I turned to the side and saw Reina sitting on the chair beside my bed.

"Reina's? you brought me here?" I said asking Reina who was currently standing beside the bed where I was lying.

" Yes, sister, I just saw my brother passed out on the park bench, I panicked and brought my sister here" Reina said nervously.

"Thank you Reina" I said as I held my head which still felt very dizzy.

Shortly after, the doctor approached us.

I was still very weak and difficult to move, so Reina helped me to sit down.

Then the doctor explained about the disease I was suffering from.

I was so surprised, with the explanation of the doctor who said that I was diagnosed with acute Leukaemia.

As if struck by lightning I heard that fact, I cried as if I did not accept the destiny that God had given me, wanting me to feel like rejecting this reality. And I really hate the circumstances that have never been on my side.

I thought earlier that this was just a symptom of leukemia, but it turned out that the doctor had already diagnosed it and the result was positive.

My tears are flowing more and more without my being able to bear it any longer, let people say that I am a weak man. I don't care at all, because to me they just talk, because they're not in my position.

"Reina, I'm just dreaming, right? I'm not sick, Rei, I'm okay, am I?" I said while holding Reina's arm.

"Patience, brother, I'm sure you can get through this. You are a strong man, optimistically your legs will definitely heal" Reina said stroking my shoulders and encouraging me.

I cried again and lamented the circumstances that would never be on my side. Oh god why should I? why is this what I'm going through, God I really don't want to leave him. I'm sure you'll drob without me.

"I'll call Dira yes sis, in order for her to come here and accompany you here, big brother must need her very much now" rich Reina smiled at me warmly.

"No, don't call him, and don't ever tell him if I'm sick, I won't be able to see him grieve. I beg her for a secret" I said half-begging Reina, who looked at me with a sad look.

"But brother, he must know the condition of brother at this time brother. I know he is your passion to rise from this downturn" Reina said.

"I say don't tell him that, understand, let me feel this pain alone, I don't want him to feel this pain I don't want to be so pessimistic about my illness, I don't want my illness to make me weak, do you understand" I said a little snapping at the annoying Reina I thought this time.

He was silent and then nodded his head in approval of my wish.

then he stroked my shoulder and smiled "Soak spirit, you must be healed, there I am here who will always accompany you" Reina said.

I just smiled in response.

Then I immediately found out information about my illness on google.

Acute leukaemia is a type of blood cancer that results in the spinal cord being unable to produce a group of white blood that plays a role in fighting infection and preventing damage to body tissues and its development is so rapid and the disease is very serious it was difficult to cure, and the possibility of it was very small.

I was very worried and started to get nervous after knowing how the disease I was suffering from, I took a heavy breath and exhaled it.

I thought to Dira, what if she knew her boyfriend was sick and had the final stage.

"Flashback off*

I was so sure Dira would be shocked to find out, that I tried to hide her, and I started to move away and I tried to make her comfortable with others. So that when I leave later, he doesn't feel any more pain.

I know now that Dira is close to Rendi, I know Rendy likes Dira. So I kept Dira close to Herman. Besides, I'm not very long old.

Many times Reina remembers me, Reina wanted to hit Dira who was both with Rendi.

But I held him back and I said that I was okay.

"Why do you keep quiet, sister, seeing your lover close to another man, he should be here with you, accompanying you not to be pleased with other men" Reina said with a sniff.

"Let it be, I want him to slowly forget about me, so when I leave later he won't hurt Rei too much" said forcing my smile.

"You're gonna get well, trust me" Reina said

I just kept quiet and smiled. I hope there is a miracle from God.

I looked at his face on my phone screen, I smiled at him. I really miss you dira.