Marriage Dilemma

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I was stunned to hear the heart-cooling sentence that was thrown from Devan's lips which is now legally my husband. I felt very guilty to her, for not being able to love her even though I had legitimately become his wife. I'm sorry Devan, but my heart doesn't want me to force me to take back a man to enter. Let time show its own way.

Devan and I agreed to visit the Angga bang in the hospital tomorrow morning. There was no special night like the newlyweds, Devan and I fell asleep fast after a long day as queen and king. Plus my position is still in a state of puerperium, it is very unlikely Devan will do anything to me.

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Supplies have been prepared, especially have baby Dara which everything must be complete. Mama suggests to invite bi Jum, so that someone helps carry baby Dara while there later.

"Well, do we want to do something?"

"Why bi?"

"Yes if you prescribe aunty bring clothes or non, yes aunty wear this shirt continues."

"Do not bring anything bi, if the situation later we have to nginep, about clothes can be purchased. The important thing is to have a baby Dara," I replied.

After we felt everything was ready, we started our journey to Jakarta.

Rama looks eager to meet his father. I told my eldest son that his father was hospitalized in an accident.

I could see a tinge of sadness on Rama's face. After all, Angga, I never asked Rama to stay away from him anything else to hate him. Moreover, Rama has felt repeatedly the embrace and affection of a Father, albeit a little. Unlike baby Dara, even when first born into this world, baby Dara does not feel a sling or small affection from her father.

I know which hospital Bang Angga was in, just giving Devan a walk.

Long story short, our car began to enter the Permata Hijau hospital lobby. Until arriving at the parking lot that is still empty, Devan managed to park his car there.

We started walking down every aisle of the hospital, until we arrived at room 305 where my ex-husband was being treated.

Linda who already knew my arrival welcomed my presence warmly. Even though I know his heart is not okay.

"Mr Dira.." Linda hugged me tightly while crying.

I returned his embrace and gently rubbed his back."The patient Lin."

His heart must be very hard hit, the trials so tangled up to his family. Starting from a broken marriage, her child became pregnant out of wedlock, her eldest brother in prison, and now her other brother had to lie unconscious in a hospital gurney.

"Bang Angga Mbak." he said weakly stammered.

I nodded while wiping away the tears that flooded Linda's cheeks even to the point of hitting her clothes.

"Tell me Ma'am, bang Angga why?"

The Flashback

It has been almost a week bang Angga has not worked by comforting himself of his own accord. To the next day, bang Angga got a letter of reprimand from his boss who was delivered by Heri, a coworker of bang Angga.

"Lo why the hell Ngga, Mr. Herman nanyain why you do not go to work a week," Heri came to the house of the Angga bang to submit a letter of reprimand from Mr. Herman, their boss.

"Again the work, there is no spirit."

"On Nadira?" Bang Angga was silent, but it was certain that Heri's question was correct.

"Lo want to see when I think I keep bro, move on !! Indirectly your separation is because of your own will."

"Here you go, it's hard to explain. I can only hope that with regret I can refer again. But Nadira seemed to have completely forgotten me. Next week he's married, Her," the face of bang Angga is so lethargic it tells a truth he doesn't want to hear at all.

"His own mother asked him to marry a man of her choice. I lost Her, I lost.."

Bang Angga's tears escaped past his cheeks.

His heart was sure to be very sick of losing someone special in his life. Moreover, he would really have to let his ex-wife marry someone else, very painful is not it?

But for me, it's nothing and nothing compared to what I've been through for 5 years a life full of wounds while with him.

Me and Rama, I suffer much more if I can tell you everything from the beginning without anything being missed.

My heart wasn't strong enough to have to open the bandage of an old wound that clearly still wasn't fully healed.

"Gue is sorry, but don't overdo it. Mr. Herman really needs you Ngga, yes you know, only you can he andelin besides me."

Bang Angga seemed to nod, "Tomorrow I work."

"Siplah, do not cry if you want to be my friend."

The next day, bang Angga really proved his words to return to work as usual.

At the location, precisely on the second floor, the Bang Angga walk took some necessary motor tools. But it was a pity, he walked with his unfocused mind. Unintentionally bang Angga stepped on the oil that spilled right in front of the stairs of the 2nd floor. Bang Angga slipped, he fell from the second floor stairs to make his head hit here and there and caused a concussion.

Quickly, Heri and other friends help bang Angga and escape him to the hospital.

Flashback Off

I also cried to hear Linda's full story about the chronology of the accident that happened to my ex-husband.

"Where's Lin's mother?"

"Mom, go find some more food."

Linda invited me inside to see how the condition of the Angga bang is currently.

It is sad to see Anga lying unconscious in a hospital gurney. The memories with him suddenly twisted in my head.

I shed tears, Devan who understands my condition, hugging me gives me comfort to vent sadness.

The crying drama was over, Linda who was curious about the man who came with me just kept looking at her.

"He's...

"He's Devan, Lin, Ma'am's husband!"

"Are you married again? When?"

"Just the day you called Ma'am, Lin, we were on a marriage contract."

'Samami Mbak Dira looks good, understanding, seems loving. If only I had it, I might be the lucky one'

TBC.