Love Starts With Dreams

Episode 5's

I was waiting for my two best friends while warming up my phone on a bench close to a special motorcycle parking lot.

Not long ago I heard the voice of Fitria who called me with a very noisy voice, sometimes I was embarrassed to have a friend like Fitria but how else this is our friendship that is what it is, and what is our friendship, although shy but I love him.

From a distance I saw two people who were chatting in front of the class that I and my two best friends were going to enter while engrossed in making out.

Seeing that somehow I felt dislike, my heart ached. Do I like him? I immediately dismissed the thought of it all, I must realize that he already has a partner. I do not want to be stamped as a destroyer in their relationship.

I walk down my head because I don't want to see the two of them, who else if open the sweetest and always romantic couple if not Aldiansyah and Raina.

Near getting closer and my chest was beating fast, I passed them still with my head lowered, I was not strong to see their affection, was I jealous? I don't know if I'm not sure of my true feelings either. I entered my class breathing a sigh of relief.

Ayuni and Fitria, who noticed that I was astonished and tried to find answers to my behavior and asked what was going on, but I just shook my head and smiled at them and immediately headed to my desk to avoid questions those who might make me confused to take care of it. For now I am not ready to tell everything to my best friend.

***

My course was over a few minutes ago but me and my two best friends have not intended to leave our respective places.

I would love to tell all of them to my best friend.I would like to ask their opinion on what decision I should take.

However I was confused as to where to start telling this all to the two of them, I was afraid of too much hope to him what else now he had had a lover, and I can see from his eyes that he really loves his girlfriend.

Should I ruin their relationship and happiness? Should I be the bad guy here? Questions now filled my mind, I would go crazy if I kept going like this. I want to scream at this moment.

Fitria said goodbye to go home first because she had just found a message from her lover that she was waiting. Now that I and Ayuni were left, we decided to go to the front campus cafe to just drink coffee.

After I thought about it I decided to tell Ayuni about my problem because I was sure that Ayuni would not divulge it to anyone including Aldiansyah Putra who was the cause of the problem that became my mind

I hesitantly told Ayuni everything from the dream to my strange feeling now that seeing the togetherness of Aldi and Raina, I hope that Ayuni does not laugh at me.

"I think you're starting to like it, Vin. Several times I saw your gloomy face when I saw Aldi and Raina together. I'm sure you're jealous, and as for the dream, it sounds silly, but I think you should try to fight for it, who knows someday it'll be beautiful." Answer Ayuni at length.

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I got to the apartment a few minutes ago and decided to take a shower first and then do the task yesterday that I hadn't finished yet.

The clock has shown at 23:45 and I still can not sleep, I keep thinking about what was said this afternoon Ayuni, I am confused if I should fight and defend him , will I be able, and will Aldi also return my feelings.

***

Me and my two friends were in the cafeteria for breakfast waiting for the new school hours to start in about an hour. While chatting unintentionally I saw two people who had just come and sat right in front of the table I was sitting at, who else if not Aldi and Raina.

Inevitably what they did was clearly visible to my eyes. My eyes were hot looking at their affection. I want to cry to see them, but I don't deserve that, I'm not who I am.

Ayuni who realized my suddenly silent sikaf was now following the direction of my view, as if understanding my situation Ayuni immediately invited me and also Fitria away from the canteen.

"Vin, it seems like you really like it. And my advice is you should try to forget him, I know it's hard but I also don't want you to be hurt to keep seeing this every day" Ayuni explained.

"But didn't you say yesterday to fight and survive? Why now is he telling me to forget?" I was surprised by the different opinion of the Ayuni from yesterday.

"I originally wanted you to fight for it. But after I saw that, I was sure that you should forget it with the feelings you had, I did not want to worry that you were sad and sick when I saw their affection. And if you want to be a destroyer between them, you can see how much they love each other. Do you have the heart to ruin the happiness of the person you already consider to be your own sister? think about Vin again" Ayuni said.

I was still thinking about what Ayuni said yesterday, I digested all of Ayuni's antics, and after I thought that maybe I should have forgotten and eliminated these feelings, I thought, I must not be selfish, I must also think about the feelings of others.

Aldi is my friend and Raina I think of as my sister. And now I have decided to forget everything and throw away my feelings towards Aldiansya.

Now I try to be normal with Aldi and Raina and sometimes I try to get a taste of their affection, even though it hurts at first but I will try to get used to it. Although this feeling has not completely disappeared at least I have tried to forget it.