Love Wrong Target

Chapter 36 The guilt

"Ap.. What is Alvan?" Alena reflexively looked towards Alvan with a surprised face.

"we have to end our relationship now, Alena" Alvan said successfully made Alena's heart feel torn like useless old paper.

"but why Alvan? isn't everything okay? there's nothing between us except..." Alena stopped her words, took a short breath and continued.

"what does all this have to do with Rafka's attitude yesterday? is mas Alvan offended by Rafka's bad attitude the same mas?! keep Alena, guessing. Tears began to pour down the girl's cheeks.

"this has nothing to do with your sister, Alena, it's just that there's something else I can't tell you" Alvan said carefully. As much as possible he tried to speak carefully to Alena, so that the girl did not feel too much heartache.

He decided to end it all at this time. He could not continue his charade constantly, as his goal of speaking to Namira and proving all the truth had also been achieved.

Maybe this action can be said to be evil and has no heart, but he thought it would be even more evil to keep on playing and let Alena fall into a feeling that was too deep and one day it would definitely make him more tormented.

"why is it suddenly like this? you need to clear everything to me!" urged Alena. He can't just accept Alvan's decision. It all feels unfair to him.

"i told you, I can't tell you everything the same Alena" Alvan remained firm in his stance, because if Alena knew the truth, it would hurt her even more.

"cannot mas Alvan. I do not want us to break up if there is no clear reason! I'm getting more and more convinced that this is all about Rafka's sister, but you covered it up from me" Alena is increasingly convinced that Alvan broke off their relationship because of Rafka's cold attitude when Alvan came to his house yesterday.

"don't be stubborn, Alena! you can't be happy if you stay with me" Alvan tries to give understanding so that Alena understands and can accept his decision.

"who said I wasn't happy? I'm happy to be close to you, I'm happy with our togetherness, I'm happy with everything we've been through!" alena was full of feelings.

If this is the case, Alvan becomes more and more guilty.Alena's feelings are so sincere to him, but he played with her just like that. He became sorry, he should not have taken this extreme way to get close to Namira again. He should not use the innocence of the girl to achieve his goals.

Now what he did was even a similar fruit for him. He was confused as to how to take a stance on Alena. Like, going back and forth was wrong, so was the current position of Alvan.

"pardon me, Alena" that's all Alvan can say to express his guilt.

"there's nothing wrong here, but why apologize?!" Sahut Alena's.

Alvan was silent, not responding to Alena's words. He thinks back, thinks about the impact that will be caused by the attitude he took. And of course he has to take the right decision for everyone.

"can't do Alvan. I love you, I can't live without you, I'm used to having you by my side!" alena said at length expressing her feelings.

"i love another woman, Alena" a hurtful sentence to the girl, and finally had to come out of Alvan's mouth. It was the only last way he could get it all to an end right now, with no more debate.

"This is impossible. You must be lying, right?!" Alena stammered, the girl really could not believe what she had just heard.

"that's the truth, Alena. I can't lie to you anymore!"

"you are evil, Alvan!! why are you doing all this the same to me? what's my fault??" alena's crying became more and more, her heart felt in shreds until it was shapeless again now.

He could not bear this excruciating pain. Pain that he had never felt before. The pain that broke his heart into small pieces like broken glass pieces and could not be put together again.

"sorry Alena, I really didn't mean to hurt you, I'm really sorry for my big mistake. You can hit me hard to avenge your heartache. You can vent your anger on me now, Alena!" Alvan did not know what else to say, he felt that this was all he could do.

"then what does all the attention you give me mean? those sweet words, your kind treatment, is it all just a pretense?!" alena was frustrated.

"Alena. I don't mean it, I just... " Alvan hangs his sentence.

"what's all? you really have no heart, no heart. I hate you so much mas, I hate!!!" Alena screamed out her emotions. He could no longer hold the anger within him. He released that anger on Alvan, who had already given him such a deep wound.

Alena walked quickly leaving Alvan who was still glued to look at her. He left behind the man he loved so much, but so much he hated. Life that was originally filled with happiness, now feels gray for him.

Alena's heart was empty, there was no love and no love in it. The love that used to feel beautiful is now like a sharp thorn that pierces it, leaving pain in the heart immeasurable. He condemned his stupidity, maybe he was trapped in the charade Alvan that made him have to experience all this.

Alena got in her car, and then ran it at high speed, not necessarily in the direction. He doesn't know where to go right now. The place he used to go to if he was sad, could not be his place now, because Alvan was there.

Alena doesn't care, wherever she goes. He obviously wanted to go all the way from the man. A man who played with his feelings.

The car was speeding through the streets of the city, passing through many vehicles that were milling about. Carrying the pain and wounds that surrounded him, although he did not know where he was going to carry the wounds in his heart.