MAXIMUM BUCIN

CHAPTER 13

I ran towards the lake that Didi and I used to visit. Then with all my might I shouted and let out all the resentment in my heart.

The tightness rippled in my chest, wanting to feel like I was dead, when I recalled how they hugged and made out in front of my eyes.

Why do you always make my heart so bad for why you're such a bitch.

I grumbled in my heart. I looked at Didi and the woman. And the gaze of both of them hinted at something.I don't understand it all what they mean like this to me.

I just cried and cried alone, until it was enough and tired, I went back to my apartment and rested. Because I have to prepare tomorrow if I have to go back to seeing visions that will be so painful for me.

Until the intention arises in my heart to skip college, or can be repeated on study leave only. Even though it would definitely be a stupidity that I did.

Until I finally abandoned my intention to skip college.

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I arrived at the college, and started the lecture that day, and the three of us went to the cafeteria and started ordering food. Then I saw two lovebirds making out at the end table which was a little far from where I was.

I don't know why these tears easily come out, without being able to prevent me anymore. I slowly wiped the clear water with a tissue, and then tried to toughen up.

I just kept quiet as if I didn't know. And at that time I Rere and Riri were enjoying our food. Then I heard a call from behind, I turned my head and found Rendi smiling at me.

"Don't smile like that, brother, you're making my heart melt" Rere said with a grin.

"Getting started, single people love to talk" I smiled at my ignorant smile.

"gue here to take Dira out for a night out, you want to stay away?" brother Rendy looked at me, reflexively I was surprised because Rendy suddenly invited me out. But after looking around and my eyes fixed on Andy and his new girlfriend it was possible.

Spontaneously, I replied, "Of course, I'll wait for my sister, see you later tonight" I said with my sweet smile.

My heart thumped at Rendy's feet, why was he staring at me like that.

so deep that I realized " Hey, I know I'm pretty. But don't look at me like that, I'm not a sight" I said curtly as I looked at rendy's brother with a look of angah.

Brother Rendy immediately pinched both of my cheeks with anxiety "Thankfully you are beautiful, if I have not cleft the mouth of my expensive shoes" said brother Rendy while grunting annoyed then passed leaving us who are still faithful sitting on the canteen.

I looked back at Andi and the woman. They were still making out and incessantly flirting with affection in front of me. I couldn't bear to see it all, I was trying to hold back my emotions but for some reason this time I couldn't help it anymore, I had to finish this drama.

Now no longer, I approached them and even I sat beside them with a flat expression and pretended to be plain.

"Hay, can I join you?" I said with a flat expression. My heart really wants to shake and explode right now.

I was very angry with Andi, even until now he did not clarify about this woman and even Andi still met this woman until now.

" Andi, I want to talk to you? what can? " i said meekly and I did do it on purpose when this felt like I gave more or less a bogem on his face.

Andi looked at me, her eyes sad. But I was still emotional for him, there was no more compassion in me when my peace of heart was disturbed like this.

"I'm here to return this" I said, returning the ring Andy gave me on my birthday yesterday.

Andi scrunched his forehead a sign of not understanding what I meant, but I did not care at all.

"I want us to end our relationship, I'm sorry, I'm not strong enough to see you always with other women, I'm sorry and hopefully always happy for both of you" I said with teary eyes and of course tears had washed my cheeks.

Then I ran from there and came near a tree. I sat down and leaned back there, lamenting my sorrow, why do I always have to be hurt. And again I have to give up for the sake of that woman!

Rendi just looked at me from a distance. I know he doesn't want to disturb my comfort.

Then he gestured me from afar by flexing his arm muscles, with the intention of giving me some encouragement. I smiled and she returned my smile.

I just realized that your smile is so sweet, sis, I murmured in my heart.

But I immediately patted my eel a little hard, in order to realize what I said just now.

At a crucial time like this, can usually think of the good looks of others. Basic me!

"Dira, Focus dong. Don't be dazed gini" said myself giving spirit to myself.

After it feels like this heart is back a little calm, although of course I still feel pain considering the events of the cantina earlier, but there is no point in crying over people who may be currently happy with their new lover.

I went out of the garden, and tried to force a smile from these lips, though I really knew how strong it was to smile after what I felt at this moment.

I walk down the side of the road, I don't know where this guy is going I don't understand.

I kept being overshadowed by the presence of Andy who had always been by my side, how he treated me gently, how he continued to harm me, how he became a fortress when I was in danger.

"Mothers... I miss you" I said half-screaming, not caring about the people around me.

Right now I just need mom, I want to cry in my arms, I just want to lean on her shoulders, and let go of the burden I've been holding. Your son misses you, mother... Hix... Hix...

I couldn't hold back my tears until I just kept roaring, until I lost control, until Rendy's sister found me and took me home to the apartment.

I remained silent as rendy continued to gently stroke my head, and I fell asleep.