LOVE STRING POPEYE

14. The pain that is grateful

Neta enjoyed a quiet night of contemplation.Trying to make peace with her now crying heart was difficult for her.

Either the wound has dried up or the inner wound is camouflaged as if it is fine...

trying to write what's in his head, maybe that way his heart is much better...

he took a laptop with a picture of a krowak apple..

his favorite thing that he always carries anywhere including during the holidays like this time.and it turns out that it is needed as well...

Neta started typing.by stanza.demi stanza.yang popped up without any aba..

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" Before the night is getting late, and the moon is pouting...

"I want to say goodbye in a proper way.

"Hopefully what we've been through, one day will be the thing you miss the most..

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"There is no need to thank you, because our meeting is a destiny that must happen..

"Maybe you'll remember me if you visit every corner of this city

" I'm sure you'll remember my perfume every once in a while, my warm grasp, my ripple laugh, and the sweetest smile I've ever given you

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"You won't find in anyone else, I'm the best you've ever let go..

"I love you, even if I have to sacrifice my heart..

" I love you even if I break many times

" I'm happy just to see you smile and be nice..

"Eating in the emperon, going around the market, driving all night, I still feel good

because it's with you

Wherever we are, it's with you..

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"Maybe it was before I knew it turned out that you couldn't fully accept my flaws..

AND IT HURTS...

"I'm still claustrophobic, when I remember you.

it's just that you haven't said goodbye sincerely...

" I'm sick..wounded.disappointed but I love you !!?it was before you dumped me without mercy with her.she or him...

" Leaving me in the worry and the big question mark that I've been waiting for...

" not keeping my feelings in check, even though you know I must have been terribly hurt during your loss...

"I AM SICK ALONE.I blame my shortcomings, feel inappropriate, do not want anyone.

"And.you look fine.

without asking how I am ?

how is my heart ?

"I didn't expect you to come back and start the story with me again..

I just wanted to part ways in a way that was worth it for the last time and after that forget me and all our 8-year memories...

LORDS....

I'M SORRY.....

HELP ME....

TAKE CARE OF ME...

LOVE ME ....

DON'T LET ME CHOOSE THE WRONG PATH....

I'M LOST

LORDS....

I'M ASHAMED......

I AM ASHAMED OF ASKING TOO MUCH.....

MY DOSAGE

THE MORE PILE UP ....

GOD

HELP ME.......!!!!

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Neta wrote every inch of his heart....

how am I going to explain all this mess to the extended family * neta can only cry so easily...

ASTAGHFIRULUS. ....

Neta beristighfar.repeated many times while remembering the message contained in the quote of her beloved book ..

Ibn Taymiyyah said" If the problem I am facing is in stalemate, then I will pay attention to Allah a thousand times (or more or less as many as that word) Allah will open a way out""

(AND I SAID TO THEM, "PLEASE FORGIVE YOUR LORD, HE IS MOST FORGIVING)

(QS. NOAH 10)

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then Neta unceasingly said istighfar.while stroking elus his chest spoke to himself in the silence of the mala..

Neta be patient.while stroking gently and getting softer...

trying to advise himself by closing his eyes and continuing to wipe his chest like a gentle swab of a friend...

he called himself repeatedly to communicate....

*Neta.one of the reasons for peace of mind and heart is to be considerate of the Dzat who has all the majesty.

(DZUL JALAL)

Many things that are considered inappropriate and inappropriate and injuring but actually bring benefits.remember Neta..," every qadha is basically good, basically good,including the obedience and injustice you have done to yourself so far...

Neta cried as it became.and still continued to talk with him.and advised himself....

repent neta...papatan nasuha.please forgive if you have been wrong...

ASTAGHFIRULLLAH

only that word can he let out.neta is crying bitterly...His heart ached as much as his pain.it felt like life was unwilling to die.so terrible is this pain, O Allah...

an expression of regret that feels very painful...

suppose you had heard his parents not to be in a relationship with the destination ..

if it had not been easy to forgive all the mistakes that despa...

if you were not stubborn to continue to maintain their 8 years together

suppose from the first he had enough courage to be able to reduce the desire

suppose he had enough heart...

suppose he could be far from Desta..

his heart was filled with stifling regret....

why do you have..Why are you so bad ???????

the tears did not stop in the least....

maybe this way his heart will be fine...

maybe by crying last night his heart will be able to forgive...

it is possible that in this way he has enough courage to explain to his family and the whole world that his heart refuses to recover...

I really can't take it anymore....

but........??

Is this really the right decision..

Is this really the right decision

not hurt his parents, his family and the people he loved so much...

Heart's churning....

but that's all he can do.....

are you netting this ?

is this destroyed by you ??

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Neta cool berserkraama with night, with quiet and with his own ego...

He was eager to let go, but on the other hand also his heart was so sick...

like the rhyme that was told by Abu Tamam about the story of happiness and sulinya..

YEARS PASSED ALONG WITH HER HAPPINESS AND PLEASURE ..

BECAUSE TOO SHORT A YEAR IS LIKE COUNTING DAYS....

THEN CAME HIS DIFFICULT DAY....

IT WAS AS IF THE DAY WAS A YEAR LONG BECAUSE OF ITS LENGTH..

THEN THE TIME VANISHED TOGETHER WITH MAN....

THE HUMAN BEING AND HIS TIME DID NOT CHANGE LIKE A DREAM....

beautiful rhyme that is very appropriate in juxtaposed with the current state of Neta...

"i gave up. I gave up.

"i give up on this situation..

"i give up on your cheating

"i give up on your lies

"i give up on your betrayal

'I love you very much...

"even idolize you in my memory....

"i love you.

disillusioned.....

"I pamit mas.I pamit...

surviving is hard...

Beds for our satin

room for us to love later....

home for our future...

everything is no longer beautiful in my mind....

I said goodbye.

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