Is It Wrong Not All Right?

World Mental Health Day

Fina misfocuses when she accidentally sees a date on her phone screen showing October 9, 2020. Tomorrow will be October 1p, 2020. What happened to that day? Tomorrow is a world mental health day. Fina never forgot that day. Every year he celebrates it. Doing things that were very important to him. Like solo traveling, buying a lot of new things, trying good foods and so forth.

But this time, he wanted to do something different. More helpful to others, not just to them. Butwhat? Fina sat for a moment in her bed, brain-twisting. His gaze accidentally saw the cover of the book by Lindy given to him during the release of the book. The title of the book led to an idea for Fina. “Do not be ashamed to be yourself.” Fina wanted to make people with various mental problems to be more confident. To be able to step on the world without being ashamed. To be able to make friends without fear of rejection. To be able to share the story and believe that it is okay not to be okay.

Fina already thought about what she would do tomorrow. Fina has also informed her High School friends to help succeed her plan.

A smile on Fina's lips. I can't wait for something spectacular tomorrow. Fina hoped the world could take a glance at her.

“Its gonna be end.” Fina muttered to herself with intonation full of smoldering flames.

Fina, who had eaten the pajamas, went to sleep.

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Today is October 12, 2020 which is the anniversary of the world mental health day. Fina, Letta, Fuji and Yola had already gathered in one of the parking lots by the side of a large road with some cardboard paper and each of them had writing.

It's 11:00 in the morning. The capital is bustling. They should have been able to do the plan, because the people that Fina contacted yesterday had all gathered.

“Wait for what else?” ask Fina to her girlfriends.

“There are still some who have not come.” Letta postpones.

“Well, that's it.” Yola pointed in one direction, which immediately made her friends turn at the same time.

A series of guys with each carrying a roll of cardboard were walking over. Hersa, Dery, Ahdan and... Win? Oh my... This was the first time Fina had ever met Win after so many months. Fina wanted to ask her how she was doing, but Fina was too awkward. Win is getting handsome.

“Gue that ngajak them. It’s OK right?” fuji said after seeing Fina's shock.

Fina just nodded.

After everyone has gathered. Without wanting to linger and immediately put an end to the awkwardness between Fina and Win, Fina interrupted to begin her plan.

“Wait..” Just as Fina wanted to make a move, the sound of someone's baritone stopped her.

Gerald and Lindy. They both walked over. Lindy waved at Fina, looking so cheerful. Gerald looks cool with a black leather jacket that matches the anti-sun glasses he wears. The two of them did not carry cartons, but banners. One of his friends must have told them.

After all the personnel gathered, Fina interrupted. “Are you ready guys?”

“Ready.” Answer them in unison.

They began to split to some point by carrying their respective cartons.

Dery stands in the middle of the road, opening the width of his cardboard paper saying: No pa-pa make it not okay.

Then, Fuji who was on the side of the road opened his cardboard that read: Stop making people with depression more anxious because the stigma is not clear.

Ahdan opened his cardboard which read: Depression does not mean lack of faith.

So did Yola with her cardboard that read: Destroy negative stigma about mental health.

Also Letta with her cardboard that read: You are not alone.

Win opened his cardboard which read: Depression is not a mistake.

Then Fina. The girl raised her hands high, then spread out her cardboard which read: I am a social anxiety sufferer. And now I realize I'm good enough.

And finally Lindy and Gerald with their banners measuring about 10 meters by 5 meters hoisted it at the crosswalk and tied it. Their banner reads: To a Psychologist does not mean you are strange.

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Their activities ended with a Gerald-traded meal. They eat at a cafe by the road. Fina sits with her girlfriends at one table, Win with her accomplice while Gerald with Lindy at another table.

Fina's permission to go to the toilet to her friends. While heading there, he runs into Win who just came from the toilet. Confidence spreads. Fina looked down, unable to look at Win's face. Fina continued to pass, suddenly from the back of her hand gripped. Fina surprised. Win?

“Mau follow.” Apparently Letta. Fina glanced towards Win who was already in his chair. He's too hopeful.

Fina nodded to Letta, then the two of them went to the toilet.

Fina ordered the dimsum. During the meal, he occasionally glanced at Win who was sitting opposite him who was chatting with his male friends. Errata. Not once, but often

. Win accidentally caught Fina who was looking at him. Fina hurriedly shifted her gaze, then Win returned to her busyness: Chatting.

It was so heartbroken that Fina saw those who were once familiar, now became strangers. But Fina must be able to accept reality, even though it is bitter and difficult.

They were going home but outside the cafe it was raining. Fina stood in front of the cafe courtyard all by herself, watching the raindrops falling. A piece of memories was back in his head. The moment when Fina and Win were caught in the rain then Win enveloped Fina's body and body with a jacket so that they would not get cold.

-flashback

“Fin.. “ call Win.

“Hmm?” Fina. Their faces are very close.

“Don't stay with me, huh? I love you so much,” said Win full of sincerity.

Fina smiled. “Even I hesitate to stay with you or not.”

Without Fina expecting Win to peek at Fina's cheek, making Fina fixated for a moment.

Fina's mind recalled that conversation and kiss. Fina regained her senses, returning to her present world. Accept the fact that their relationship is not as sweet as before.

Suddenly, someone gave his jacket to Fina, almost as Win had done to her first. The difference this time Fina wore her jacket alone. Fina. That man is Gerald.

“Cold, Fin. Go in first, yuk. Sick later. The rain is still raining. Later if it has subsided a bit, we go home.” Gerald persuades Fina to return to the cafe, as if persuading a child.

Fina according. He went into the cafe. His friends had already gone home, leaving him, Gerald and Lindy. The three of them were like a small family. What dreams Fina could be familiar with educated psychologists and famous writers.

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