Love Starts With Dreams

Episode 23

I went back to living my days alone, without Rayhan's brother and without Aldi. Since that apartment Aldi has never contacted me again and if the berpas-pas corridor or wherever he has never greeted me even humped not. Seeing that I can only smile.

I do look like I'm fine in front of everyone, but believe me when I'm just crying I always do. somehow I've become so whiny lately. Now I really lost the old aldi figure.I know this is the choice I gave him, but I never knew that letting go would hurt this much.

'Al, are you happier with him?'

'Did you ever miss me, like I always missed you?'

'Is your affection for me still there?'

'I miss you Al'

When I cry that's what I have in mind. In front of my two friends I can still laugh, maybe you also see Al. see that I'm fine, but believe me it's all fake, but believe me it's all fake, laughing is just my way of covering up my sadness, covering up my vulnerability.Mine those who see me, they think that I am strong, I am strong, but believe me I am really weak.

If I usually get to the campus early, but this time I arrived almost simultaneously with the arrival of the class lecturer, I was deliberately, but this time I arrived, because I don't want to see Aldi's affection with Fania in the morning that will only make me cry again.

When I entered the classroom I tried to glance at Aldi's seat at a glance but I did not see Aldi there. did Aldi misfortune, or did not enter?, but I did not see Aldi there?, seeing my confusion and understanding what I was confused with Fitria finally awakened me from all those thoughts

"Why Vin? Find Aldi?, he's not in, he's sick" Fitria said.

"illness?" tanyaku make sure that only answered nod by Fitria.

"What pain? Do you know where you're from?" ask me again

"From Rudi, he's in the hospital right now" Fitri replied.

Hearing that all I became not focused on the material that is currently being explained lecturer, somehow I want to go to the hospital immediately and see the condition of Aldi.

After class today, I plan to visit Aldi. But when I was about to get out of the classroom I saw Fania laughing while joking with the man I knew was a level sister. I just shook my head, didn't understand Fania, didn't Aldi get sick anymore? But maybe he's just as cool as other men. Was he not worried about Aldi being sick again? I feel sorry for Aldi, I know Aldi has really loved and loved Fania to the extent that Aldi left me just for her.

Before heading to the hospital I stopped by the cake shop to buy Aldi's favorite cake, and then I went to the hospital by taxi. Arriving at the hospital I immediately walked down the hallways of the hospital to the room where Aldi was treated who had been informed in advance by Rudi while still in the campus earlier.

Arriving in front of Aldi's room I looked first from the glass to make sure that it was Aldi's room or not. And as I peeked out of the glass I could see Aldi lying on the patient's bed and he wasn't alone. there was also Fania who was feeding Aldi and also Fania's friends were there. I could see the happy look on Aldi's face while being reached by Fania.

I ran out of the hospital with tears that had flowed so much earlier, and luckily there was a taxi passing by so I didn't have to wait. in the taxi I still mengagis to make the driver confused.

After arriving at the destination and after I give the fare I immediately go down and run into the rumab, more precisely the house of Ayuni. I knocked on the door of Ayuni's house and it was not long before the door was opened by Ayuni herself. I immediately hugged Ayuni with a cry that still did not subside.

"Why Vin, why come and cry like a gini?" Tanya Ayuni with her confused face. I just shake my head in response.

"Jaudah come in yuk," asked Ayuni

"why did you come crying gini?" Ask Ayuni. I took a deep breath before I finally started telling Ayuni.

"So I wanted to look at Aldi, because I saw Fania again as cool as other men, I guess he did not care about Aldi who was sick again, that's why I went to the hospital and I stopped by the bakery first, made him buy his favorite cake .." I said

"But when I wanted to go into her nursery, there was Fania again nyuapin Aldi, not only Fania, but Fania's friends were there too, they were joking and laughing, aldi also looks very happy. And it's not possible for me to go in there, do you notice my feelings? my heart hurts Ay, I used to be in that position, I used to always take care of him when he was sick, but now I can't do that. Someone else has replaced me. I want to take care of him rich first when he was sick, but now I can't do anything" I continued to tell the incident in the hospital with increasingly heavy crying

"And I threw away the cake for him, too" I continued. After telling it all to Ayuni, I feel calmer now, my cries have also died down, do not know why if it is related to Aldi I became weak and cry like gini.

"You are patient Vin" Ayuni said calmly

"Does this mean I should really give up, Ay?" I asked Ayuni

"Vin if he's the best, I'm sure no matter how far he goes, he'll know how to get back" said Ayuni, who I know.

It was late and I felt calmer now. I'm going home to Ayuni.

When I arrived at the apartment I immediately entered the room and shower and then did campus work.In the midst of my busy work with the task I was working on suddenly my phone shook signifying there was a message coming in. I ignored him and continued the rest of my work.

After I finished doing the task I immediately laid my body, tired and dizzy, maybe the effect of the cry earlier.

I grabbed my phone, and opened the message that was in, when I saw it was a message from Aldi. I opened the message from Aldi and read it

After hearing that from Ayuni, I honestly cried.

sorry I hurt you

After reading the message from Aldi my tears flowed back, I read repeatedly the message that Aldi sent. I don't know if Ayuni will tell Aldi that, there is a sense of pleasure, but there is also a sense of sadness that I feel when reading a message from him.

I would love to see Aldi, I want to take care of him when he is sick like this, first when Aldi is sick I must take care of him and keep him beside him, but now there is Fania who has more right, there is Fania who takes care of her, and I am no longer needed, I can only pray for her recovery.

Before going to campus I first go to Ayuni's house, let all of you later go to the campus together. I also wanted to ask her what she said to Aldi. When I got in front of the house, I knocked on the door and her mother opened the door.

"For aunty, does her Ayu exist?" my many.

"Eh Vina, there is a kok in her room, Vina directly to her room yes" said her mother Ayu. I walked into Ayuni's room and went straight into her room without knocking on the door first.

"Loh Vin has come, it turns out," said Ayuni shocked. I did not answer and preferred to sit on the edge of the bed.

"Well, what did you say to Aldi?" ask me directly

"Yesterday when you go home Rudi ngajakin I go to the hospital to cool Aldi, continue to fit there he asked you. he said, Vina did not know that he was sick. And Rudi answered if you know and Rudi already told her the nursery...

"Keep Aldi says why don't you look at him. Yaudah I said to Aldi if you actually went there, and I said it was all the same to him. And you know Vin finished I told him all the same Aldi, he went straight on the brakes and I could see that he was crying, even though his tears were just a few drops, but he cried and seemed to feel guilty about you," explained Ayuni at length.

"She sent me the same message and she said she was crying, but I can't believe it, because I think it's just her wits" I told Ayuni.

Arriving in the classroom I and Ayuni sat on their respective benches, and did not forget I glanced at a glance towards where Aldi used to sit, I sighed because it turned out that Aldi had not entered today.

I wanted to see him but I was afraid of something like yesterday again, I realized I would never be able to compete with Fania, so it was only natural that Aldi would prefer him over me.

I'm not excited to attend class today.I keep thinking about Aldi's current condition. Although I could send her a message asking her how she was, but I didn't dare, I didn't want to show her my concern and concern for her too much, because I also don't want Fania to know about it and even think of me as the third person in their relationship.

First class is over and now I just have to wait for the second hour at three in the afternoon.

There was still about an hour and a half left, and I decided to go to the cafeteria with my two best friends and also with Rudi.

"What do you want Vin to order?" Ask Fitria

"Augacos juice" I answered briefly

"Vin you don't want to go with Aldi" asked Rudi to me, I just shook my head in response.

"Why?" Ask Rudi again

"Make what? After all, now there is Fania who will take care of him, I will not be needed anymore.I am also not who is it, right, so for what?" I said sok cuek.

"It seems you look as his friend vin, surely Aldi is happy to be visited with you" said Ayuni, trying to persuade.

"Gak Ay, I don't want to look because there will be Fania, and I don't want to see that, see the affection of both of them. I'm sick, and I don't want to fall back for the umpteenth time. I don't care about him anymore!" say

"There's no harm in you trying to once again care about her, Vin. I'm sure he has the same feeling, but it's just that he hasn't noticed" Rudi said.

"I don't want to expect too much Rud, enough that I struggled alone and was sick myself" I said again, and the three of them fell silent.

"I love him, even very much. But if I keep going I don't want to, there are times when I'm tired and give up." I go and leave them, I just want to go home and cry for now.

Until the apartment I really immediately cried, no longer do I think about today's lecture that might have begun in a few minutes.

And now let me cry as much as I want, for tomorrow and beyond I promise myself not to cry anymore, even to shed a single tear for the man. I'll prove that I can forget it.