Love Starts With Dreams

Chapter 11's

From the moment of the incident in the garden I tried to keep a distance from Aldi. I do not want if I continue to be close to him. My feelings will increase deeper to Aldi, my feelings will be more and more deep, maybe by keeping my distance little by little I can let go and forget about it.

I was not completely away from Aldi, all this time Aldi still often send me short messages and even call me, I also still reply to the message but not until like before. if Aldi wants to take off or go home with me I try to reject it for various reasons.

But this morning luck was not on my side. When I came out of the apartment I intended to go to the campus, I saw Aldi with his motor sport already in front of me and smiled at me, he said, I took a slow breath and approached him.

Honestly I miss him, I want to hug him right now, but my decision to avoid him is already unanimous, I don't want to be so hopeful anymore right now.

"Let's go up, "he said while giving me the helmet, I was still silent and looked at Aldi and the helmet that Aldi was still holding alternately, I was still doubtful, I wanted to reject her again but what reason should I make this time.

Aldi approached me and put on the helmet that he had been holding on to me, I silently stared at what Aldi was doing just now. My eyes were still staring at him, confused by Aldi's attitude that even more sweet towards me, if it continues like this how can I move on from him.

"Have no need to avoid me anymore, let's ride we leave," he said again.I just nodded and climbed on the motor sport without saying anything.

There is no chat like we used to do while on the trip.until at the campus parking lot, I who intend to go was detained by Aldi. I stared confusedly at Aldi alternating towards my hand held Aldi.

I tried to release my hand from Aldi's hand but could not, Aldi instead tightened his grip.I just sighed resignedly and continued walking with Aldi who was still holding my hand.

Just like before on the way to campus until now it will go to class no one wants to open a voice, I was busy with my thoughts and Aldi who somehow did not want to also open his voice.whether what Aldi was thinking right now.whether he was angry or what, or what, because what I see now is his face flat and cold.

Arriving in front of the class me and Aldi became the center of attention of my classmates, I did often walk alone with Aldi but to join new this time, this time, maybe that's why everything in the class looked at us both. I who felt uncomfortable immediately let go of my hand forcibly until our arm was released, Aldi greeted me astonished but I did not care.

The class became quiet at this time.I walked towards my desk but only two steps I walked, again Aldi held my hand. I was silent not intending to let go and not to look at her.

we were still in class in front of the blackboard, and everyone in the room was silent as if they were watching a Korean drama live.

Not able to stand the situation like this I turned towards Aldi who still held my wrist, I tried as calmly as possible now.

"Lepasin Al, I want to sit down," I said flatly

"You're why Vin, keep avoiding. I was wrong?" he asked me. I sighed harshly before answering again.

"I'm not avoiding, and you have nothing wrong" I replied with a flat face.

"But I feel that you've been avoiding me for a few days" he said. As much as possible I held back my tears that wanted to come out from earlier.

"Maybe it's just you Al, I don't mind you, I've just been busy lately" I replied trying as quietly as possible.

Aldi started loosening his grasp from my hands and I did not waste the opportunity. I immediately let go of his grasp and walked towards my desk, but Aldi still remained in the same position as before just his gaze alone followed where I was going.

"Udah finished not yet the drama, I want to go to the toilet," said Arya broke the silence.

Soktak Aldi walked over to his desk and I saw him look at me at a glance, but I ignored him.

"Ease, but again tense"

"I'm really lo, Al, even though I like to shoot"

"Greget I saw you both."

"Are you two ready, and now fighting"

"PJ can be times, Al, Vin."

Those are some of Aldi's words and others. I ignored their vague chatter and tried to focus on reading the book that was currently in front of me.

I walked towards the parking lot where the location of Aldi sport bike parked, because earlier Aldi had sent a message to go home with him. I deliberately not parked together with Aldi because I wanted to go to the toilet first.

I walked casually towards the clothes. Suddenly I stopped when I saw two people who were in the middle of the parking lot were hugging.

Aldi and Raina. Yes that person is them, my tears are flowing without me holding back. Raina was here and maybe Aldi no longer needed me. I went to the main gate of my campus, and did not intend to approach Aldi and Raina who were giving up longing.

I lay my body on the soft bed, I lyrics my hanpone, hoping Aldi will contact me but the reality is always painful.

There was not a single message from Aldi. did he not realize that I did not approach him to go home together like his invitation earlier, or did he have forgotten my existence because there was Raina.

Even he knows how I feel but doesn't he appreciate my feelings. I know he only considers me his best friend, the friend he always goes to when he needs it.

I turned on the radio from my hanpone just to enliven this silence, and it was a coincidence or did I feel like this song was a good fit for me.

We're close friends

already trust each other

stories about you

it has become my food

Disconnect again

the storm is good again

you're crying on my shoulder

in my arms.

I'm sorry I like you so much

at first I was jealous for a long time

I'm sorry I expected your love

when it is not time to wait

when I'm still with you I wait for you to break up

Do I have to wait for them to break up? I don't want to expect too high now.they're serious about each other, the chances of them breaking up are slim, I don't want to be too hopeful, because it's only going to make me sicker.

If I hadn't met him in the past, it probably wouldn't have been like this. Had the dream not been present maybe my feelings wouldn't have been like this to him.

should I blame the dream? if not, then who should I blame? fate, or myself, or Aldi I must blame for tossing my heart and my feelings aside.

God, if he is the soul mate you have destined me to bring me closer to, but if he is not the soul mate you have for me, please take this feeling away from me. That was my prayer this time, because I was confused with myself.should I stop hoping or should I stay.

A week has passed and Aldi never contacted me. I also did not see him on campus. I asked Rudi a close friend of Aldi but he also did not know the whereabouts of Aldi. I was worried and missed him.

I tried to contact him but never appointed.Today after college I intend to go to his house.I just want to make sure whether Aldi is at his house or not, if indeed Aldi left, if indeed, I want to know where Aldi went. I was afraid something might happen to Aldi.

After the course was over I quickly left regardless of the calls from my two best friends. I just want to go to Aldi's house to make sure that Aldi is okay.

During the journey I had imagined bad things towards Aldi. I could not think clearly now. After traveling for half an hour, I finally reached his home.

I knocked on Aldi's door and heard the sound of someone opening the door. I wish it was Aldi, but luck was not on my side. I saw Brother Aldo opening the door for me and telling me to come in.

"Tumben you're here by yourself Vin, what's wrong?" Ask brother Aldo, maybe he is confused by my sudden presence because usually I am here must always be invited by Aldi.

"I want to find Aldi, brother, is he home?" ask directly.

"Loh Aldi is not happy with you Vin? Aldi was a week ago going to Malaysia with Raina." I was silent between surprise and disappointment. Though I was worried about it to the point that I ventured to come here.

"So I think Aldi and Raina said that you used to be Vin, because when Aldi brought Raina here to ask for permission to go to Malaysia Raina had time to see Aldi you first," said Aldo again, said, I am still silent not to answer the words of Brother Aldo.