Materialistic

31-Wind to End It All

"Rather than having to hang on with him who is very far from expectations, and unreliable. It is better to have the tirade of Mamah and Papah which may be just for a moment."

the Adara Mikhayla Siregar

•••

Too fed up with the endless problems of life makes my mind shallow. I can't stand it if my life is always stressful. There is no more time to rest and enjoy the flow of life that God has determined, everything feels bland and sickening. I feel very stuck in place and circling indistinctly in the same problem. Like a tangled thread that is difficult to decipher. That is the problem of my life that until now did not find a bright spot.

"Get off my hand Lukman!" I said so firmly.

"You've gone too far. Involve me in your domestic conflicts. Do you realize what you just said? You're changing, not like Adara I know." He said with a tone of voice full of decisiveness.

"Gue wouldn't be this close if you wanted to follow me. And this is the consequence of your actions!" hisisku sharp.

"But not--"

"Let's not interfere with my life anymore. From this moment on I will not see you again. Just get here, and thank you for all the material you've come out of for me."

Sweet is thrown away. I don't care how people respond to my bar's inhumane behavior. I don't want my relationship and Lukman to be broken just because of Arda, but what do you say is that this has already happened. Arda has ruined my life. I really don't like him. He must feel more pain than I do. Yeah, I'm gonna make him suffer all the time.

"Everything we can talk about is fine, Adara," he said with a very careful netra to me.

I shook my head hard. "Lo said I don't want to be involved in my problems anymore. Indirectly you want to end it all," I said fiercely. I am very upset at Lukman who is now not one way and one thought with me. The change is so disgusting.

"You misunderstood, Adara." He's still trying to get back to taking my sympathies, but I'm not interested at all.

"Go back there!" In his rude and disrespectful manner I drove him away. Lukman and I were both overwhelmed with emotions and high egos, and telling him to leave was the best option so that I wouldn't further silence all of these issues.

He said, I saw both legs walking towards the car and before long the sound of the engine was heard. The fence of the house is still wide open as if allowing the iron wheeled vehicle to go.

I just landed my ass on the couch and Arda came out from behind the room. He was tidy and it looked like he was going to be preparing to leave for work. He's been really crazy, in the midst of complicated problems between me and himself still had time - all he thought about work.

"I'm leaving. Take good care of yourself, assalamualaikum," he said in a low tone of voice. Where did Arda go that showed the neck veins to almost give Lukman a raw bogeman? He was like a person with a double personality. I don't understand his way of thinking.

"Wa'alaikumussalam's chat. Go there, if you have to, don't go back." I said with a high voice.

Arda nodded briefly and gave a slight smile of his. What a strange and confusing human being. Facing Arda that is so mysterious makes my brain work slow down, maybe even ngadat.

The house that has a size not how quiet is very quiet, there is only the sound of clockwork seconds that run tirelessly in the slightest. The time had already shown at ten o'clock in the night and I was still sitting on the sofa. There was no intention to move into the room. Just leave it like this. I just live alone here.

•••

Early in the morning I woke up, rushed to clean up then moved quickly to perform the two rakaat prayer. It did not take long, only about five minutes I was done with my express prayer activities. If Mamah finds out, I will definitely get her scolding all out.

"It is true prayer. Salad kok rich people scruffy, very spiffy. Are you confused if you really read the prayer? If you want to live really, really first pray!"

The series of words that he always threw when he accidentally caught me praying impatiently. I was surprised by Mamah who if prayers can be up to half an hour. Justwhy? Are there no body seals? I'll if the prayer is finished quickly. My prayer reading was no less fast, even tend to rusuh rich people want a demo. It's not clear that's it.

The hunger makes me want to walk into the kitchen. Early this morning my stomach was asking for rations, and I was very lazy to cook the food. I snorted in annoyance when I found the contents of the empty refrigerator leaping. Ish, the ingredients that about three weeks ago Mamah bought were already exhausted. Where the money that Arda gave was the powder. Continued the unlimited gold card owned by Lukman I have returned. It was very unfortunate my fate this morning.

With my helpless footsteps back in the room, it seemed like sleeping after dawn could slightly disguise my hunger. It's so embarrassing. Adara Mikhayla Siregar lived a hard life until starvation. The world is so cruel. I never thought about what it was like to be difficult, and always be overflowing with facilities that are so priceless. Now then? To eat money is not there. Argh, this is all because of Arda. Just look if he gets home from work, I'm gonna go all out on him. If I need to disappear at that time. I am no longer strong with him.

Anyway, I need to get away from him immediately. Bodo very with a grace period that only remains about three weeks. I don't give a shit at all. And for my parents, let them know the truth. I was tired of playing as if everything was okay. Even if they were angry and blasphemed me as a child. It's okay, I'll take it. Rather than having to hang on with him who was very far from expectations, and unreliable. It is better to have the tirade of Mamah and Papah which may be just for a moment.

~TBC~