Is It Wrong Not All Right?
Boys
A small child was enjoying strawberry-flavored ice cream in a cup that was equipped with strawberry pieces. A sweet kid, as sweet as the ice cream he just bought from Brother's ice-cream in a car not far from where he sat.
The sweet boy suddenly cried. Her happy face was a few seconds ago gone in an instant. The ice-cream in his grasp ran out and the boy still wanted it, but his allowance was up.
“Nih, grab the one that got me.” A boy who seemed to be 5 years older than the sweet boy with his maturity gave his ice cream to the sweet boy. The smart kid seemed to have guessed the reason he was crying just by looking at his empty ice-cream cup.
The girl took the ice-cream gift from the boy. Although it was used, but its contents were still almost full. Their ice-cream flavor is the same: Strawberry ice cream. Fina's favorite taste is small.
“Andro,” introductions from the 11-year-old boy. Andro extended his hand. He sat down next to Fina. On the iron chair leading directly to the vast green field.
“Fina.” Fina replied to Andro's hand with a wet mungilmya hand because she had just wiped the tears.
“You want to be my friend?” asked Fina suddenly while enjoying the ice-cream that previously belonged to Andro.
“Why is it?” Andro's confused. They had just met a few seconds ago, but Fina had already offered to be her friend.
“Let me constantly be given ice-cream hehe,” Fina scoffed with ice cream on her lips that resembled a mustache.
Fina mature opens her eyes. He had just dreamed of something a few years ago. N-no! That's not a dream! It was a real thing when Fina was a kid. Fina twisted her brain. Why did the boy reappear in his life. Fina had long forgotten about it. After all, their meeting just didn't last long. But why today, Fina dreamed of it? Is this a sign?
Today Fina has a schedule of consultations with Doctor Gerald. It's saturday. School holiday. Fina's getting ready, getting dressed to see Doctor Gerald. Looks like he already knows what he wants to talk about with Doctor Gerald.
Fina came to Gerald's clinic. Doctor Gerald was already there in a white shirt and trousers. When practicing, he did not wear doctor clothes like jaz or something like that. He only wears casual clothes. This is intended to provide comfort to patients who want to consult.
They sat on the sofa they used to occupy.
“Hai, Fina, how are you?” the conversation begins by asking for news. That is the main thing for a psychologist to his patients. Gerald's doctor piled up his legs, making him look more relaxed.
“Good, Doc. My Social Anxiety is improving. Doctor's right. I have to be more confident and do relaxation to overcome my anxiety.,” Fina believes what the Doctor said to her the last time they had a consultation.
“Thank God. Indeed, anxiety is our body's response, Fina. So, when you are anxious in the crowd, just let the anxious be present. Let him flow, then disappear on his own,” Gerald explained of anxiety.
“If the ancients, he was anxious when he wanted to see a tiger. Today, the enemy is no longer a tiger. But people's thoughts, people's judgments, times that haven't happened and so on. But in fact they are both the same. We need to give our bodies time to respond to that anxiety,” continued Gerald to make Fina better understand how to control her anxiety.
“Good, Doc. Thanks for the explanation.” Fina mangosteen, sharing her smile. “Oh yes, Doc. Last night I had a dream of a little boy I had met in childhood. I don't know why my dream is going that way.”
“Oh, yes?” Gerald responded a little oddly to Fina's words this time.
Fina nodded, reassuring.
“If it is not disturbing, let it be,” Doctor Gerald's advice.
Fina nodded once more.
The consultation session ended. The doctor and Fina walked out of the room.
“Oh yes, Fina. Outside of the consultation, you just see it as Gerald. Not as your doctor. Make it more comfortable. But still call the Doctor also not-papa if you are comfortable so.” Gerald asked Fina for a request. Fina mangosteen, did not mind at all.
“What are you going home?”
“Online motorcycle taxis, Doc.”
“Sorry I can't get between. 15 minutes more online consultation. You don't pa-pa yourself?” Gerald felt heavy heart could not bring Fina home.
“Yes, not pa-pa, Doc. Thanks a lot, yes, Doc, for today. I'm leaving home.” Fina walked outside the clinic to book an ojek online immediately after getting a nod from Gerald.
“Eh, Fin,” call Gerald stop step Fina. They look more familiar when Gerald calls Fina “Fin”.
“Later tonight there is a gak?” event ask Gerald.
Fina remembered her schedule later tonight. “Not like, Doc. Why?”
“Listen-heard around here there's a night market. Want there?”
Fina did not refuse. “Bby.”
“Let's share your location, yes. Let the Doctor pick up.”
Fina mangosteen. He walked out of the clinic again, then ordered an ojek online via his mobile phone. It didn't take long, the order arrived. During the trip Fina pensively thought of Doctor Gerald. How come there's, huh, Doctor Gerald's perfect guy? At least that's what's in his head right now. Doctor Gerald was a handsome, educated, successful young man, kind-hearted. Fina couldn't find where Doctor Gerald was lacking. Oh my... Suddenly, Fina realized one thing. Just this time his brain was filled with guys. Not the anxiety or thoughts of others. Fina feels a lot better now.
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Morning changed night. The sun changes stars. Win changed Gerald?
Fina was already wearing neat clothes. He sat for a moment in front of the mirror. Fina remembered something, when the Doctor called her “Fin”, she remembered Win. It should be Win who called him that. But now replaced by Gerald.
“Assalamualaikum” sound greetings enter Fina's ears politely. Fina knew very well from whom the melodious voice came.
Fina rushed out of the room. Gerald was already on the doorstep, greeted Father. The man was wearing casual clothes but still looked cool and charismatic.
“Well, there it is Finanya.” You look back, see Fina has pegged 3 steps behind the back of the Father.
Fina and Gerald threw smiles at each other. Fina is beautiful when you wear neat clothes. If Gerald is not asked, wear whatever he is always handsome. The parasite is like a model.
“Fina leaves first, yes, sir,” says Fina. Gerald also said goodbye. I sent a message to Gerald to look after his son. Without needing to be reminded, Gerald will definitely take care of his patients wholeheartedly.
Gerald and Fina arrive at the Night Market. The night market was fluttering. Flickering lights scattered like fireflies. Beautify the night sky. Fina and Gerald ride the reanglala. Some of the ringworms on the Night Market generally have high speeds. But not with the Night Market they visited. This bianglala as already designed to make visitors enjoy the glitter of lights and the breeze. So Fina could relax with Gerald in the bird's nest-shaped iron assembly.
“You know, Fin, life is like a reanglala. Sometimes we're at the top, sometimes we're at the bottom.” Gerald. His soul psychologist still follows often even though he has told Fina to see it as “Gerald” outside of consultation hours.
Fina. Gerald's words were right.
“So if suppose you're under, don't worry. There are times when you see the lights glitter,” said Gerald.
Fina consented. “When, the consultation from above here can be?” joking Fina made Gerald laugh. Gerald while laughing is getting more charming. His smile resembled a heart. Smile-box. This type of smile is not much owned by people and is fairly rare.
“Sorry, yes, so a habit. By the way it's always heavy.” Gerald asked Fina for understanding. Fina. Fina likes Gerald's meaningful and mature style of speech.
After riding the reanglala, Fina and Gerald bought a large, fluffy cotton candy pink. They take a walk around the night market, seeing people riding on rides. Starting from a soothing like a reanglala to a stressful one like a kora-kora.
Fina and Gerald stopped in front of the swinging kora-kora. Starting from slow, medium, to fast movement.
“Doctor ride dong,” pinta Fina.
“Hah? Whahuh? You told the doctor to go up?” Gerald smiled wryly.
“Bare to?” asked Fina underestimating.
“Bire! Time so doang not dare.” Gerald put on his hero's face, not to be underestimated.
“Fine dong..,” pinta Fina once again.
Gerald glanced at the watch on his wrist. The clock shows at 20:35. “
“It's been half nine nights, Fina. Let's go home, before last night.” Gerald clasped Fina's wrist, intending to take her away from it.
“I want to go up, Doc.” Fina made a decision. Gerald's bated. He gulped.
Eventually the two of them rode the kora together. Gerald inevitably had to accompany Fina on the ride. As the ride swung, Gerald did not stop shouting, until Fina's deaf ear was next to him.
“Fina... The doctor was afraid the doctor's voice was over. How will the doctor serve the patient?” worry Gerald on the sidelines of his fears. His facial expression was uncontrollable. The ride kept swinging. While next to her, Fina instead shouted in excitement while occasionally raising both of her hands into the air as the ship swung down.
Gerald staggered down from the vehicle. Fina helped Gerald walk. The girl was still fresh even though her body had already been swung around.
“Fina... You got a doctor, huh? The doctor's not a bachelor anymore, Fin.” Gerald staggered like a drunk. This is the first time he has tried this vehicle. While in Australia he never rode such a ride. Moreover, the vehicle is made of simple materials, making his fear more double-blind. Psychologists are also people who have fear.
“Iya, sorry, yes, Doc. The doctor maksain. Though Fina ride alone can also.” Fina embraces Gerald's body, worried that the doctor will fall down.
“It's not pa-pa. But you are still great fresh?” Gerald was surprised to see Fina who did not feel the slightest symptoms after riding the vehicle triggered the adrenaline.
“Neg dong. Fina that, loh.” Fina bragged.
“Now Doctors know, how strong the patient Doctor.” Gerald praised Fina. Fina just grinned.
Fina and Gerald get in the car. They didn't leave right away. Gerald needed a short break to recover his energy.
“Shut up a minute, Fin. It is not good to drive the car in a less stable condition.” Gerald asked for a 15-minute time frame for him. Fina consented.
Suddenly Fina's phone shook. There's a phone call from Win. It's 21:10 at night. What's the need Win called him?
Fina picked up Win's phone.
“Halo..” sahut Fina.
Hello Fin.. Not sleeping? Win's voice came out from the phone Fina was holding. But Fina did not press the los-speaker button so Gerald could not hear what Fina was talking about.
“Not yet. I'm outside again, Win. What's up?” ask Fina.
I can call you if there's anything else, huh? Win seemed annoyed when heard from his tone.
“Not really, anyway. But I'm again outside.” Fina explained, not wanting Win to misunderstand.
Oh, jeez, if it's outside. Later when it is in the home news. Win's words seemed to sound like Fina had just walked with him, not Gerald.
“Iya... Bye..” Fina hung up. He thought there was an urgent matter, his year was just an unimportant chat. .
“Basic Win,” rutuk Fina reflex.
“Hah? Who?” Gerald.
“Hah? E-no, schoolmate.” Fina flutter. Surprised to hear Gerald say. Uh... But why should Fina be nervous if she just called Win to Gerald? Fina has no relationship with anyone. Either it's Win or Gerald.
“Yuk, home.” Gerald felt his body was feeling good. He started the car and started to drive, pulling his car out of the parking lot.
Today, as long as Fina spent time with Doctor Gerald, Fina felt the same sensation as when she spent time with Win. Unstoppable feeling of happiness, until it feels like not wanting to go home. What's up with him? What is this feeling is normal because Fina has just re-interacted after for a year more imprisoned in solitude or.... This feeling goes beyond that.
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