Marriage Dilemma

Regretting

After my mother-in-law's drama ended, opss is now a former in-law. I hurried to leave the house. I ordered two ojek for me and also Rama.

Bang Angga stared at our departure, a meaningful gaze even I myself did not understand that gaze. Repentance is said, but in fact it only lasts a moment. I don't know, only he and God know.

I went back to the contract I had with Bang Angga. Lucky the contract owner still wants to accept me.

"Mother, Rama is hungry!" The tiny lips are speaking.

"Come, let's go buy, Rama what do you want to eat?" My toot.

"Does my mother have any money?"

"Why did Rama ask that?"

"Rama doesn't want to bother you. If you don't have money, Rama wants to eat hehe noodles" he said, smiling to show his teeth.

I crouched down and held his tiny hand, "From now on, Rama no longer needs to be afraid of not being able to eat well. Tell the mother what Rama wants, God willing the mother can fulfill the wishes of Rama,"

"So mommy, means now we can eat chicken?!"

I'm nodding.

"Alhamdulillah, yey horeee Rama eat chicken. Let's go and buy, Rama can't wait anymore" he said, pulling my hand.

Rama's desire is so simple, being able to eat with chicken dishes or fish alone can make him happy.

Oh my...

It is undeniable that a mother is so very sad to see her child who cannot express many wishes because of the condition of her parents.

Rama understood me so much, understood how I was doing, that he always held back whatever he wanted.

Once I saw Rama staring at his peers eating snacks and Rama could only look at their envy by swallowing his own saliva.

Really sad, isn't it?

How a mother feels will be fine after seeing her child who wants something the same as her friends.

Rama and I bought rice in a stall not too far from the contract. In addition to eating on the spot, I also wrapped the rice for us to eat later in the afternoon.

***

While at Bang Angga's house, my former mother-in-law was giving some advice to her son.

"Just I don't want you to bring another woman who doesn't know herself to this house. If you need to get married again find a richer and hotter woman tuh your ex-wife, let her know the taste," said Mother.

Bang Angga did not care much for his mother's babble. His mind was filled with me and Rama.

"You're horrifying Angga's mother! Angga.." cried his mother made Bang Angga surprised.

"Why mom?"

"You hear what Mom just said?"

"Yes ma'am," replied bang Angga weakly.

"Good, and always remember your words!" He said again and left the Angga bang.

The shadow of my presence and Rama twisted in the mind of bang Angga and also his vision.

He smiled at the shadow.

"Re..!" The shadow just disappeared from his sight.

Goodbye Bang, enjoy your regrets and our shadows.

Again and again the tears bang Angga escaped without excuse. She cried after everything happened.

'Sorry Abang Ra, I am so sorry now. Sorry Dad, Rama, I can't be a good husband and father to you. Dear God, is there still a third chance I can return with my wife and son?' Bang Angga asked in his heart.

Suddenly his mind remembered something.

"Contract! Yes, surely Dira the contrast," muttered Bang Angga immediately moved and grabbed the key of his motorbike.

Angga's motorbike is parked in front of the contract that was once his residence with Nadira.

"Ra, Dira, open the door Ra!" Bang Angga banged on the door.

"Eh, Angga, find Dira huh?" The landlord's mother approached Angga.

"Last noon he came here with Rama, but already an hour ago Dira was leaving," replied the owner of the contract.

"Do you know where Dira went?"

"Mom don't know Angga, just try the phone!"

Bang Angga just remembered something, all this time he forbade me to play mobile phone. And in the end his phone was mine he sold. I know that too, but never mind what else brought it up.

And now when bang Angga lost track of me, he was confused to find us where.

'You where is Ra?' bathin Bang Angga asked.

His shabby face and disheveled appearance bang Angga trying to find my whereabouts as well as Rama.

***

Then where am I going? After the divorce with the Angga bang, I no longer have any purpose to live here. I decided to go back to where I was born.

With this I can only hope, my family including my parents will accept me and Rama as their grandchildren.

"We've got everything Nadira, what are you looking for by working somewhere else?"

"Dira wants to try alone without having to be helped by Ma. Please understand!"

"Dira wants to say that Dira will be married by Dira's own choice, sorry Dira Ma!" continued again.

"That guy named Angga?" Ask my mom and I nod.

"No!! My mother disagreed with Nadira. You better get married to Reno, he's a well-established, kind man, and most importantly a confidant with us,"

"But Dira does not love Reno Ma, Dira love Bang Angga!"

Plaque....

"Rescious Nadira! He's different from us, he's a regular guy Ra, and Mama's pretty sure, you'll never be happy living with him,"

"I don't care if it's Ma,"

"Bad you!"

Plaque...

"Don't expect Mama to bless you. From now on, you are not my son anymore! Never set foot in this house. Because my son Nadira is gone!"

Such were my mother's last words 5 years ago. Being married to a different Angga bang made my mother angry. I don't even want to see him as his son anymore.

Is my mom still the same? Hating me just like 5 years ago.

In prayer I can only hope that his heart will melt after the incident has passed for so long.

"Mother, does Rama have a grandmother again?"

"Dear, Rama has a grandmother again, mother mother," I replied with a smile stroking her hair.

I was surprised to see Rama suddenly crying.

"Rama why, baby? Why is Rama crying?"

"Rama will not be beaten again right mother same grandmother mother?"

"Did Rama often get beaten up by Grandma?" I was quite curious. Because what I know, Rama was often scolded when I left with my former mother-in-law.

Rama nodded while still.

My hands clenched furiously considering my cruel former mother-in-law.

Not only was his nature bad, but his treatment was also the same. I will never forbid anyone to give Rama a warning, but only when my son is guilty.

"I swear, your life will never be quiet!"

People say, the prayer of the terzdolimi man efficacious hehe.

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