Love Starts With Dreams
Episode 22
At 09:25 I was on campus and my classes started at 11:00 which means there was 1.5 hours left.
My two best friends haven't come yet because I told them when I got to college, so maybe they're still ready.
I went to college, a place that I always make my own time like this, honestly I still think of Aldi. I think of who Aldi will defend, me or Fania, whoever it is, ready not ready I have to be ready.
Not wanting to think too much about the problem I now take the novel from my bag and read it while waiting for my two best friends to come.
Not long after my phone vibrated and I immediately saw who called, and it turned out to be Ray's brother, without waiting any longer I immediately idle him.
"Hallo,"
"...."
"Yes I'm at Yang's college, why?"
"..."
"Ok, I'll tell you later."
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"Yes, the spirit of the script, do not be too soybean and do not forget to eat and rest,"
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Tutt's...
I hung up after Ray heard the answer. Brother Ray is indeed a good man, he is considerate, loving and sweet. I smiled to myself considering the sweet treatment of Ray to the clap on my back surprised me, it turns out my two best friends were the culprit, he said, I looked at them because they were upset and they were just whining without feeling guilty at all.
"Who are you from the same phone, Vin, immediately smile like that?" Ask Fitria
"Same call from Ray." My answer is honest
"Vin, are you really in love with Ray?" this time, I asked.
"I don't know, I'm comfortable with Ray, but my heart is still with Aldi, I love Ray but I don't love Ray. I know I'm so mean, so bad, but I also don't want to believe it. Yesterday Aldi came to my apartment." I said
"Why what?" Ask Fitria. I finally told them everything. I could see the annoyance on both of them's faces.
"I was forced to give her that choice, I also wanted to fight. I cape all this time fighting alone, and she was cool with this woman and that, and that, while I had to endure my own pain for three years," I said at length with tears that had been rushing past my cheeks.
Ayuni who understood my feelings took me into her arms and began to shed tears, though not as hard as my tears. The phitria? He kept quiet while looking at me between annoyance and pity. Ayuni was still holding me, and now that I could calm down, I wiped my tears and tried to smile, just to strengthen my own heart.
After the events of the stories to finally cry, the three of us went to the cafeteria because I finished crying my stomach became hungry and thirsty.
When I got to the office I saw Aldi and Fania sitting together while bribing. Seeing that my heart felt so sick. Without realizing it, my tears fell back just because I saw them.
Fitria who realized I was crying immediately took me away from the cafeteria, as if knowing what I was feeling now Fitria and Ayuni brought me a quieter backseat, rarely does anyone come to this place. Fitria hugged me trying to calm me down
"Udah Vin, don't cry anymore" said Fitria calming.
"Why is this sick. I tried not to care about her anymore, I tried to forget her and throw away all my feelings towards her, but why can't I! why can I love this same as him? Why?" racauku was still with increasingly heavy cries.
"I'm bad with Ray, I hurt him, I shouldn't have nangisin other men, but I can't. What should I Fit, Ay? I promised Ray to forget him, I promised not to hurt him, but I can't, Aldi is too hard for me to forget. I love him too much, I was too in love with her, until I was willing that she had been sick all this time," I continued still with sobs. I was disappointed, disappointed in myself, somehow I got this way just because of one man named Aldiansyah Putra. Just this time I really love it when I love men like this.
After feeling calmer, Fitria let go of her embrace, and wiped the rest of my tears,
"Vin, we know you love Aldi so much, but you can't keep believing, you have to get up, Vin. There are still a lot of good men out there," said Ayuni while patting me gently on the back.
"Then do you give Aldi his choice?" Fitria asked and I nodded.
"He hasn't contacted you at all?" ask again, and I answer with another nod.
"That means he's gone to stop Fania and try to get rid of you. Fania who Aldi chose is not you Vin" said Fitria explained.
Hearing the words of Fitria made my tears come back. Did Aldi really make his choice? Is it true that Aldi let me go for that woman? Can I do it? Will I be able to go far with Aldi?.
"Don't think that you can't without Vin, I'm sure you can, you just need time" Ayuni said.
"Remember Vin, never show your weakness in front of them, it will only make Fania feel victorious. He will look down on you for having captured and separated Aldi from you. I'm sure if indeed Aldi your soul mate, no matter how far he goes he will know how to return.you don't need to be sad, proof the same they that you can be happy without Aldi." Ayuni tried to calm me down and reassure me.
Hearing the input from my two best friends made me develop my smile, I am grateful to have them, even though they are installments, people, but at times like this they can be serious and always provide input on the problems I am facing.
"Makasi yes, you are indeed my best friend, I will try to forget it, and I hope that Aldi will not regret it later" I said with a smile to my two friends.
Inevitably I allowed them to stay over because I also did need them to not think too much about Aldi even if only for a moment but at least I can still laugh because of their behavior.
Before returning to my apartment the three of us stopped by a nearby supermarket to buy ingredients for cooking. Don't forget those who love to eat, so I decided to shop a bit, ranging from vegetables, sausages, fruit, meat and also other ingredients to make cakes, to make cakes, maybe by busy myself making cakes and cooking for my two best friends can reduce for a moment my thoughts on Aldi even though only for today.
After arriving at the apartment, I went straight to the kitchen to save my groceries with the help of my two best friends, then went to the room to change clothes and returned to the kitchen to cook for my two best friends.
I saw my two friends were busy in the kitchen cleaning the groceries we bought earlier into the refrigerator.
"Tumben," led me to them.
"Yes, there is another inspiration for us so we take the initiative to settle, you will make Vin soybeans, so we help." Fitria.
"Surely do you want it?" guess what, then get a whimper from both of them. I'm guessing, I also memorize them, they will not want to cape-cape help if again there is no want.
"You immediately cook Vin, we finish so that the spout and spit meal," said Ayuni who was then adopted by Fitria.
turn it on, there's gotta be a want. I just looked at their annoyance and immediately picked up the ingredients to cook.
Finished cooking and eating the three of us chatted in the guest room to watch and chat random until I fell silent again, thinking about what I had been thinking about, no longer do I think of Aldi, no longer think of Aldi, but this time I thought about Rayhan's brother, I really touched on what to argue with him. I don't want to hurt her heart too deeply. I don't want to make him an escape from my pain in Aldi. Ray's too good for me. Brother Ray deserves a better woman, not a woman like me who still expects and still often cries for other men, she said,
" Vin.." The call from Ayuni awakened my daydream
"Why?" much
"Without daydreaming, still thinking that earlier?" Ask Ayuni again, I shook my head in response.
"Continue?" now it is Fitria who speaks. I kept quiet and took a deep breath before I finally spoke,
"I'm confused." I said slowly
"Why?"
"Let's know, it looks like I'm going to killusin Ray's brother," I said with doubt.
"Why?" Ask Fitria in disbelief
"Sister Rayhan is too good for me, and I? It even hurt her feelings. You know I still really expect Aldi, even when I'm with Ray I still think about it and cry. I feel like the worst person knows no! I know Ray doesn't blame this, but try to think whose heart doesn't hurt if his girlfriend thinks and expects others, even if I were in that position, I would be very sick!" I obviously panang wide.
"If you break up with Ray if it doesn't hurt his feelings, try to think again carefully Vin,"
"But if Ray's brother is still with me even more I hurt his feelings, I'm sure Ray's brother would understand. I don't want to be too deep to hurt a man's feelings as good as Rayhan's" I explained again with tears that had flowed. My two friends hugged me at the same time.
"Whatever your decision, we will both always support you Vin" said Ayuni who is also adopted by Fitria. I smiled at my two best friends and hugged them, I was lucky to have a friend like them.
Although they are more irritating and annoying, but at times like this they will both turn into adults and can say wise. Today I invited Brother Ray to meet, yes I intend to end my relationship with him today, I do not want to hurt his feelings too long, therefore I prefer to let go, I prefer to let go, because I'm not sure I can forget Aldi that fast either.
I was in the same park I used to visit with Brother Rayhan. I took Brother Ray to meet at 10:30 and now it's 10:15 which means there are still fifteen minutes for me to think about where I'm talking to him.
In the middle of my mind a hug from behind made me aware, and I can confirm it was Rayhan's brother. I turned my body to him and smiled at him. I took Brother Ray to sit on the bench provided in this garden. I hugged Brother Ray tightly while drowning my face into his field chest, warm, that's how I felt in his arms. This may be the last hug from Brother Ray, I will definitely miss this hug, I will definitely miss the warm figure of Brother Ray, miss his smile and miss everything about him.
"Darling why are you crying?" Ask Ray to panic.
"I'm sorry" I said slowly still in his arms
"Why are you sorry? And why do you cry gini, you still think of him? Do you still love her?" Ask Ray softly.
"I'm sorry I hurt your feelings, I'm sorry I let you down" I said as I pleased
"Now you calm yourself first yes, do not cry, it's just you talk," said brother Ray softly, while rubbing my hair to try to calm me. I nodded in Ray's arms. After feeling calmer I let go of Ray's hug and started talking,
"I'm sorry I can't forget him, sorry I'm still always thinking and crying him in front of my sister, brother is too good for me to be sick, sorry I can't keep my brother feeling, brother, I don't want to be too deeply hurt sister's feelings, I know big brother must be hurt when I nangisin other boys what else one hundred brother is my boyfriend, sorry I'm brother," I said at length with tears flowing back.
"Now I want to take off brother, not because I don't love brother but I can't for the promise of being able to forget him, I don't want to keep hurting brother's feelings, I know I'm evil, I don't want to keep on feeling bad, sorry for me." I continued
"Don't hate me brother, I also don't want to take off brother but I would be more evil if brother is still the same me while I still think and cry for other men in front of brother, brother, maybe this is the best. I'm sure you can get a girl who is more everything than me, I'm sorry to make you disappointed" continued me again with increasingly heavy crying.
Brother Ray took me in his arms, and I returned his embrace. I'm sure this is the last hug, the farewell hug between me and Ray's brother, I know I'll be sorry, but it's the best. I know I'm a fool to have wasted a good man like Rayhan's brother, but I tried to.
After ending my relationship with Rayhan's brother, I felt a little relieved but also felt sad. Relieved that I will no longer feel guilty for hurting Rayhan's feelings, and sad because I lost a good man like Rayhan's brother. I only hope that Brother Rayhan will get his happiness and so will I who get my happiness without the shadow of an Aldiansyah Putra.
