Marriage Dilemma

Want to Divorce

Bang Angga looked weak when I asked for a divorce from him. If my second chance is still played, forgive me for my decision.

I was too tired to feel the same again, and did not want to repeat the same mistake.

This is my decision, and no one can stop this decision, including the Angga bang though.

"Ra, don't mess with that word. Don't miss being joking" said Bang Angga who seemed to dislike my words.

"Who's messing around, Dira's serious. Dira wants us to divorce! Dira can no longer afford to feel the things you always do. This is the final decision!" I say it absolutely and firmly.

I saw Bang Angga shed his tears. I know, that position is so wrong. On one side of his mother, and on the other side I, his wife. I never asked my husband to choose between us, because I realized that both were very important. If bang, if you could be fair and not distinguish between Mom, son and wife, I would never do this.

"Please Ra, don't stay brother!"

"You know when and how many more times you say that and during that time there is always someone you hide from Dira, Dira is tired, very tired!" my lament.

Undeniably indeed, I felt an incredible tiredness after facing them for so many years with my patience.

But not anymore, I decided to end it all here.

"Sep is better, Angga. You can't hold him back from staying here. Much better women are many, at least the ones who care for mom and are not stingy like your wife. Women don't know that they don't deserve you. You don't know it's lucky!" My mother-in-law left just like that after blurting spicy words at me.

Bang Angga seemed to ignore him, he was so emotional when I asked for a divorce from him.

"Ra, please! At least think Rama, how his fate will be,"

"Why with Rama? Of course my son will be fine Bang. And I think his fate would have been better away from his father. Because of the free bang, Rama was close to his Father and Mother, but his life was like a kara. If you remember how Rama's complaints, you want to feel Dira crying bang. You never know and never want to know what your child wants, even just want to eat candy is very difficult for him to get it. Then what fate did you love about Rama? Rama and I have suffered enough for almost five years because of the selfishness of Brother who excessively adores Mother. It hurts too much to remember it bang, akhtt!" I shed tears in the end.

However, the attitude of my husband and mother-in-law to me, not once did I shed tears. I don't want to look fragile in front of Rama. I am his superhero, who is always strong to face anything without crying.

But this time, as if I could no longer hold it back, my tears just escaped wetting my cheeks.

"Mother, why are you crying?" Rama asked suddenly as he approached me and his father.

Looking at Rama, I could not bear to embrace the tiny body. I cried in Rama's arms. You are Mother's reinforcement all this time, son, you are the reason for mother to defend against how sick mother's bath is because of your father and also your grandmother. Stay a life booster, Rama, because you are the only reason you have a purpose in life.

"Mother should not cry, Rama promised, Rama will not ask to buy candy or anything else. Rama knows, you don't have money, do you? Rama wants a big coin, so Rama can find a lot of money for Mother. Rama love you mother!"

Oh my...

One sentence that I will always and will continue to say to you, I Love u my boy.

Bang Angga's heart is getting sick when he hears his son's speech. How could he not realize his attitude which was very influential for Rama?

"Dad, Rama just wanted to say don't make you cry. Mother said, men should love women, should not be made sad,"

"Sorry Dad, Rama. I promise you, I won't make your mother cry again. From now on we will live happily three, does Rama agree?"

"Se..

"So!" I firmly reject the words of Bang Angga.

"Bec.." Bang Angga's gaze seemed to be begging me to withdraw my words.

I've given him a second chance, even forgiven his mistakes a thousand times, but it's still the same thing I got. Bang Angga was always weak with his mother's words, so he did not care anymore about his son and his wife.

"Rama, baby, go play outside, boy! Dad and Mommy want to talk, and the little boy can't be horrified," I said asking Rama to go play. I don't want the debate between me and the Angga bang to be traumatized for Rama. It's not good to argue in front of a child.

"Good, bang! This is my final decision. I want us to get divorced!" My words remain in the establishment.

"Is there not the slightest bit of pity for Brother, Ra?"

"Then what's your own brother? Do you have any pity for Dira and Rama? Our lives have long suffered bang, and that's because of Brother himself,"

"Sir, should not be discussed well first. Don't make up your mind when you're angry" Linda said to me and stroked my back.

"You don't know how Ma'am and Rama lived all this time Lin. We suffered a lot because of your brother, then have to be patient what else? I'm too tired of all this. Bang Angga can't be fair, it's always the mother he's always perfecting, while Mbak, his wife feels like a stranger he doesn't care about" I replied to Linda.

"Linda understands the same thing that Mbak Rasain, because Linda also feels it. Linda couldn't force Mbak to continue living with the Angga bang. Because Mbak and Rama deserve to be happy, even though it hurts, but maybe it's better" said Linda who also shed her tears. Maybe she remembered the old days when her husband asked for a divorce.

Over the years, after Linda divorced from her husband, Linda never came home. His disappointment with Mom made him choose his own path. If it wasn't for Tika who was suddenly pregnant, Linda wouldn't want to go home to see Mom.

Yes, you need to know, Linda also divorced her husband because of Mother's actions. I don't understand his mind. All the daughters-in-law he considers enemies, as if not willing if his son happy his daughter-in-law. Why ask her son to get married? If you finally think your children are enemies.

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