Marriage Dilemma

Pregnant again

Those of you who don't know my name yet, introduce me to Nadira. 24-year-old woman with status as wife and mother of one child.

I got married five years ago, and I am grateful that we were immediately given the trust to have a baby without waiting for a long time.

Our marriage was not sanctioned by my parents and my husband's parents. For five years I always tried to take my mother-in-law's heart so that she liked me and appreciated me more as her daughter-in-law.

The more I tried to be patient with her treatment, the more I was treated arbitrarily by her. Moreover, my husband is a submissive person, he is principled that Mother must always be obeyed including every word she has to obey.

I'm not saying it's wrong, it's just that there's a difference that we should know when we're alone and have a family. But unfortunately my husband could not distinguish that. He is still he who will not change to his mother even though he already has a wife who he should prioritize first.

And why didn't my own parents approve of us? The answer is because my husband and I had a different belief. That's the first, and the second, honestly I come from a family that is quite capable, has some business that I actually have to manage. But I chose to be independent and wanted to stand on my own feet without any help from the family. It turned out that my perception made my parents angry, and now I'm completely banished to the point of being a stranger to them.

Until I finally met Bang Angga. He invited me to marry and I agreed on the condition that he asked me to convert, as a Muslim. I don't care for that, I don't even care about the blessing of the parents that is really very important we get.

****

For some reason, I feel lately always easily tired even frequent headaches.

The peak this morning, when I want to bathe my son, Rama.

Like a lot of stars running around over my head. Even to walk into the bathroom I crept up like a lizard that was always attached to the wall.

"Mother, mother why?" Rama asked who might be astonished to see me continuously massaging my head.

"Sir papa, mother is just a little dizzy," I replied and then returned to watering the soap that had smeared Rama's body.

After my son's business was done, I tried to sit down for a while to rest. My eyes shifted to a calendar not far from where I was sitting.

Just sober I approached him and began to feel every figure that lined up neatly.

I remember something that should happen every month. And it turns...

"Am I pregnant?" I said softly with eyes still staring at the calendar."Last month I, and this month...." I paused my sentence for a moment and went back to remembering to ascertain if I was really pregnant at this moment.

After feeling sure and sure, I immediately went to sanity with 3 thousand left of my shopping this morning.

"What would Nadira buy?" Tanya Bu Marni, the owner of the stall who happened to be sweeping the porch of the stall.

I pulled Marni's hand slightly over and whispered, "Dira asked for help mom, Dira needs a testpek, but only hold 3 thousand dollars. What can?"

"Are you pregnant?"

"Stttttttt, don't date ma'am. Dira also can not mastiin pregnant, so that Dira need a test now,"

"Wait a minute!" Miss Marni went into her stall and was seen picking up something I needed. Seeing that, I breathed a sigh of relief.

"Here, take!" Miss Marni thrust the device at me.

"Thank you so much mom, here's the money."

Ms. Marni's hand immediately grabbed my hand, "Save it, it's I love you" she said.

"Really ma'am?" I smiled again after Miss Marni nodded. Because the rest of my shopping is still intact and I can still use to add to my shopping tomorrow morning.

"But Dira asked me not to tell anyone, including Dira's mother-in-law,"

"Why is Ra? Not good if he knows, maybe he'll get another grandchild."

"Just don't be ma'am, I'm not sure if Dira's pregnant yet."

Ms. Marni nodded, "Yes, I'll keep a secret."

I smile and say a lot of thanks to Miss Marni who has given me a pregnancy test kit for free.

Once I got home, I immediately used the tool with a feeling of anxiety. Between ready and not. After waiting for about a minute, the results stated that it is true that I am currently pregnant with the 2nd child.

Either have to express how after knowing my current pregnancy.

Is bang Angga going to be mad because I'm pregnant again?

****

My heart is a little restless waiting for the return of the Angga bang. Somehow I could tell her about my pregnancy. Moreover, my super-crewet father-in-law, it is certain that he will berate the child and his daughter-in-law.

The sound of the motorcycle bang Angga I saw began to enter the courtyard of the house.

As usual, I experienced it when my husband left or came home from work.

"Where's Ra?"

What kind of husband is she? Not the same child his wife asked, this is even his mother.

"Again the shower" I replied lazily.

"Eh bang, sit back," I pulled the hand of bang Angga to follow me sitting in the living room chair. Without refuting, bang Angga according to me, he sat next to me and looked at me as if asking what was wrong.

I took out a small tool from my pocket and gave it to him.

"You pregnant, Ra ?"

"What's? Pregnant?" Apparently the sound of a surprised bang Angga was heard by his mother who had just finished bathing. His gaze as if he wanted to prey on, in the next second, the mouth of his crew was sure to let out words that were not worth speaking.

"What the hell are you, Ra? A young child is pregnant again. Therefore KB dong, let's not concede kayak gini. Do you feel ashamed, what people say later, a young child is already pregnant again, does not pity Rama lack of affection, lack of attention?" cerocos is my mother-in-law.

"His birth control pills aren't taken?" Now replace the sounding bang Angga.

"Yes drunk bang, tapikan sometimes forget so bothered. If you are tired, you have forgotten everything" I replied.

"Here you are, alesan. At most you also want to add another child. I don't think Rama was a kid, it wasn't time he had a sister" added my in-laws.

It was furious to hear his scorn. If it wasn't my mother-in-law, I would definitely go. I still respect her as the mother of my husband, because it was only giving in and silence that I could do when I was berated by her.

Patience, patience!!

****

Brakes...

I slammed the door when I entered the house. My patience as if toyed with, I was getting unappreciated, even so despicable in her eyes.

"The door, don't be a target. Why are you so upset?" Tanya bang Angga approached me.

"Abang just ask everything the same Mother. What less am I as a son-in-law bang? Why with the heart Mother slandered me here and there spreading gossip," I shouted. I can no longer bear all the attitudes of Mother-in-law that insulted me.

"Why mother?"

"Mistaken if I'm pregnant? If I can choose a bang, I also do not want to get pregnant now, when my husband and mother-in-law never appreciate me one bit," continued me again with a sharp gaze bang Angga.

"Don't be confused, what's wrong, why?"

"Your mother was spreading rumors to people, saying she was ashamed of having another grandchild, while another grandchild was a child. Even your mother thought I was pregnant with another man, and swore I would die at birth" I said aloud, let my mother-in-law hear from behind her room. That was my goal, so that his son would know that his mother was very cunning.

TBC.