Love Wrong Target
Chapter 30 Late realized
Rafka glued to see the scenery in front of him. He saw his wife kissing another man, and that man was someone in Namira's heart. Yes, Namira was with her former fiance.
I don't know why his chest hurts seeing all that. It seems that he has just realized that there is beginning to be a growing love in his heart for Namira. Because if he doesn't, he can't possibly feel the pain, as he does today.
He walked away from the place, and got into his car immediately. Carrying wounds he never imagined as painful as this felt.
He had no idea that his decision to follow Namira would lead him to such a complicated situation.
Yesterday night Namira said she would meet Alvan herself to help solve Alena's problem. Of course as a husband, Rafka was worried and offered to deliver him, but his desire was rejected by his wife.
Rafka does not lose his mind, he decides to follow Namira secretly without his knowledge. He will make sure that Namira is fine and has no trouble.
And because of his decision, he finally knew everything that was happening. He knew that his wife never loved him. He wanted to be angry but didn't know who he was.
In this case Namira was not wrong according to him, because since the beginning of their meeting, Namira had confirmed that they only married because of compulsion alone, without love.
And they had also agreed not to interfere with each other's affairs, because of Namira's wishes. Didn't all that signify that his wife had no taste for him at all.
Rafka cursed herself for not being able to keep her heart so fell into an unrequited feeling of love that made her as fragile as she is now.
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Namira pushes Alvan's shoulders strong while releasing their kiss. His feelings are really fucked right now. She could not figure out why she could do such a thing, because indirectly it made her look like a woman who was cheating on her husband.
Although Namira does not love Rafka, she respects him as the head of the family. And he felt very unworthy to do such a deed.
"sorry" Alvan said slowly to Namira. He got carried away with his feelings and did things he should not have done.
"go Alvan. I want to be alone first" said Namira slowly. He wanted to calm himself for a moment and also clear his mind that had begun to be clouded by all the events he experienced today.
"but I can't leave you in this state, Namira. Allow me to drive you home after that I'll go" Alvan refuses to go, worrying about Namira not being okay.
Namira knew it would be useless if he continued to argue with the man because he knew his nature well. If this is the case, Alvan will still be strong with his stance and will never waver as hard as Namira against him.
Finally he granted Alvan's request to drive him home without saying another word. Namira just stayed quiet along the way home. His mind looked far away somewhere.
Alvan did not dare to disturb him either. He felt that Namira needed time to understand everything that was happening. And he will always wait for it.
The latest car breaks down the city streets at low speed because the driver still wants to linger with his passengers.
The journey that should be only twenty minutes so much longer doubled because of the Alvan driving speed is below average. The man drove Namira right in front of his house without Namira noticing, because since then he seemed busy with his own thoughts.
"sorry.. sorry... I've made you surprised huh?!" Alvan felt guilty.
"oh. pa pa pa kok, I'm the one who is not focused anymore" said Namira.
"that's why I went straight back! it was Leon who picked him up" Alvan said as he pointed to his personal assistant who had been standingby on top of the car waiting for him.
Before leaving, Alvan did send a short message to Leon to pick him up at the address sent, so that he could go home immediately and not too long to wait.
"yes, thank you Van!" Namira.
"sama, have you entered first. I'm leaving now" Alvan opens the car door, as does Namira. They got out of the car at the same time. Namira did not know that her husband had come home from earlier and saw her from inside the house.
Rafka's heart is hurting more now. He thinks that Namira and Alvan have been blatantly showing their relationship in front of him, and Rafka hates that.
Alvan waves to Namira and leaves with his car driven by Leon. But Namira didn't return the hand. He just stared at Alvan's departure with a feeling that still stuck in his heart.
Namira herself is completely confused by her feelings. It feels like he wants to go into the room and sleep so he can forget for a moment all the pettiness of life.
Namira entered the classic but elegant design house with no enthusiasm. Should he be grateful for knowing all the truth, but with the consequences of his indecision. I don't know. Everything really feels confusing to Namira.
Rafka who was sitting on the living room sofa turned to Namira for a moment and turned her gaze to the mobile phone he was holding again, as if indifferent to the arrival of his wife.
Rafka's presence made Namira a little surprised, because it was not usually the man was at home at hours like this. Namira looks at the clock on her wrist to see if she's as troubled as she knows the time.
And it turns out to be true, it's only eleven in the afternoon. Her husband should still be in the office, Namira thought. Though he did not know that Rafka had followed him earlier, and went home before he came.
"tumben at this hour you're home, Raf? are you sick?" asked Namira out of curiosity.
Silent.. Rafka did not respond to Namira's remarks. He left the woman who was astonished by his attitude.
What about people? how did his attitude get weird?! is he really sick again, not strong enough to say that?
But how does the look in his eyes not usually? I felt that he was angry with me. Did he see Alvan deliver me earlier huh?!
Namira also followed Rafka who was heading to his study room. Without knocking on the door Namira immediately gawked into the room.
"what's wrong with you Rafka? is something wrong?" Namira asks a question that leaves Rafka flabbergasted.
